And as is her wont, she takes a moment to survey the ship before actually getting up to start her day.
Dammit, she is going to have to replace that coil; it's starting to run warm, and that all too soon becomes running hot and then not running. Oh well, they'll be docked, and even if she's docking somewhere she might have to do her ostensible job, she has redundantly powered security in place; it would give even her several challenges, and she cheats.
...Plus, you know, she has a door, that closes. You don't need to worry about someone malicious breaking in, even if they have a lightsaber, if they can't do it before you can get your defenses back up.
Sadly, she still can't afford to armor the exterior properly, but R4's done some very interesting things with the repulsor engines' firmware, complementing her knowledge of repulsor physics, just in case she's in a situation where she'd rather have had a ship whose armor stood up to lightsabers.
Ah well. Lightsaber-proofing the exterior would hardly be subtle, anyway, and maintaining enough plausible deniability that the Sith Empire doesn't devote its resources to crushing her like a bug is important in her work. Plus, she's unfortunately become attached to her little ship. It feels like home, now, more than the contradictions of the Temple ever did, ever could, maybe ever would. It'd hurt to leave the Subtle Knife behind, even for the best cause.
Her thoughts drift, to the longer term, to things that are invariant, to the bedrock of her soul.
The Temple never didn't train warriors, no matter how much it claimed to value peaceful philosophy.
So be it.
She'd gone into the Temple knowing that she'd learn how to fight battles and wage wars, no matter how much all she wanted to bring to the world was peace and kindness.
She'd known that she would never be the best at talking, anyway. It just never clicked, the way engineering did, the way motion and time and energy had. Certainly not the way a thousand possibilities leapt to mind, when she thought about things going wrong. Apparently it was supposed to.
(It didn't. It wouldn't.)
So she'd fight, and die piece by piece as war wore her away, and maybe she'd live long enough to build something unambiguously good afterwards.
...Well. She's gotten all maudlin. That's not exactly where she wanted to go; she wants to find her way to a happy ending, not mourn the paths she can't take in this galaxy.
Refocus, then.
She loves her girlfriend. That's not even a happy ending, that's bright shiny happiness in the now.
She has a loyal friend in R4.
She does necessary, appreciated work for - not only the Jedi, but the galaxy, even if it's really more violent and deceptive than the kinds of work she'd like to do.
...She wants to build things. Building things feels right.
So what can she build, here and now?
What can she do that's useful and good for the galaxy, ideally something that doesn't involve getting up just yet (so she can cuddle her adorable sleeping girlfriend some more)?