May was about to fall back asleep in Ren's arms, and now she is not in Ren's arms, which puts paid to the "fall back asleep" plan.
It's not in his desk, where the hell is the panic- oh. He turned it in when he agreed to work with the Undersiders, since he is no longer a Ward and they wouldn't answer it anyways. Hrm, possibly he should call Tattletale when he is panicing instead???
"Uh, you are in Brockton Bay. Assuming espers is your local word for capes I'm guessing you are rather far from home?"
"Is that a dungeon? I don't know every named dungeon, I do follow the news but I don't know that one. Um I am trying to be very cooperative with figuring out what the fuck on the grounds that I too would really like to know but also it turns out my backlash is being really really lonely and could I perhaps trouble you for a hug in the meantime? Like a really really long hug. Like actually this is just going to keep happening to me all week."
... What. That is. Such a request. And extremely suspicious coming from a random girl who appeared in his room out of nowhere!!
"Uh, is backlash the result of some Master power? Also how do you not know about Leviathan. Also called Jormungand? He's the Endbringer that sank Newfoundland."
He keeps his distance from her while he dials Tattletale's number. In retrospect he should have been quicker about getting a new taser after he left the Wards. What is it about how she's speaking that is pinging him so much...
Oh god her voice sounds exactly like Lorica. A Lorica who he is being the absolute worst person to right now and he hates this so much but also he really really should not hug the possible Stranger.
"It sank in 2005? I don't know of powers that predictably take a week to appear. Also I am so sorry."
Tattletale doesn't pick up on the first ring.
"Okay well maybe I'm having a complete psychotic break, I guess. Complete with seventeen years of remembering Newfoundland being totally fine and remembering it being pretty common knowledge that espers awaken and have powers show up after hell week. 2005 was before I was even born."
"We only have contact with one and I'm pretty sure they don't have espers and would know about Leviathan - also they are the same year as us which is 2011. I don't think it's impossible to send you home in theory but don't know if it will happen in practice. I can. Try to help with that. If you want."
"I won't be able to try out my powers enough to even figure out what they are, if I'm the only esper. This right now is awakening backlash and it'll go away on its own in a week but power-use backlash needs guiding from a compatible esper to go away. So I need to go home to my universe. If you can do it this week I can stop imposing you and go back to the plan where I impose on my parents."
"I don't think I'll be able to do it this week - there's maybe one or two people on the planet who I know about who could help and they are both very very busy with saving lots of people. Possibly there is some sort of more common power that could help with backlash?"
"Also the alternate version of you who lived here had parents - or at least a dad - who I could contact if that would be helpful? But if you need to impose on me that is um. Also okay. If that's what you want."
"Oh. I have actually no idea if my dad would like it if, should I be killed in action, an alternate universe version of me should show up to demand hugs and attention, but I guess it might be worth asking in case that would be welcome. I guess that's - assuming our dads are also the same, I don't know if they would be."
"He teleports? He's stable and reasonable as a person?"
"Um. Also during the fight a plan I had to stop Leviathan from doing too much damage went wrong and it allowed him to kill her when ordinarily she would probably have been fine."
"Just um. Thought you should be informed. Of things."
"My dad isn't an esper and teleporting wouldn't be in my top ten guesses of what he'd get if he were but he's stable and reasonable, sure. ...is that supposed to be a reason not to hug you, I'm temporarily insane and definitely still want to hug you but I think even if I weren't you being sad about another version of me whatever that means having died wouldn't be a reason not to."
"Okay."
"I can maybe find a recording of him speaking at an interview and see if it matches? You have the same voice as Lorica. Also you act like her at least somewhat though I never saw her in a similar um. Emotional state. Also Tattletale's power wouldn't get this sort of thing wrong, I think."
"Technically capes are people who use their powers, people who have powers are parahumans but most parahumans are capes. There are a bunch with inventing things powers."
This is really not a great position for his leg and his arms are starting to get tired but he doesn't need to do anything about that this second.
He would shift if his brain were better at suggesting how exactly he should shift instead of freezing up about determining how to comfortably cuddle his dead crush.
"Most capes can use there powers without downsides - though some like Tattletale get migraines with overuse - so you don't see many inactive ones."
"She will still recover but I am uh, not going to call her again for anything less important than verifying you weren't some sort of trap was."
Lucien squirms a bit.
"Also um, we should probably change positions, this isn't very good for my leg and my arms are starting to get tired."
"Yeah, Project Gutenberg is from the 70s - it started when the internet was just 15 computers and called the arpanet." Lucien knows a totally normal amount of the history of web infrastructure. "My mom keeps trying to convince me to read Utopia by Thomas More? It's a 16th century book about a fictional utopia - I'm not sure how literaturey it is? I could read something Shakespeare instead if you like."
Lucien sends an email to his parents with an update, and tells them he misses them but doesn't think there visiting Brockton while it's this much of a disaster zone actually be a good idea even with the recent events.
He tries to figure out if there's anyone else he could ask for advice, ideally someone who has experience with weird cape things, but... he just abandoned his old team (not that any of the surviving members could give good advice anyways) and barely knows his new one. What would he even ask someone, "hey do you have any advice on how to deal with someone with the same voice and personality as your dead crush showing up in desperate need of being cuddled?" - "yeah sure happens all the time." No, he's not getting any help from a friend on this.
Normally to distract himself he'd work on Wards paperwork - there was an endless supply - but that's not an option either. Maybe he can... figure out patrol plans for the territory he is meant to take over once he's ready? That is not the absolute worst idea and if he tries hard enough maybe he can stretch it to fill up a few hours of trying to not let it get too salient that May his clinging to him in her sleep.
"I will probably randomly think you hate me sometimes but that's not you, that's the backlash, and probably if I have a better understanding of - whose reputation I am coasting on here - I will remain through those periods more confident that I can regardless still lean on you for company."
"I really extremely don't hate you."
Lucien can relate how Lorica had Tinker powers and how by default most Tinker would end up in combat but she was planning on leaving heroing to make a ludicrous fortune in private industry and this was in fact a much more reasonable plan. And about how her particular Tinker power was so cool and exciting and she even figured out a way to use his trench carving power to do fast high quality microchip etching which is an objectively better use than the default one of massive property damage.
He has a complicated look on his face as he relates all this - not purely sad but nowhere near happy.
"Yes. Um. Sorry they are not very a supervillain team and I was sort of distracted by all the you and Lorica things and neglected to inform you about the other complicated things in my life that might be relevant. ...I do think the team I joined is good for the world even if the members are not very law abiding. Lorica worked with one of them a couple of times."
"Uh, right now the city is a disaster zone due to the Leviathan attack so they are functionally running large portions of it which is not in fact legal but I think is way better than not having them help. Several of their members commit non-violent crimes - vandalism, theft, bribery - but those same members have risked their lives to help people. They also do some... normal organized crime things, though way less violently than the competitors they displaced and they seem genuinely intent on improving things further. I don't have to participate in that bit."
"If the alternative for them was being heroes and obeying the law I'd want that but I don't really think that's an option that's on the table and I'd much rather them helping against the serious threats than in jail.
"The heroes are still around and I'd much prefer they did a better job instead of this current mess happening. I might have stayed with them anyways but they made it really hard to do that by discriminating against my parents a bunch."
Also there had been an undercurrent of blaming him for all the deaths Leviathan caused with his trenches. Which Lucien thinks was sort of valid but his parents and Tattletale had argued was terrible for him to be around.
"Uh, there are a bunch of regulations limiting their involvement in combat - you need parental consent for S-class events - uh, that's mostly fighting the Endbringers - you generally aren't supposed to put Wards into excessively dangerous situations or into combat with capes who are undeniably known to cause mental and physical trauma. Though those rules aren't absolutely binding, especially when the Wards themselves push back against them which is relatively often."
"Yeah I.... I don't know. I guess I see how it sounds horrible but the youngest member on the Wards team is one of the most competent capes I know and I think a system that didn't let her fight monsters like Leviathan would be failing her and everyone else."
Lucien had joined his superiors in ignoring the fact that her mom never signed forms as fast as the S-class permission form got signed.
"It's probably not actually worth you being careful about things like that. I'm a fixed amount of lonely and my brain is doing stupid things to make sense of it and making sense of it does not improve the situation because I am a fixed amount of lonely. I just have to live through the week and then I'll be okay."
"I think that will maybe make him more suspicious? A bunch of the PRT think she manipulated me into joining the Undersiders and generally suspect her of using her power to trick people. After Lorica worked with her they considered moving Lorica to a different city - though I don't think her dad agreed with that. There might be a way to get a message to him without going through channels that would let the PRT protectively censor it?"
"It'd be a bit much to assume he has the same email address. And - without Tattletale's say-so and without putting a lot of weight on your personality assessment and voice recognition abilities we have very little reason to think I'm 'a Lorica'? We don't even know for sure that I look like her or have the same name, it just seems plausible that I do from the starting point of thinking we're alternate universe versions of each other."
"Hi this is Lucien, I uh..." He pauses for a couple of seconds.
"I can't think of a non-weird way to say this. I have someone who I believe is a variant of Lorica from a parallel universe in my apartment and she is having a mental health crisis related to the way powers work in her world and could use her parent's help with this."
Huuuug.
"Due to the mental health crisis she is uh. Having issues believing people she's talking to are robots and that there are no real people besides her and that this means nothing matters, and she thinks talking to a robot would exacerbate that. She asked if instead you could listen to me talking to her?"
"Well, espers are really rare so I wasn't planning on it though I did always want powers. I was not really clear on it sucking this much or in this way, that's not really what the media focuses on at all, although now that I have a little practice with not doing solipsism I'm, like, ready to grit my teeth and push through it, I guess. I was going to go to med school and do epidemiology, if I didn't get powers. If I can't go home I might do something like that here but it sort of sounds like this world has bigger problems, maybe it'd make sense to specialize in something else to do with Endbringers or whatever."
"It depends what my powers are, it could be almost anything! Dungeons, if I can do those - not all espers have dungeoneering-suitable powers but there are dungeons that you really can't clear with a SWAT team and need to send in the superheroes for. But if I get healing powers I'll heal, if I get construction powers I'll build stuff... if I can find a partner."
"Oh yeah that does seem really important - getting aid to Africa is really difficult right now but people keep trying to arrange things to get people help, and there's a vaccine that was developed by some scientists running challenge trials relying on a healing cape to make it feasible to test things much more aggressively than they'd otherwise have been able to manage."
"I think you can do that for malaria vaccines for pregnant women in Namibia which is pretty good if you don't account for the side effects but maybe bad if you do. There's some refugee funds that are better I think - getting someone to the US is usually cheaper and more effective than improving things where they are."
"Uh, trigger events happen during intensely stressful and traumatic moments which does have a significant selection effect - there's also some research indicating a tendency for powers that work better if used, or that need to be used, or similar things that push towards more power use."
"Some - though I lost my contacts to do that when Lorica died. Tattletale says she can get me more work doing that."
"There are a few other not very property damaging uses I've found for it. And also I used it to fight Leviathan, which involves a lot of property damage that was almost worth it until it wasn't."
"Yes, but like, your partner doesn't have to also be a hero, they can just do whatever with their powers and meet up to hang out for guiding after you get out of a dungeon. And there are institutions invested in making sure everybody who wants to be useful has a partner to do it with."
"Uh, depends on what level? Locally the Undersiders did take down institutions that existed but they've just replaced them. Globally you have groups like the Gesellschaft, which a local gang was an offshoot of, who have enough people and powers to keep themselves around despite European cape groups trying to take them down."
"Uh, getting to know the people in the neighborhood, figuring out patrol routes to keep an eye on things, checking to find out what sort of systems I need to set-up to make sure people get aid - Skitter set-up an orphanage and some medical distribution and some work projects to help speed along rebuilding with civilian help and I'd definitely want to replicate something like that."
"The action figures they made with his name on it got recalled but this just made the ones that did get sold more valuable as a collectors item. He also has a habit of plugging the merch they still make for him in a juvenile fashion but I think people like it in a sort of stick it to the man kind of way."
"There's a bunch of complicated regulations for the Wards in particular, though even for the older capes there's an assumption and usually a contractual obligation to involve the PRT. It's rather a pain to manage but I think it works out well for providing capes with a somewhat competent institution that's on their side in marketing deals - also the PRT would do a lot of the marketing anyways just by virtue of having so many capes working for them."
"I think like... three?... or something like that... people have ever awakened while sixteen. Even seventeen is unusually early, and I'm almost eighteen. Plus the official stance is that the government doesn't need your birthdate or your legal non-esper name to give you an esper ID sufficient to buy dungeon-grade ordnance and whatnot, so if I wanted to lie they would not have any formal route to check on me. So - functionally an esper is an adult."
"I guess if there's a lot of pressure towards fielding them, yeah. A solid majority of dungeons don't really need espers, let alone espers without adult-quality judgment that they'd have if they just lived civilian lives for a few years, so you don't see anybody calling for us to drop out of school and do dungeons if we don't really want to and if we do really want to we're acting as free agents, not - well, wards."
"My guess would be you more often get cases where there are problems with the capes family life that the government won't as a rule fix for them and running away and making their own way does better? Also might just be that the thing where capes tend to have heightened emotions has more of an impact on teens."
"There exist some people doing non-criminal child labor thing - a powerful precognitive that the Undersiders rescued does contract work for the government and a bunch of other places and is making an insane amount of money about this. I suppose she might also do some jobs for villain groups like the Undersiders but the government doesn't want to be aware of this since then they might not be able to make use of her services."
"Uh, keeping in mind that I can't say what her family situation is since that would be private even if I knew something, I think they would be able to engage with her even if her parents weren't involved, but only because of how incredibly valuable she is. This isn't entirely unique to her but it's not a consistent policy either."
"That is in fact the policy of the government - I'm not sure I would call it hypocrisy so much as generally having rules that flexible if the relevant authorities on the ground think they need to be flexed but I am um. Known to be perhaps too forgiving of the government's faults."
"Uh, I should maybe reply to Rete real fast but also uh, I am not sure how to distinguish when I am failing a system from when a system is failing me though now that I say that aloud the entire framing seems wrong?"
Oh, I am not sure what that means? She really seems like a Lorica.
"My guess is no but - there's at least one really powerful cape who might have a power that lets him jump between worlds and if so he could send you home if he can be persuaded to take the time to. Also there are rather a lot of other capes and maybe someone else there is a way to do interdimensional travel - it's shown up as a power at least once, not counting the really powerful cape who might be able to do it as a side effect of being able to do a very wide variety of impressive things."
"If Rete and you can convince Lorica's dad - than I think he might be able to get the Protectorate to consider having Eidolon - the very powerful hero - stop by. Or, if things work out much more nicely, I can pay someone who has a convenient power a bunch of money to send you somewhere and they won't need to be convinced of anything."
"Lorica's dad works for the Protectorate and he has non-trivial ability to get them to do things he want them to, though the politics on an Eidolon intervention in particular are complicated. I am going to have a lot more money than I am used to having soon and probably it will not take such a big chunk out of it? I'm not sure."
"I think right now there aren't really many options for people who are living here. Skitter seems to be creating a local economy by force of will, and assigning people jobs when they seem about right or volunteer or have relevant skills. Tattletale might actually be hiring professionals or just informing people they'd be a good fit and offering them some sort of incentive that will get them to say yes. The others are probably managing based on what Skitter can get running for them, is my guess, but I'm not sure."
He can read her War and Peace! He can also ask her if she has thoughts about how to handle various problems people might have in his territory when he does get to running one - he can at least guess at various scenarios and figure out how to handle them and that way he won't be completing neglecting being an Undersider (not that he phrases it like that).
They evacced a lot of the severe cases, and the remaining hospital and two smaller clinics (one of which is run by the Undersiders) all have diesel generators for power. It's very nearly summer, which is good in terms of heating but the fact that the gas mains aren't a priority means a lot of people don't have working stoves.
How's the diesel supply looking to hold up? Have they considered prioritizing cooperative restaurants so people can get cooked food even if they don't have stoves? Is the destination to which they evacuated people going to continue to be available or are they in danger of losing a safety valve if they upset the wrong person?
They are getting diesel trucked in - most of the cost is in the generators and making sure the diesel doesn't get stolen or intercepted. Cooperative restaurants sounds neat, how would those work? The nearest hospital outside the Bay is two hours away given the state of the roads and technically is already at capacity but won't like, turn people away? Though there could definitely be politics about transporting people though. The Undersiders have some backup medical facilities of their own but not anywhere near a hospitals amount.
Well, May's not sure exactly how willing most people are to work for the Undersiders, but it sounds like whatever they're doing works on orphanage caretakers and also hospital medics, somehow, so taking it as a given that some people will go for this sort of thing, imagine a diner or something agreeing to cook food on behalf of, or directly provide food for, persons identified as in need of this assistance, in exchange for getting to keep their power on all the time, since it sounds like the power schedule rotation is under Undersider control.
It's generally only under their control in that they can influence when a given zone has power, not how much time it has power in total, but plausibly they can put a restaurant in a location so it can be part of two different zones and get power whenever either zone is scheduled?
"I'm pretty sure the way Skitter would solve this is by telling them all they have to play nice so they can all have the power working, and then she'd do something terrifying but probably not actually harmful to the first place that defected. I am not a fan of that solution but it feels like there should be some way to get things to work out so that the restaurants and customers can benefit without my having to be so horrible about it."
"Well, yeah, the way that works is that they pay for electricity and the ones that make enough money by attracting enough customers can continue to pay for electricity. I don't know if there's a way it works out like that when they have to make nice with the gang leaders to have electricity available to buy at all."
"Yeah there isn't a functioning market for electricity right now - we could do auctions but they'd have to coordinate to buy electricity and there also isn't a functioning system to do that. If things were better there'd be a restaurant union maybe. .... Though even then they would also need capes to defend them from looting and the heroes are spread too thing to want to prioritize anything besides major crimes. Which we also help - at this point the Undersiders outnumber them by quite a bit, and Skitter alone is worth several of their capes when it comes to stopping mundane crime."
"Uh, she can control all the bugs in a several block radius, as well as sense what they are up to. So she can web up criminals with a very large amount of spiders, or bite people with various things. She chased some particularly recalcitrant people out of town with bullet ants which I don't really approve of but was under the circumstances not the worst decision she could have made."
"She imported the ants. Uh, I think it was a particularly aggressive burglary attempt and they made a bunch of bad choices when she tried to talk to them afterwards so she decided the best approach was to bite them with bullet ants a few times until they managed to turn themselves in to the police."
"In this particular case the cops would be drawn from a smaller population, and the obvious picks for cops are generally already cops. The next obvious pick are essentially gang members and I... probably the way to go is to pick a few people I actually trust - taking applications and such - and then have them supervise a broader group closely? And coordinate with the local police, which is going to be a hassle but maybe doable."
"I definitely think it's possible to do better - Skitter was operating under the assumption that scaring people would lead to fewer crimes and she doesn't seem to be entirely wrong but I'm unsure if this is still true if you account for crime rates in the city as a whole. Also, bullet ants are very a crime. Plausibly the answer is just that I need to manage a larger group of enforcers than I'd like to have, because the alternatives are worse."
"Which is a great set of priorities on paper but leaves her on the back foot when burglars show up and she either has no plan and must make something up on the spot, or, worse, she has one and it's bullet ants. What is there to stay in this city for, like, what here is still working such that not everyone is literally packing a bag and walking to a suburb?"
"About three quarters of the city did that, the rest are people who can't afford to move or have other reasons for staying. There's hope things will be repaired in another couple of months, and the Undersiders are optimistic that they can reduce gang violence below pre-Leviathan numbers even after that happens."
"Well, I just defected. And uh, Lorica and another Ward - Gallant - both died, and the three members of the Brockton Bay Protectorate including the leader. Two other capes have transferred over - both to the Wards - and I think there will be an additional Protectorate cape as well - but the numbers still come out lower."
"I found a bakery and an Italian place that are conveniently located, along with a few other options, am going to meet with them about the logistics behind setting up a sort of main street with functioning restaurants."
Lucien updates the various people that there meetings are actually going to need to be at this address (across the street from him), and tells the people who haven't scheduled that he's out of time slots for day but will get back to them asap about tomorrow, and tells a couple of the Undersider mercenaries to clean up and secure the place across the street by fifteen minutes before his first meeting starts there.
"There was a particular supervillain who communicated with two of his other dimensional selves so we can infer some things based on what we know about them, and there's the pinhole wormhole which he created and we can communicate with Earth Aleph through. And I think a few other portals and pieces of tinkertech I think - but none that were stable enough to stick around past initial encounters."
Later that evening Lucien is being driven to a meeting forlornly staring at the trench he carved on the side of the road during the attack, rendering the sidewalk unusable, when he slowly puts together that in fact everything that is wrong with this city is his fault. He toppled buildings and carved the land and killed all the best capes and it's all on him. He doesn't know what he's been doing, pretending at reform.
"Can you stop the car?" Lucien asks his Undersider provided chauffer.
The driver pulls over, "Sir?"
"I actually need to go to the PRT headquarters I've made a terrible mistake and need to turn myself in."
"Sir????"
"I know it's so late to realize but I understand now." It's really ridiculous that Lucien didn't realize this before! "Just, please -"
Capes have very strong opinions and there emotions can change on a dime in intense circumstances. This makes it difficult to provide any useful advice to them as to how to notice that something is awry in their thinking - for everything a sane person might flag there's a dozen capes who think it ten times a day. But! Even capes, however volatile, don't miss extremely obvious conclusions they could have made months ago! Well, that's not strictly true, a few capes will not notice for months that they can simply not make a terrible decision - but the same advice works in either case. And so, if you happen to be one of the few Wards to have actually memorized the important parts of the PRT handbook you were supposed to memorize - than when you realize that something is blindingly obvious and you missed it for months with no possible excuse, your first response will be -
"-Master/Stranger." Rules say to check as soon as possible, specific wording: "Do I seem mentally disturbed in an unexpected way?"
"Yes, sir." Which doesn't actually change Lucien's next step but is supposed to make him more confident in it.
Contact operational command - Tattletale was out of commission last he was aware, handbook instructions are to go up if necessary, whether or not it's intimidating.
"Call Skitter."
And then, until communication is established or he can count to 50, or fail at counting to ten, he is supposed to look around for immediate threats and respond non-aggressively, without moving fast or using powers or tools.
That makes se-next instruction from the handbook. Verbal engaging okay, he isn't supposed to reveal tactically relevant secrets. Otherwise he is supposed to analyze the situation and select from the available options...
Non-Protectorate and non-PRT command is one of the options.
"It is PRT. I believe myself to have realized that I am at fault for everything wrong with the city despite not realizing this for months. I believe that this means I should turn myself in to the PRT." Believe statements allowed, reporting on previous thoughts allowed, so long as no operational secrets are relevant. Given that this isn't Protectorate or PRT command he needs to add: "Regulations say I shouldn't take actions on these beliefs at this time."
Lucien provides a location two blocks away he will be at, ordering his driver to take him there, to avoid revealing his previous location.
Next he starts listing everyone who is a master/stranger he knows of in the city, than anyone around him who might be effected, than recent unusual capes or anomalies that don't have entirely physical powers.
Oh May's backlash is his fault, that makes sense.
(He is not going to say anything about this since the flowchart doesn't have an option for this at this time, which really seems like an oversight. It does have an option for if the flowchart has an oversight but it's to do nothing and return to the previous step.)
Lucien feels like putting May next to him is actually really dangerous given what h's done! But there is- oh yeah there actually is a relevant flowchart path he can go down.
"I believe I am at risk of being a danger to those around me because I believe I have hurt everyone by using my power recklessly and being myself."
Lucien's driver is there before the time for May's arrival comes, which is unfortunate because this means Lucien has time to think and while he isn't making any decisions about it he is aware that all the devastation around him is his fault and he could finish destroying the city within hours and move onto the rest of the world and everyone knows this and is surrounding him and trying to find him and he hasn't let himself be killed about this and that's wrong and he has to stop preventing them and he can't even do that right and the world is pressing in on him specifically and-
Lucien was previously sure he was compatible with just about everyone but had no idea what that meant, but it can't possibly be this feeling because he was assuming it was bad and this is the farthest possible thing from being had he didn't know this was possible what if he sort of crumpled onto her and was rolling up his sleeves even.
A flying ant unobtrusively flits around Lucien's shirt to feel for any weaponry Lorica may have just shoved up there. This is not actually the most intimate thing Taylor can sense even right this moment and she does not have to pay any more attention to it than the other couple a block away.
"Well, it looks like espers are... contagious? ...I hope Lorica's dad is on telling all the people who need to know about that. Fortunately 'what the deal with espers is' formed a lot of the content of my obligatory conversation over the last while so he should know what needs to be said."
"Yeah. I can explain it later. I would enjoy having sex and was packed a box of condoms specifically in case of it happening and it would be good for our backlash even and also this does not seem like the greatest mental vantage point from which to decide, maybe for you more than me."
"So like my backlash is that I'm really lonely but my flavors are, like, being anxious that I'm trying to socialize wrong and that's why it's not working like it's supposed to, and being touch-starved - that one seems mostly the least bad - and thinking that nobody else is real and that's why I'm so lonely, that one's the worst. And if you have a psychological backlash you might have flavors too but I don't know what they are except that for one of them you were, uh, touchier and less verbal, and now you're talking, so I bet those are different, and I don't know if it's just those two."
"I think..."
"I noticed I had missed that I was responsible for the city being destroyed and needed to turn myself in and I called a Master-Stranger alert as a result of that. And then Skitter decided the correct response to that was to put me on a boat with you and you touched me and it was like the sun was touching me and. I think you know the rest? And probably the prior part too I guess."
"I remember what was happening? I guess I was thinking somewhat but not coherently? I thought that I liked the things that were happening and wanted more of them and it didn't occur to me to think of anything else because there was just... so much and it was so confusing and didn't make sense. And what did make sense was taking actions about the things being nice."
"I... maybe? I was not thinking about things other than myself and some of that could have been backlash. Some of that could also have been me being a terrible person or my brain being overwhelmed by sudden mind control from one direction and then another wave of mind control from the other."
"I like you. You were really nice to me when we were waiting for - Transit - to come get me. Admittedly if it weren't for the guiding I would be more conservative about acting on this but it's not like guiding is a trivial one-off thing I can just ignore for the rest of my life, I think it makes sense to approach things differently because of it."
"So like - we're both in favor of kissing and both have mixed feelings about anything past that, is that about right? Plus the thing where if we are too absentminded I - well I probably won't actually wind up pregnant, people who are already pregnant when they awaken generally lose the baby, backlash is bad for you, but I don't love the word 'probably' there -"
"I am only going to be appalled if you are? I am confused about you not hating it considering it's me but I don't see a reason I would be appalled otherwise.... I think if the alternative is going to be to be like this with you for so many days than maybe I. Should actually try to make your plan from before work."
"...I don't want to force you to help? But that would. Help. I think. If you didn't hate it."
"I feel like I am wronging you by saying all that and am ignoring this because you seem less insane than me and the PRT handbook has an advisory that says that keeping secrets about your internal state from your allies is a bad idea and even if I'm no longer bound by specific regulations that bit seems like it might still be relevant."
Fluid exchange is good and also she doesn't want to go digging in the cupboards for tissues; she retrieves her hand and licks it off. ...wow it's amazing how that tastes bad and is also for guiding reasons really moreish, it's like a terrible flavor of potato chip or something.
Lucien has no idea if he will be any good at this but if she wants he is happy to try, yeah. Does this do any-wow. It sure is doing something for him he should have expected this given how guiding works. What if he extremely enthusiastically does a lot more of what he just did.
Lucien finishes up texting pretty quick.
"Yeah, they know the basics. I asked them if I seemed to be making reasonable choices after you arrived and they told me that wasn't a script for what I should do but I wasn't making obvious mistakes and would have to deal with non-obvious ones as they came up."
"I mean, it's just directly unpleasant, the loneliness, but then on top of that it's - compulsive, and it makes me feel like I'm being annoying and clingy and selfish and inane and sometimes it - directly or indirectly, I'm not sure - convinces me that whoever I'm inflicting myself on hates me - less of that at this level but at the highest level I kept, like, begging my mom not to hate me and it sucked. - also she certainly now has no idea where I am and her first guess is not going to be that I was transported to an alternate universe, she's going to think I manifested an alternate backlash presentation and it caused me to flee into the night, which will have left her totally frantic and there's nothing I can do about it from here at all."
Lucien plays tetris on his phone a bit, feels like he is going crazier, and eventually calls his parents a second time so he has something to do that isn't being caught up in his own mind - apologizing to them several times about ruing their sleep and their days and their lives forever. Eventually he calms down and they convince him it's okay if he reads ahead in Great Expectations to keep occupied and make him promise to wake them again if he feels acutely terrible again, even if he thinks it's reasonable for him to feel acutely terrible.
"Yes they mistook my coming and going at odd hours for my being in a gang, rather than my being a hero with a power that means I don't need to sleep. Also they were suspicious of my parents generally since my parents were in the vicinity of an attack by the Simurgh, who does terrible mind control things. Which my parents were checked for and don't have."
Grue - Darkness generation, a steady reasonable guy who is a bit intimidating.
Bitch - Also called Hellhound. Has giant mutant dogs. Difficult for some people but fiercely loyal and Lucien thinks he might grow to like her once he stops wanting to run away whenever she looks at him.
Imp - Lucien can't remember much about her - has a Stranger power of some kind.
Regent - Can cause people to twitch, and also control them completely in the right situations. Would be scary if he didn't just want to play video games and order pizza.
There are also various associated capes who are less part of the group if May is interested.
Parian - Can control cloth. Manages a territory but doesn't work very closely with the Undersiders on a day to day basis.
The Travelers - A whole team of capes allied with the Undersiders. Makes a mini sun, teleportation, shoots objects real fast, controls a morphable minion, and another guy Lucien hasn't figured out. They are sometimes out of town on jobs of their own, but will show up to help the Undersiders sometimes.
An unnamed very powerful precog who works for money but is also friendly with some of the Undersiders.
"I think it's not supposed to go to... Transit's... house to collect Lorica's books but it could get them from your place if you're okay with that. If you can call it. I still don't really want to talk to it, I'm sure I'll be fascinated once I'm no longer magically lonely for real people."
"So one trip with a thing that weighs about as much as one book might be an easier sell. ...your teammates won't bring you stuff? Like I realize you're calling in sick but Tattletale verified what was happening, right, it's not like they think you're faking. And you'll have more superpowers after for your, uh, supervillainy."
Tattletale is aware!
"While you two eat I'll talk. A dungeon popped up in Tampa yesterday - Protectorate knew enough to send in a pair of heroes and start rescuing people, but they weren't the first ones on the scene. Turns out a villain by the name of Elegante beat them to it - someone special to her had been kidnapped and she figured while she was getting them out she might as well help with the rest. Except there was a warrant our for her arrest for grand theft auto, and the Protectorate decided they could deal with her and the dungeon at the same time. They were wrong."
She pauses a beat.
"Now, when there's another dungeon in Tampa, maybe a villain nearby doesn't show up and it waits until heroes get there. Eventually there'll be dungeons daily in Tampa and the local Protectorate will get stuck with handling most of them on their own. It'll take longer for help to arrive and it'll be less appropriate to the particular dungeon when it does show up, because they'll be drawing on less than half of the capes available."
"Skitter thinks this is a stupid way for things to end up. So instead she's proposing a different set-up - capes should be able to show up to dungeons and cooperate, same rules as Endbringer attacks. We'll provide support - medical, transport, whatever - for whoever wants to help, so long as they abide by the truce. And to make it easier for everyone to cooperate, there'll be a few independent capes specialized in dungeons who agreed to all this but aren't on the Protectorates naughty list, that way we get fewer dungeons where it's all Protectorate except for one villain or what have you."
"You two can be those capes, if you want. Lucien'll oversee the support ops too, and Lorica will advise as our world's leading expert on dungeons. Lucien can still have access to our tattoos removal service and you both can draw salaries. Endbringer attack comes up, you two will help with that too."
Offer finished, Tattletale cuts herself a slice of cake.
"That's... very elegant, though I'm kind of distracted by how you have dungeons now, that's bad - who should I be answering dungeon questions for - does the Protectorate have global reach, if people in India and China are letting dungeons escape left and right you'll get those second-iteration dungeons here, they don't care -"
"Uh, answering your questions like two at a time - the Protectorates been working off what Transit told them which covered the important bits - they've been sharing info with other countries but don't typically deploy to them. Except I'm pretty sure Eidolon deployed to help with one in China - India I'm not sure what they're up to. I'd be most worried about second iteration dungeons out of Africa to be honest."
