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The only thing that sucks more than the Scholomance is not going to the Scholomance
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Alexei tries to ignore the sommersault his stomach does at "lovestruck", it's probably just a phrase, and focuses on the actual request. "...is... are... you and Scorpius really not...? He's not going to...?"

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“We’re really not. I mean, sure, there’s sexual tension there of some kind, but mostly I think neither of us know how to… have a friendship… without the verbal biting and the flirting? At least with each other. But, uh, no, he… mm. I respect and like him, but he wasn’t… He doesn’t…” she huffs a sigh and nestles closer to him. “He wasn’t there for me, and so he doesn’t… get to cut in line? As it were?”

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"...I... don't think... that's how it works? Us being friends first shouldn't mean... I mean people start dating new people... even with... existing friends?" How do words.

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Snort. “Okay, yes, it’s not ‘first boy has dibs’ or anything trite like that, it’s. … we… you and I, I mean, built something? Already? And he and I… haven’t. I don’t know, it. Hurts to think I might be passed over for three years by someone and then he swoops in to whisk me away to mana saturated excess or something. It makes me not trust it. Like I trust you.”

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Bluuush. "I trust you, too. I want... I want to date you, too. I just... I wouldn't want you, to... if you like him, I mean. ...I don't know how to say what I mean. He's a good person? I don't think he was... trying to... do that. Swoop in. I think. I mean, I said I don't think, but—" He stops himself and makes a frustrated noise at the back of his throat. Why are words so hard.

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“I don’t think he meant to either, otherwise I’d have just told him to fuck off and we’d be done with it,” she snorts. “I think he was just actually such a dumbass he ignored his own feelings for three years, pretending he was fine. Just. That still has effects? … I’m not settling, if you’re concerned, I just.” She runs her hands over him appreciatively, “… I really do want the quiet, sweet artificer that was there to steady me. Over the complicated explosive mess of a person. Okay?”

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He kisses her temple. "Okay. I wasn't... I mean... really worried. Or jealous. Just didn't want to... cause you pain. Or, or have to make you choose if you weren't going to. Or something. I don't want to be... a bad story. A teenage drama. If that makes sense."

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“Yeah. It does. But no, I just. I like you. I don’t want to break any hearts or lead anyone on or anything. Just. I’m still very confused about him? In general? And I’m. Really, really not confused about you.” Nuzzle. “So, ah. I’m yours if you’d like me?”

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"I would. I'd like you. I'd like to be yours, too."

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“Okay.” She gives him a quick peck. “Sappy romantic antics rubbed in everyone’s noses it is, then.”

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"But that might be. A problem. For the alliance. To get others, I mean." Because your alliance is meant to be the people you prioritise above everyone else, Yvette wasn't wrong about that, being in a graduation alliance is saying that you'll put your work and your mana into making sure all of you survive. If there are privileged relationships within an alliance—if you're, say, dating someone you're allied with—then everyone else knows that you'll prioritise them. And that makes people be wary of being allied with you at all.

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“…. Damn it. Yeah. But, but, I’m also a human weapon of mass destruction that will be fought over the minute I reveal it, so, so, probably it’s fine, but…” and now she pouts. “… I can keep a lid on it, if you’d rather?”

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"...I don't know. It'd be lying. And about the wrong thing. I..." He hums thoughtfully. "You thought you could die to a maw-mouth. The usual... worry. It's not... I know you are... not going to prioritise me. Or... you know what I mean. But others wouldn't.

"I don't know. I really don't know. I don't want to hide. But."

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“Yeah.” Huff. “Separately I’m not sure I’m a particularly good liar about… this. The contents of my heart. I can try but. … I really, really want to be the most obnoxiously affectionate girlfriend the Scholomance has ever seen. At you. In public.”

That last part comes out as a whine.

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Alexei sighs. "...is it bad that... this makes me think of Scorpius, again? He's... good at this kind of thing. Social things. Politicking."

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“No. We can go and pester him, I guess, though he… might also be upset. About us.” Siiiiiiigh. “Why must we have the most dangerous section of our life now, during puberty, when we don’t have things settled and secure and, and, and. It’s the worst.”

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"Do you ever... wish you weren't a wizard? That you were just mundane?"

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“…. Sometimes, yeah. I like doing magic, just. It feels like a cruelty to inflict all of… this… on someone. Several someones, if you want to heighten the chance that one of them will survive to adulthood.”

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Sigh. "Yeah. In another life we wouldn't have had to... worry. About alliances, and survival. We could just be together. I don't know why I'm being like this right now."

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“Because curfew’s approaching, and we won’t be able to just stay here together for the night?” she guesses, sounding more than a little miserable about it.

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"...yeah. Probably."

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She gives him a sad little smile.

“I’ll… do my best to keep a lid on how much I adore you? Outside of these four walls. But since you’re in here…” and her smile turns impish. “Is there anything I can do for you, darling?”

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He blushes again but valiantly digs into his soul for a scrap of suaveness and says, "I think I may have an idea or two."

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“I’m all yours,” she purrs.

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And so it is a great show of self control that she only smiles at him a little more than usual the next morning, when she’s up at the absurdly early hour the Russians keep.

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