When Vanyel is ready for the mad science tour, he shows him the monkeys. "They're monkeys," she feels it necessary to clarify. "I know they look very human at this point, because the whole point of them is that I'm going to move into one if I ever die, but they're not people, and I have forbidden the staff to name them. I could move into one now if I had to but I'd like to get one actually looking like me in particular first, and I want to stick more Gifts into them, I got Fetching out of some Changesquirrels but further work is needed." She shows him the mice, too. "Do you suppose Jisa'd like a winged mouse? What's her favorite color?" She shows him all her microbiology eggs. "That's a flu sample from the recent plague! I remembered to take one. Those there are other flus. The white eggs have more-alive microbes and the brown eggs have less-alive kinds - there's a cold one of the staff mages had a few months ago, there's food poisoning, there's the most common kind from healthy intestines - you could get your Sight this fine, you know, I don't do heavy Healing-Gift use apart from Sight for this work."
:I, um, need some advice: Hesitation. :Rolan did the - thing, with the Shadowgod avatar. And showed up. And wants to talk to me. Help. What do I do:
:Seems like taking him back is the right thing to do, here, it'll mean less fuss about whether I'm a legitimate heir. But I guess I'm still pretty mad at him:
:I mean, is there really any hurry, you could insist on time to think or on an apology or whatever would make you feel settled about it:
:If that offends him that might be, uh, useful information on how you want to proceed? I don't really know a lot about what your Companionship was like:
:He was - a good teacher, in a lot of ways, but honestly, looking back, he was kind of an asshole. And patronizing: Pause. :I think I want to tell him that if I take him back, he needs to not do that anymore:
:Makes sense to me. He might need a while too? He's just undergone one major revision and it could take a bit before he's willing to commit to more changes. But you have time, I'm immortal, you can talk it out:
Silent acknowledgement. :Can you - come be moral support while I talk to him? I, um, know that's probably really awkward, you don't have to...:
Dara flashes a mental image of her location, in the new-planted and rather sad grassy area near where the Palace is being rebuilt.
Dara takes a deep breath, braces herself, and Mindspeaks Rolan. :I can talk now:
:Do you want me to just, like, have a conversation with him and try to segue into it, or - feed you lines -:
:No, I can do this: She takes a few deep breaths, and turns back to Rolan.
:Rolan. I want to hear what you have to say, but I want an apology first:
Dara's eyes flash to Belrun. :Is it just me: she sends, privately, :or is that the most cop-out apology ever?:
:...Um, can you help me with a script to ask for a better one? I'm kind of mad! ...Is that reasonable, should I be mad...?:
:That's super reasonable! He ripped a bond out of your head for thinking thoughts! I'm - I really don't know what your relationship was like and if Amshalan did this to me I'd - well, the whole history's different so it isn't a good comparison - uh - I don't know, I'm kind of curious if he considers himself responsible on any level but I don't know if that'll actually elicit the best attitude:
Dara takes another few deep breaths, and reaches to grip Belrun's hand very hard. :Rolan, I - I'm still very upset, and, I, I want...:
:You hurt me. I don't know if you could've known not to, I know it - was something that was done to you, too - but I need to hear you say, to my face, that it wasn't right or fair to me, and that whatever Power made you that way, you. are the one who did it: