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The only thing that sucks more than the Scholomance is not going to the Scholomance
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He lets out a strangled laugh and turns around, placing both hands atop his skull and shutting his eyes. "When was the last time any of you asked me how I was. And meant it. When was the last time any of you acted like I was a person, a real person. When was the last time any of you did a single pushup for mana."

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He turns to look back at them, again, and he's just broken. "She doesn't give a shit, you know. That I'm Scorpius fucking Lake. She doesn't think the sun is shining out of my ass and she doesn't think I'm invincible and she cared that, that, she cares a lot more than anyone else I know, about everyone. And no one, not a single person, not even me, gave her a chance. Ever. Because of that stupid aura, because we didn't have time. Because she's a bitch and everyone thinks she's a maleficer even though maleficers aren't like that, maleficers smile at you and are nice to you and help you with your homework like fucking Jacky Westing.

"And I've been telling. All of you. For days. And you all think there must be something she's doing to me, and." He reaches into his pocket where he's left his power sharer, the one he barely even puts on anymore, and he crushes it in his hand.

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"...Lake... I..."

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"You what, Thomas? You fucking what?"

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“…. I’m sorry,” says Chloe, in a small voice. “I, I thought, you always…” whenever she’d asked, years ago, he always blew her off. So she stopped asking. But that seems like a paltry excuse now, so she just shakes her head. “No. No excuses. I’m. I’m just sorry. We, I, didn’t mean to… hurt her. Or you.”

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Scorpius can't say that he's blameless, here. He did shut them out, many of them. ...some needed less shutting off than others, but...

...he's finding it hard to really be charitable. Not, not when he just... he almost...

"Just go away. And stop trying to take potshots at Yvette I just fucking like her as a person. However wild the idea may be to all of you."

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“Okay. I’m. I’m so sorry.”

She really wants to hug him, but he probably… doesn’t want her to. Not right now.

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No. He super does not.

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Jermaine also kind of wants to hug him but will instead... leave. Yeah.

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Jennifer and Magnus, who are two of the people Scorpius didn't need to try very hard to shut out, are the first ones to actually turn around and go.

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“… Let me know if you need to copy my alchemy homework for class,” offers Chloe, as the resident enclaver who’s also in alchemy track. It’s pathetic and insignificant in comparison to actually almost killing his friend, but it’s better than nothing at all. Or maybe it isn’t, she doesn’t know. But then, yeah. She’ll. She’ll just go.

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Once they're gone he lets himself fall onto the floor and draws his knees in close to hug them, bury his face in them, and sob. If he were anyone else, this'd be an invitation to have mals come devour him in his weakness. But being who he is... he would most certainly welcome having something to kill. It would beat being in his head right now.

And being, in fact, who he is, nothing does come for him, and the library lights stay resolutely lit above his head, so all he does is cry.

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After they’ve exhausted themselves enjoying each other and escaping from this wretched world in each other’s touch, Yvette holds Alexei, tracing fond circles into the skin on his back and trying not to drift off to sleep. If she falls asleep, he’ll probably be gone by the time she wakes. Not because of him, or anything, but because of fucking curfew.

“I want you to live so, so badly,” she admits softly, to her ceiling. “Yes, graduation alliance, just. The world is so much better with you in it.”

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He laughs, or maybe blows air through his nose a bit harder than normal is a better description of it, and places a kiss on her shoulder. "I would... say the same... but... you killed a maw-mouth. —sorry."

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This elicits a snort from her, too. Hearing about a maw-mouth doesn’t draw the same feeling of wretched disgust, right now. Not when the last thing her skin remembers is his instead of… its.

“Yeah. I’m kind of fine if I’ve got mana to burn and a target. The devil’s in finding the little fuckers. How the fuck did I miss one on my dress earlier…?”

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He shrugs. "It was very small. I don't understand why Scorpius—well. Anyway, Scorpius wants to give you mana, right?"

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“Yeah. Which’ll help, just. I’m human and need to stay on my toes. … instead of, uh. What was I doing, trying to last minute act like I have a shot at valedictorian if I just try hard enough?”

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Snort. "To... distract yourself?"

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“Mmhmm.” She nestles against him and kisses his hair. “But this was nicer, safer, and significantly more effective!”

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He looks away, blushing. "Happy to be of service."

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“Happy to have you.” Nuzzle nuzzle. “Um. Do… should we be an official thing, subject to the fickle whims of the gossip network and all? I don’t think I could look at you in public without melting into gooey eyed romance and sonnets, but…”

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He laughs a more honest laugh, now. "Sofia and Natalya have known it, that I felt like this, before I did."

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“That does explain why Sofia was so upset about me potentially toying with your heart. For the record, I was desperately burying my feelings and pretending they didn’t exist because it’s objectively stupid to care about other people in here, not… anything else? And I was upset at her for getting hung up on teen love triangle drama over, you know. Being a solid ally that will work to actually keep you alive.”

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"...she thought you'd seduced me into this alliance and that you were endangering my life by doing so. I do not know if she believed me when I said that wasn't true."

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“I don’t think so. Little did she know that I was absolutely willing to just. Work to get you through graduation without an alliance to speak of.” She traces circles onto his back, absently. “… I’m going to be absolutely insufferably sweet with you, you know. Unless you’d rather I didn’t, but. Just the most ridiculously lovestruck, gooey romantic teenager the school has ever seen.”

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