"That it doesn't solve backlash to hang out with him. And it does to hang out with you. And then after I'm done awakening I guess I might want more breaks but I don't want you to have to sit through it totally unguided, that would suck."

Lucien thinks on this for a moment.

"And. It's worth it even though I'm being. Um. Like this?"

"Yes. It feels as nice for me as it does for you and I like you and I understand that you are not in your right mind."

"It feels as nice for you as it does for me??????"

"...I guess it's possible the compatibility is asymmetrical but that could as easily be in either direction!"

"I am confident it is the nicest feeling thing I have ever felt. By a lot."

"Yes. It's one of the big perks of being an esper right up there with peak human health and magical powers."

"If it feels that good for you too. Um. Would you like kiss some more?"

"I would really like that but I do not think we came to an adequate conclusion about whether, if we get carried away, you are going to feel appalled about it in a week and whether we will successfully use a condom."

"I am only going to be appalled if you are? I am confused about you not hating it considering it's me but I don't see a reason I would be appalled otherwise.... I think if the alternative is going to be to be like this with you for so many days than maybe I. Should actually try to make your plan from before work."

"Do you want me to close my eyes or do you want me to, um, help."

"...I don't want to force you to help? But that would. Help. I think. If you didn't hate it."

"I feel like I am wronging you by saying all that and am ignoring this because you seem less insane than me and the PRT handbook has an advisory that says that keeping secrets about your internal state from your allies is a bad idea and even if I'm no longer bound by specific regulations that bit seems like it might still be relevant."

"It's not a tactical question, it's just - you're going up too many levels of meta, I think." She sighs and kisses his shoulder and reaches over his waist.

Lucien starts to formulate a reply but is interrupted by the sun.

He's cuuuuute.

"Mmmm. I am finding it very hard to continue to be upset like this."

"Well, you aren't supposed to be upset so that's good."

"But... you're good?"

"Thank you."

Well that is one of the things he meant by that statement/question.

It is not actually going to take more than a minute for him to shudder and then May's hand is going to be wet.

Fluid exchange is good and also she doesn't want to go digging in the cupboards for tissues; she retrieves her hand and licks it off. ...wow it's amazing how that tastes bad and is also for guiding reasons really moreish, it's like a terrible flavor of potato chip or something.

Lucien is going to cling tightly to May now apparently.

"I'm um. Probably good for a bit but I'm not actually sure how long of a bit."

Wow he can see May's face from this angle and she's pretty....

"Possibly not a very long bit."

"No reason that has to be the only time."

"I-do you mind doing it?"

"No." Nuzzle.