I'm not as happy about it as I could be, but yes.

Why not?

She blasted Lance and I reacted without thinking, always a bad idea, and hit her with a force blast. Which accomplished the goal of getting her out of the air, but more harmfully than I would have chosen if I'd been considering the bigger picture at the time, and also if Lance hadn't caught her before she hit the ground she'd probably be dead.

And for some reason I'm not allowed to personally apologize to her, which is frustrating.

Oh. I'm sorry *hugs* Is there anything I can do to help?

I don't know. Part of me wants to do a bunch of intensive weapons testing focused on things I can actually take out on patrol instead of things to kill Endbringers with, but that wouldn't actually have helped, I still can't knock an unprotected flyer out of the air safely without my own damn pair of wings.

Any brilliant ideas for how I can get my wings in the next week?

I'm still somewhat fuzzy on the exact details of what counts as sufficiently amazing and such.

It's a pretty fuzzy subject. If I weren't such an overachiever, capturing two supervillains in my first month with the Wards would probably have done it, but I'm finding it hard to congratulate myself under the circumstances.

In that case I'm not sure there's anything you could do that'd count short of actually killing an Endbringer.

I actually think even getting a solid hit in would do it. And that much we can certainly accomplish. But not until the next Behemoth or Leviathan attack. In the meantime I'm torn between not wanting to go out on patrol at all since it seems to do nothing but waste my time and encourage me to lose track of my priorities, and wanting to get back out as soon as possible to protect my teammates. I like my teammates.

Do you even have a choice on the matter? I thought patrolling was mandatory.

I don't go out again until I write a report on how I intend to correct my mistake.

That's terrible.

I mean, it would be almost reasonable if it weren't for the underlying attitude... it's hard to describe, but I did not feel like I was in a cooperative discussion with someone who wanted to help me improve.

Well, they're probably used to dealing with typical teenagers, which you're clearly not.

Aren't I?

Not in all respects, at least!

I seem to be more interested in saving the world than the average teenager, it's true. Although I suspect Lance feels similarly.

You also seem to actually look into ways of doing it instead of just playing that role.

Well, yes. I don't know, I think other people could do that too with a little encouragement.

I'm pretty sure most teenagers do not think in terms of 'being in a cooperative discussion with someone who wanted to help you improve.'

Don't they? Why not?

You'd have to ask them, but my best guess is that they don't think of themselves that way, as people-who-improve, or something along those lines. I mean, that's true of people in general, but teenagers in particular seem to want to fit molds and play roles and even 'being a superhero' is a mold that has specific things that should happen and such.

Well, that's silly.

Isn't it just.

Anyway. How have you been? Catch any supervillains while I wasn't looking?