"We were friends and I-- I had a crush on him, I guess. And then the king decided he liked him and-- and it makes sense, right, I'm a bad person and he's so so good, of course he's going to want to be friends with the king instead of me, and they were both so welcoming all the time and they didn't want me to feel bad about it but-- but I used to be the most important person to him and now I am not and I can't hold it against him because of course he wouldn't want to keep tolerating me forever, I just--" and then whatever he just gets lost in a pile of tears.

He's just going to cradle Kaleva, and not say what he thinks about the judgement of someone who wouldn't want to be around him. 

"But now there's a you," he says through his tears, "and you're from the Isle, and you're a bad person too."

"...I don't really know if I believe in good people and bad people. Just people." 

"That is the sort of thing a bad person would say," and he's smiling through his tears.

"Only because anyone calling themselves a good person is too high on superiority to realize it." Kaleva should smile more. Sasha doesn't let go, does thread his fingers through Kaleva's hair. 

"Oh, he wouldn't say that, he doesn't believe he's good at all," Kaleva says, and starts crying again.

Fuck that didn't help at all. 

He kisses Kaleva's cheek and holds him very close and pets his hair and doesn't try to say anything else. 

"I miss him," he says into Sasha's shoulder, and, "--I'm sorry, I shouldn't."

"You don't have to be sorry," he says, and "I miss my people too." 

"I can be your people," he says, and tucks Sasha's hair behind his ear. "--I mean, I know it's not the same, but."

"I'm not good at sleeping alone," and his voice is very soft. "It doesn't have to be the same." 

"I was terrible at sleeping with you. My foot fell asleep."

"You're so cute." 

"It was so nice to watch you sleep though. And I want to get good at it."

"So cute," he repeats. 

He kisses Sasha's forehead. "I meant it."

"I know you meant it. I wouldn't think it was cute if I didn't think you meant it." 

"No, I mean, the thing I said while we were-- you know. About you being mine and me taking care of you. I meant it."

...usually if an Auradonian is just saying things and expecting you to know when they mean them and when they don't, they dont bring the things back up again to assure you they meant it. Probably. 

"You've got me," he says, very cautiously. 

"Yeah, I've got you." He pauses. "--I would say that I love you but sodomites are not actually capable of true love. So."

"....is there a reason for it to be queer people in particular, or are Auradonians just being fucking weird again." 

"If you really really love another person you can do certain kinds of magic and there hasn't been a recorded case of a sodomite being able to do true love magic even in countries where it was accepted."

".....weird. Auradon is really weird, have I mentioned that?" 

"You've said!" He bounces.