He's quiet and still for a long while. With occasional sniffles.
"I thought Kef was safe! But it's not!"
That's just complaining that won't help. He thinks some more.
"Because he's bigger than me? Not because he poisoned me with burny powder? Disinuria is stupid."
And the Magistrate is asking him to kill somebody. Not just a rabbit or a deer, a dumb animal who gets trapped half-alive in a snare, but a person. He's mad and wants to hit things but that's a person.
"I don't want to hurt anybody. He was trying to steal me but... People dying is so bad. If this happened in Gale Rocks I don't know what would happen. Maybe they'd exile him. But d-dad also said that if... If you're going to be responsible for killing something, you need to look it in the eye. I killed the animals he hunted sometimes. And I don't want to make Lin do it either."
She's a child too. Maybe. Unless she's a spy.
"Lin already got hurt because I was stupid and thought Tomas was being weird but didn't- Run away or something- And I was so stupid. I'm gonna fix it."
He tried to burn magic to heal them both, earlier. He's lucky it's really hard to do it without really wanting to. It's permanent and it would never come back. But he can fix his eyes. Probably. He hopes. He was already really stupid to burn magic to leave Gale Rocks. He misses it, even if dad is horrible and an idiot. Gale Rocks made sense. Mostly.
"I could fix my eyes and Lin's eyes with burning magic. I can always do that when I really really have to. I don't want to but I can. I guess disinuria is like burning magic to hurt people. You can't do that ever ever ever ever. Only to help people or for yourself. Or you'll get tortured and all your friends and family will be in trouble too. 'Cause if people do that, everything would be bad, so it can't happen ever. The Ejer hated that law. They used to burn magic a lot. So I guess he has to die 'cause you can't let people get away with it even once."
He shivers.
"You can burn someone with way too much light. I could do it that way. Maybe. Or other ways if I'm not a secret."
Being secret was supposed to keep him safe. He should have been MORE SECRET. He should never have showed anyone magic at all, not even the translating. It's way too late for that now though.
"I'm really mad this happened. I hate Kef now. And I still think disinuria is kind of stupid. But I also don't want Lin to have to. So I don't know. Also I want to talk to you more when I'm not crying and mad. About being a secret and keeping secrets and running away and and and Kef and wars and bandits and humans and... Stuff."
Sniff. He takes a deep breath.
"Doing Green magic when you don't know what you're doing is not safe. But I don't care and I'm gonna try to fix my eyes no matter what. It will be easier if I have a doctor explain everything about eyes to me and people who have good eyes let me use 'sensory' magic on them. But I'm gonna do it anyway if nobody helps even though it's more dangerous."