...Blegh. "I - it's fine." 

She shrinks in on herself a bit.

“No, it’s not. I’m sorry.”

"I can give back your phone if the plan is just that you read blog posts, that seems safe, but maybe you should - log out of a bunch of stuff or something."

She's - "N-No, it's okay, you were just joking, right? And I do want read his blog, I just," oh she's blabbering, she needs to breathe, but her chest feels a bit tight...

Okay it's Cara's turn to be in the middle of a sandwich again.

“How about, I read you his stuff off of my phone.” Snuggles!!!

The guiding feels good but she's still kind of short of breath, and feels like - she doesn't know what she's supposed to be doing -

Oh, Lucy wants to read to her. "O-okay."

She's shaking.

"...Cara, do you want to do that. Can you tell right now."

Oh no oh no oh no she's at the center of attention in a bad way she's taking up too much space she's causing problems she's being annoying "Sorry, I - it d-doesn't sound bad - I like being read to, I like you both - I just - I"

What should she say what should she do how does she make them not freak out how does she not freak out

"It kind of sounds like you're really stressed out and I'm not sure what I should do about that if extra guiding isn't it."

…Hairpets???

"I'm sorry, I just - I don't want to be a problem - " she sobs out.

"Cara, you're awakening, awakening is awful, my aim here is to make it minimally so, can you help me with that?"

She hiccups and tries to catch her breath. "S-sorry. Um. I - this isn't my backlash, this is me, I don't like" taking up space, being annoying, burning up people's patience until they leave "being this much of a problem. It can make me freeze up."

“—Sorry, how are you being a problem?”

She looks wildly at Lucy, trying to figure out if she is being made fun of, but it doesn't seem like it??

"I'm having a panic attack and making you both comfort me and also being impossible to comfort? It's loud and bad and annoying and wrong?"

“…No.”

...Cara starts crying, but her breathing slows down, and she stops babbling, at least for a bit.

"You're not making me do anything."

“And it’s not loud or bad or annoying or wrong.”

She clings to them both and sniffles while she tries to collect her thoughts a bit. 

"I just - being scared or sad or hurt at people is - is itself scary. I don't want to be a burden. It pushes people away and I - I really don't want that, I like you two a lot and I want you to like me and when I get like this there is - not much about me to like -"

“If we were going to be pushed away by you hurting, then you’d never have had us at all. If you can’t cry on someone then you and they are nothing.”

Wow that's actually a really escalatory sentiment to include him in when he met Cara this recently but Lucy's backlashed too. "You're so much lower maintenance than I was during my awakening, and that's the thing I'm comparing to when I'm comparing at all."

She sniffles. "-sorry, Lucy, but - I - I just don't think that's true? You can be friends with someone and care about them without wanting to talk them down from a panic attack twice a day. And, like - especially someone you met yesterday! You both are being really nice to me and I appreciate that a lot, a-a-and things are weird and we are giving each other a lot of leeway because two of us are awakening, but - " She takes a deep, shaky breath. "I-it is still the case that people can and should have boundaries, about this type of thing."

"t-that does help some, thanks", she says to Haru.

"You're welcome. If it would help I can probably come up with embarrassing my-own-awakening anecdotes to tell."