"I'm having a few too many epiphanies today to draw any conclusions one way or another on that matter," he dodges. "Um. If I am then I'd guess this is... probably sent my God somehow? I never believed in the devil."

"...um, wow, okay. I uh. I don't know, I thought..."

"I didn't want to mention it because... you know. Everything else."

"Why?"

"Oh, Fel. It's not like I was the most devout Catholic, is it, I dodged confirmation..."

"...you did, but... you told the nun you weren't spiritually ready."

Here's the park, at a narratively convenient time for Peter to lead the way somewhere they can sit.

"I'm not sure what I was. But now I have a magic notebook and I think we might be in a literal story whatever that means and I have no idea what that means for my religious beliefs."

"But... I mean..."

Peter looks at his friends for help. ...well, not Vivian, what with how she's trying to pretend to be a tree very hard over there.

"Hey, don't look at me, I'm an atheist."

"Does it really matter?"

"It kinda does!!"

Vivian cringes, inhales, and drops the tree impression.

"Felicia, you know how I'm cool about you guys being Catholic even though when we met I was kind of twitchy about it?"

"...yeah?"

"The reason I started being cool about it is that I realized the reason society works is that people politely ignore when other people privately believe things that sound insane to them. Like God existing. Or God not existing. Or God probably - no wait that'd be bitchy, nevermind, sorry. Anyway. You seriously cannot make your sibling be Catholic. The best you can do is emotionally blackmail him about it."

That last sentence kind of breaks her down into nervous giggling.

"I don't want to make him Catholic, I just... I thought he was. And now if he's not I, I don't know."

"...Fel. Come here and hug me."

...okay.

"The notebook said many worlds have gods but she didn't think ours does."

She pulls away, a wild look in her eyes. "What?"

"She said she can't know for sure because she's a notebook. But the way she put it, I think... there's worlds where it's much more obvious, right. And... here we are. So if there's a God, or Catholicism is true, it's a lot less obvious than elsewhere and in principle I may be visitng worlds that do have obvious gods. And I don't know what that means, but, but I think Catholicism isn't true actually because lots of worlds are real, maybe all of them, and the Catholic God can't have made them all."

Welp it is her turn to start hyperventilating and having a panic attack. "I, I, I, I—"

"That was a bad idea."

"Pretending I hadn't thought and asked about it was a bad idea, it felt like lying."

Vivian hugs Felicia too. "Could you have waited for her to not already be breaking down - breathe, girl, come on - fuck it, Felicia do you need a Xanax, I have mine in my bag and they are literally for this -"