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Halthis notices! “Oh! I’m sorry - was that painful, should I not—”

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Headshake! Emphatic pointing in the vague direction of his feet! 

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Okay, Kalorm making that facial expression is ADORABLE. Not that Halthis is going to let slip any hint of that reaction! Kalorm would probably be so irritated.

“Would you like more stretching? You’ve been pretty immobile for a while, so I won’t be surprised if some of the stretches end up being painful, but if you’re up for it, it will do your muscles some good.”

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Yes! Kalorm would like more of whatever she was just doing! (Proprioception is not entirely working and he couldn’t actually see it from this angle, so he isn’t sure.)

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He can have a whole five-minute session of lower body passive range-of-motion exercises and stretches, then! Halthis isn’t in a hurry to do anything else; her attention is mostly on his vital signs, as she predictably has to keep creeping up on the ventilator O2 concentration.

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How about she never stops doing that. (Some of the tendon stretches are pretty painful! But not really in a bad way, and it’s definitely a much-desired distraction from Mysterious Feet Unpleasantness.)

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- except that! His left hip is sore and does not like being bent at that angle! 

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Halthis notices his grimace and the change in his breathing, and immediately straightens the leg again (gently!) and places it back on the supporting pillow. 

“I’m so sorry. That looked painful?”

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It sure was! 

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“I’m really sorry I hurt you. Is it okay now?”

She feels a brief urge to ask Kalorm if she can unfasten his hospital pajamas to have a peek, but it’s not hard to predict that he’ll be unenthused even if he reluctantly agrees, and it’s unlikely to be an emergency.

[Can I get someone on reviewing historical scans and imagery?] she subvocalizes to the command center admin. [Look for bruising or other soft-tissue injury to left hip] If there’s nothing documented to explain his pain, and it persists, then she can press Kalorm on consenting to a diagnostic ultrasound, just in case it’s a blood clot or something.

(Also, she has a plausible explanation for why he doesn’t want to lie on that side! One that suggests some positioning interventions to make it more tolerable for him, even.)

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Kalorm nods. Closes his eyes.

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Halthis eases the ventilator O2 setting up to 65%, and then watches the numbers. Kalorm’s oxygen saturation is hovering at 93%, which is within parameters, and he seems to be stabilizing there. 

“I don’t think we had better try a minimum-settings trial until after your next reposition,” she says apologetically. “So, let’s say in ninety minutes?”

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Oh no how is he supposed to convey via hand gestures that in that case he MIGHT AS WELL get the stupid dialysis over with? 

(Kalorm has been sort of operant-conditioned into not bothering to try to mouth words and hope the subvocalization throat microphone parses them, because it usually doesn’t very well, and because being aware of his tongue in his mouth unpredictably causes nausea to jump out from its hiding spot.)

Kalorm eventually, effortfully, manages to conclude that “pointing at the general location of his dialysis line” will probably work? 

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It does! (Maybe mostly because Halthis currently has this high among her priors! If she didn’t she would be a lot less sure whether he was instead, like, trying to communicate some other problem happening in the groin area.)

“Do you want to give the dialysis a try again?” she checks. “I did also look at our options for noise-cancelling headphones, and there’s a model that should be very comfortable and not too obtrusive - it doesn’t stay on if you’re moving, but if you’re going to mostly try to nap through this it should be fine.”

(Actually, someone who was not her proposed this! Halthis has managed to pick up that Kalorm doesn’t love being reminded that there are EVEN MORE strangers involved in his care.) 

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Kalorm rolls his eyes about this too, but sure, whatever, if he’s been managed into voluntarily agreeing to the horrible thing, he might as well also agree to making it a little less horrible since he’s already let The Medical System win this one 

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Then Halthis will get that set up! (Hopefully he lets them finish this time. Repeatedly preparing a new filter is kind of a hassle.)

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The noise-cancelling helps. Vaguely imagining Merrin excitedly toggling controls like a wizard also helps. Kalorm manages to fall asleep a few minutes in, and stay asleep for the next 80 minutes.

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Amazing! Then Halthis will get his electrolytes so nicely balanced within normal parameters (magnesium and potassium on the low side of normal since they’ll predictably start rising as soon as the circuit is disconnected), and then even getting his urea and creatinine well below the normal upper limit. 

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The most noticeable effect is that, while his heart rate is unchanged, his blood pressure is way up, running around 125/80 rather than 105/60, even while he’s in deep, stage III slow-wave sleep. Though she did also manage to adjust the painkillers down to about 2/3 of the previous continuous infusion rate, which could be a confounder on blood pressure. 

He slides into REM sleep for a while, though he’s caught up on most of his REM debt at this point. His breathing speeds. Heart rate and blood pressure both shoot up. 

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…Huh. It almost looks like he’s having a nightmare? Halthis doesn’t disturb him, though, just administers some as-needed beta blockers to get his heart rate and blood pressure back inside parameters.

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Kalorm is with Boat and his team, and they travel out further and further, a thousand miles from shore. It’s bitterly cold. The water is flat and dark and empty around them, the stars are almost too bright and clear and the aurora borealis rings the northern sky.  

He wishes he could show Dad. Wishes his father or anyone else would care

 

and the radar doesn’t warn them in time, but it’s as though Boat has her own senses and warns him in a language that isn’t made of words (if only he could share that language with Dad, or with anyone) and he tries to veer away from the danger he can’t see or hear–

 

 

(in real life, two years ago, they turned aside in time)

 

 

but this time they don’t and he sees the prow-lights’ reflection on the submerged iceberg when it’s already too late, and the carbon-fiber hulk tears and shreds on the ice with a scream that in their wordless language means “I’m sorry”

and 

and he should care

he should be trying hard trying something anything

but he doesn't and somehow it's as though everything is suddenly quieter and further away and 

 

and the water should be cold like knives but it’s not

it’s thick and heavy and warm like glue and it closes over his head and he can'tseecan'tmovecan'tthink and

somehow he can apparently breathe under the water but it's wrongbad breathing that tastes like plastic and

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When he finally struggles fully awake, Halthis is holding his hand (and has her other hand gently pinning his knee, because he wasn't quite thrashing around but he was definitely tensing up and she really did not want him to accidentally pull out his dialysis line, it's well secured with a dressing and also literally sutured in but she does NOT PUT IT PAST HIM). 

"Hey. It's okay. You're okay. You're still at Default Hospital. I think you were having a nightmare. Try to take some slow deep breaths." 

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he doesn't want to be here he wants it to be before they hit the stupid iceberg or whatever is even supposed to have happened this time

 

 

 

Kalorm tries to take deep breaths. 

Inconveniently it feels like way too much effort to ask when Merrin is going to be back. 

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"It's about 5:15 pm," Halthis tells him when it seems like he's fully with her. "That was a really good dialysis run." She did have to go up to 75% O2 concentration on the ventilator during the first half, but since then she's actually been able to bring it back down and is now at only 55%. "If you're feeling okay now, I'll get it disconnected." 

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Kalorm is fine except for the part where he's in a hospital and is mad about this (and the part where he's pointlessly worried about his boat and whether anyone brought the wreckage back so he can rebuild her, or whether she just...sank, unseen, unrescued).

He nods. 

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