"We're opening to negotiating the details and you'll have to talk to Skitter before we finalize things but we are happy about you having authority over what goes on in the dungeons provided the truce is followed - outside of dungeons you'll have a lot of freedom and you can work with basically anyone you want - though we'd rather not have you hiring anyone who's going to make a lot of trouble. You'd start off managing dungeons in Brockton Bay but we're open to expansion - or to you prioritizing what dungeons you cover. We'd particularly like you deploying to dungeons where a stabilizing element will help discourage conflict between capes, if you have to choose. We're pretty darn low on cash right now but we can spare a few hundred k of funding for the next few months. We have a lot more non-cash resources, including mercenaries, support staff, and capes."
"I can write up my memory-and-extrapolation-therefrom of an armed normies assault on a dungeon protocol once I'm - at, uh, Transit's house, and have a computer that'll talk to Rete, I should meet it properly now that I can tolerate it. I think the situation you're describing to me wants a superstructure that isn't like an agency or a guild because there's no employment relationship... I'm going to want connects to Tinkers who'll want the dungeon materials and will pay for them."
Yes see this is why she needed to make an offer before Lucien decided to flat out ditch his life of supervillainy in favor of following his girlfriend into whatever she decided was a better use of their time. Which, admittedly probably wouldn't be that bad of a use of their time but it might not have benefited the Undersiders nearly as much as this plan.
Cake cake cake. Notetaking. "So one thing we need for dungeons is response time - they're usually open for a few days if they aren't killed first, but if nobody knows where to send missing persons reports, or knows who to tell about a gigantic spooky portal in their basement or their backyard, then it would be possible for one to go undetected by anyone with the ability to react to it. The monsters leaving the dungeon would be noticeable, but plenty of dungeons aren't interested in sending out monsters, they just directly assume people into themselves; and if people noticed the monsters and attributed them to cape activity that would be a slowdown on response too."
"...I have spent a week marinating in the desire to be in direct in-person contact with my fellow human beings way more than I ever normally want to do that and it didn't actually leave me with a great understanding of why some people feel that way about meeting in person when they're not working with magic brain damage. Did she know Lorica at all, I'm apparently basically like Lorica except for all the stuff that's different."
"My planet has six decades of dungeon experience and I want it put to use! I can write up what I know but trying it in practice is the only way to test how the approach needs to differ because of capes being involved. - I need a full laptop, I'm going to want a website and Rete can do most of the work for me but I'd like to be able to type posts and stuff."
Lucien has some preliminary thoughts about how to position themselves to get taken seriously by the broadest selection of people! The trick is to balance the presentation of the non-powered operations aspect with the Endbringer truce and cape positioning so as to get taken seriously by both capes and non-capes.
Capes. both villains and heroes, work together and don't take advantage of the Endbringers - on the field or off of it. Anyone breaks it and everyone else teams up against them. It's not universal - Russia and China barely abide by it - but it's enforced in the majority of the world.
China doesn't show up to outside Endbringer fights or let outsiders help when Endbringers attack them. It has not gone very well for them but they're adamant.
Russia attacked some capes who came to help and the people who ordered that are all dead as well as most of the capes who obeyed those orders. Nowadays Russia plays somewhat nice but everyone is nervous about a possible repeat.
"Well, that'll reduce their esper rate relative to other countries on this planet, if Tattletale's right, but not relative to my expectations. There's dungeons where only ten people on the planet can handle some aspect of them well but China will have one of those guys to themselves unless they're wildly unlucky. The problem with countries not playing ball is mostly that slacking off on dungeons is expected to harm other people. If Moscow lets one go it's going to come back but probably not in Moscow eating Russians."
"The peace is actually really strange historically speaking - best guess is that it's because there are some heroes like Scion who are pro-peace and not that many villains that are in favor of major wars. There isn't a consensus on why but my theory is that it's because you need to care about geopolitics to be pro-war and you don't need to care about geopolitics to be pro-peace."
"Because dungeons prefer dense cities, you can get most of the benefit by concentrating on every city having a good way for anyone to report a missing person or a portal or a monster sighting; rural farmers and so on are at basically no risk. Not that there aren't poor cities, but this isn't something where you need a lot of space covered by whatever outside investment you drum up. And there's agreements for sharing espers across borders if a place can't manage a specific dungeon with volunteers toting AK-47s and whatever espers it's got locally grown."
A tall figure in a terrifying spider silk costume meets them outside.
"Dungeon's a maze of smooth tunnels full of rolling slime spheres - some of them have people who seem to be breathing fine for now. Some of the others are acid and I can't tell if those have people. We have some people who know first aid and a doctor but no proper medical team yet."
There is the promised pathway with translucent slimes, colored green, blue and yellow. They each contain what looks like a brain inside of them. The yellow and a small number of green ones appear hollow and sometimes contain hostages. Getting closer to the blues causes May's backlash to increase faster. Numerous ordinary-looking bugs litter the walls and flit through the air, some caught in the slimes.
It feels gooooooooood to be loved. "I need help. I've had some Tinker work done - I never sought it out, the Tinker and her crew showed up in my hometown to make trouble and I've only just gotten away from them, but I don't know how long it'll hold up without maintenance."