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Abadar uses a helm of opposite alignment on Hagan and a bad time is had by all
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"Do you remember your actual favorite color of hat?"

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"I remember what I thought it was at the time."

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"...okay. Uh. I guess I will ask some Healers if they know what is up with this. Maybe they'll be less useless than they were for you being tired all the time and bad at walking."

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"I think I stopped wanting things. Not perfectly. But mostly. Because I wasn't supposed to."

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"- Korva, the only thing I wanted was for you to try for an heir with me. Not to - 

- you're not a slave -"

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"This is a way I'm supposed to be different from one?"

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"I guess? I haven't thought about this very much - I guess probably people should have preferences even if they're slaves, really -"

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She stares at her blanket.

 

"I'm sorry. I don't - think I know how you want me to be. I was trying but I think I got it wrong."

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" - you did really great. I needed - a lot from you. I needed you to have sex with me even though you didn't like it, even though spells didn't fix it perfectly. And I needed you to be okay even though we lost - everything we'd wanted to do with our life. And it ...makes sense, that it hurt you a lot. We knew it would. We just had to get - here - and now we can fix it."

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" - which thing do we need to fix?"

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"The thing where you're miserable and don't know what you want!"

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She flinches a little. " - okay. I'm sorry."

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"I don't think you did anything wrong, here. Just - something that we need to fix now that we have the resources."

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"Okay.

"Don't know how to be right."

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"Yeah. Me neither. We'll try Healers and the baby should help and - I dunno. We'll get there."

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"I don't think healers can fix it if you make yourself forget how to want things? - I guess I don't know that much about healing - "

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"Me neither. But - maybe they can remind you? Or at one point you tried seeing therapists. You could try that again."

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"I guess so.

 

"I don't know what you want me to be? You didn't like me before - "

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"What? I did."

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"I wasn't doing what I was supposed to. And I guess I'm not now either, but - "

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" - neither of us was doing what we were supposed to. But we were doing our best. That's - all you have, sometimes, is your best."

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"I - thought I wasn't? And then I - I think I'm not explaining something right about what happened, and I don't know whether I'm supposed to be trying or whether I should just - whether you want me to do something else now - "

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" - I want you to rest and try to take care of the baby, and think about - wanting things. And I will come visit, unless you decide you want me to not come visit."

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She lies back down and looks sort of miserable again.

 

"Okay," she whispers.

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