Haru kind of kisses it off his face but very chastely. "Mm. I'm not sure I can do that on purpose without doing something, uh, psychologically stupid."

"Don't do something psychologically stupid!  Spit in my mouth!  - If you want."  Additional tear.

Mwah. Tear is sipped. "That's really gross? I might be able to get over it being really gross but my usual ability to do stuff like get over things being gross is out of commission."

More Real Crying.  "...You don't like musical theatre."

"...I don't have strong opinions about it? I have like, ever gone to a musical theater."

"But you're not - into it - and so a stage kiss is not - a useful concept here."

"I am not enough of a theater kid to execute on the concept no."

Julien is - not quite hyperventilating, but breathing pretty hard and kind of fast.

Does hugging him a little harder help?

It gets his breath to hitch irregularly instead of being in a consistent pattern.

That seems... good...? maybe?? "Hey. Hey I'm here."

...He manages to uncurl enough to offer Haru his very wet face.

Yeah okay more sanity will probably help?

"I hate this."

"Yeah it's bad. I hope you get really good powers."

He shakes his head.  "I just - I sexually harassed the older you, really badly, because - I thought everything was a simulation meant to - hurt me - and I thought that's what it wanted - and I don't want to do anything wrong - but - I don't know what could possibly be happening here, I know dungeons don't take espers but I don't know whether I count - and - it's your birthday - am I not supposed to take that as a sign - if this is real I'm not, obviously, but how could it be, there's - I'm not sane enough to handle this, which is dumb because this is definitely happening because I'm insane - but - guiding at least seems to work like it's real and you won't even spit in my mouth even though that's not rape - I hate myself and I hate all of this and I'm really sorry.  I'm sorry."  He pulls away for half a second but then - stops doing that.

It's good that he stops doing that because Haru makes a really distressed noise when he pulls back! "I - I think that dungeons don't take people mid-awakening but it's possible to start awakening already in a dungeon?" he says, sounding rather at a loss.

"Blood transfusion won't even work between us, if we had the equipment.  Or, I can give to you..."

"I'm A-positive and you're, what, A-neg? O-poz?"

"O-something."

"Well that sucks. If there were any hope of getting me zeroed for like - fifteen minutes - then I could do my introspecting thing - but that's really not happening no matter what -"

"Does it have to be zero or is there something if we happen on a transfusion apparatus - not that - I don't want to do anything wrong."

"If older me didn't say then I don't know, maybe I can do it at like five percent of this or something. It feels really really far away though."

"He said that sex would probably only get me to 60%.  For fifteen minutes."

"Even if that was with him zeroed I don't think that us both being awakening can help by that much."