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<Could've been new.>

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<The gas was. Used to be you'd have a warning ->

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<Yeah.> Pause. <Time?>

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<One Earth hour and thirty seven minutes. We can head in if you would like, we both have a lot to do.>

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<Probably a good idea. It's nice to get up in the air now and then though, best stressbuster.>

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So they head back.

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And Bella goes back to work.

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It is getting clearer with time what constructive quasi-commercial quasi-diplomatic agreements with human governments look like and which ones are unconstructive. They renegotiate accordingly. Cayaldwin comes out with a box variant that snaps you back to your default form after two hours instead of leaving you nothlit; he does it mostly as a proof of concept, as it is not obvious which approach is safer. He thinks with some tinkering he could drag the limit out to two and a half hours, but that hardly seems a valuable angle compared to an actual solution. 

Matirin works very diligently and very efficiently and shudders violently every few minutes and otherwise does not move at all. 

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Every now and then Bella asks again if there's anything she could do for him in case such a thing has occurred to him recently.

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<I do not think so.

 

 

I keep wanting to talk to the Yeerk but that is probably both impossible and unwise.>

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"...talking to Astriss helped but it was. Really really different."

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<Just a little.>

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"I should probably stop comparing."

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<Why was talking with her helpful?>

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"She was - she knew she'd fucked up the second she was in and she was - intensely sincere about wanting to fix it? Not to the point where she'd have done anything she thought would actually kill her - or me, she didn't want it to end up with me dead either, she liked me and would've been forfeiting the chance for me to ever recover if she let me go enough that I could've bit my suicide capsule - but she really was planning to sneak off and come out and hope I took a deep breath before I did anything irrevocable, if she could've. She wanted me to know she didn't mean to hurt me. She was sad about being a nothlit but she didn't want to ever get stuck like that again. ...Also she is literally four years old. I'm... assuming yours wasn't like that."

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<We did not interact, I actually have no idea. I suppose I could construct a sympathetic story that encompassed all his actions but it would be a stretch.>

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"Well, one of the reasons I'm assuming yours wasn't like that is because Astriss was basically perpetually apologizing and begging me to calm down just for a second the whole time she was in."

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<Mine wanted me permanently, he was very disappointed when his commander ordered him to turn me over to someone higher-ranking. That is just about all I know - maybe could have picked up more, if I'd been thinking instead of screaming ->

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"I consider myself exceptional at DIY mental management and I didn't manage to stop screaming."

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<And I had every reason to assume that was it, forever, while I watched Earth and then the rest of the universe fall to them, while my thoughts helped make that happen ->

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<But maybe if I'd managed anyway I would have gotten something else off him. I do not - I do not - I wonder a lot what he thinks of the whole thing, beyond disappointment that he did not get to keep doing it ->

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"It's possible he isn't disappointed now that he knows what was going on? - I wouldn't, wouldn't count on it, but it's possible."

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<At the time I wanted to slowly torture him to death. Now I want him dead but - fast would be fine. If I knew more about him maybe it would be all right with me that he is swimming around there somewhere with the memory of everything I have ever felt or done ->

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"Do amnestics work after this much time -?"

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