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"Did that window elapse on the trip back or should I be kicking myself for forgetting to ask Ristrell -"

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<It is less than a day, and she was - already inclined towards an interpretation of us which that request would have exacerbated ->

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<She thought that we were excessively - concerned with harms to Andalites over harms to anyone else, and inclined to trample the rights of others for convenience, and believing ourselves entitled to special treatment. And asking for that specific Yeerk to be administered something to forget about it would probably have been an absurd inconvenience - I do not think you could do it at all without hosting him - and would have convinced her all the further of that view of us. It was not worth it. I am functional.>

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"...she does think that - but - I don't know - she's against involuntary hosting and I don't think it's abstract - the opportunity's past I guess this isn't productive."

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<She is unlikely to let me kill him.>

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<And soon enough it won't even matter whether I am functional.>

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"What are Andalite prisons even like - human ones mostly suck, I'm trying to get more Scandinavian styles popular elsewhere but people are jerks -"

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<Perfectly pleasant. Think the Dome, but open to the sky. It is more that I am keeping myself going right now with the knowledge that I want all these things to be accomplished and if I get lost in nightmares they will not happen, and once I cannot tell myself that I do not know what happens.>

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"...mm. Visitation?"

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<My family is dead and everyone else I care about is here with more important things to do.>

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"- and it takes ages to get there. Ugh."

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<It seems - obscene - to be sad about being bored when almost everyone I care about has irrevocably stopped existing.>

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"...I'm fairly sure you wouldn't hold anybody else to that standard of obscenity, am I wrong?"

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<I don't hold other people to any standards at all.>

 

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<What I said. I mostly treat things people do as - information about how I can do right by them and do right by other people with them, I do not compare the way they are to the way I think they ought to be, or the way I would expect myself to be. Take them as they come, I suppose.>

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<That's why if I met the Yeerk I would probably stop wanting to kill it. I like most people, no matter how awful, once I understand what they need and what it would mean to do right by them.>

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"They do have a way to sort of type, in the pools. You could talk to it without it having to be hosted or anything if that would help. I can't imagine Ristrell minding if you correspond."

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<I might ask her if it is interested.>

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"I hope it helps. If you do it. If you don't do it I will hope it would have been a waste of time."

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<I appreciate it. How are you doing?>

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