Watching him think through the thoughts about it helps a bunch. He's clearly not doing it to hide anything from her or lie about it or cheat on her or any of the reasons for things she might be worried about and honestly reading his mind helps a lot because she can see just how much he likes her especially since the bit about wanting to bond over shared interest in her (and wow he really likes her and is interested in her she can tell when he thinks about her like that it makes her blush again she really does a lot of blushing around him doesn't she) with her hypothetical other partner and also wow the idea of her being interested in girls is really something she's never thought about and she probably isn't but it doesn't feel as weird as she expected but maybe that's just because it's from his mind but she can think about that later right now she should try and figure out what to do with this. He doesn't want her to belong to someone else and that gets the closest to what she's feeling about him being with other people but that honestly isn't quite it it's not that she doesn't want to share her it's that she's afraid of him being with other people or not giving her his full attention or... something.

She can see that he's not really able to change his thoughts make that really clear and she wishes he'd been much more up front about this beforehand though admittedly it seems like a bunch of weird things were going on in his life but it still really would have been nice to know and now she has to make the choice between seeing him more and learning about magic and helping him learn to trust himself and learn to not be bad and not hurt other people which she's sure he can learn to do or leaving him because he's dating other people even though he's clearly into her and into her a lot and she's blushing just thinking about it and she wants to keep doing that and she's not sure what exactly she's worried about and she really needs some more time to think. She's really learned a lot and it's a lot to take in and she should go home and sleep about it and think because it would also be really silly to lose this over exclusivity but the fact that he's so cavalier about sex is reminding her of lots and lots of things that her mother has told her about what men are really after and what she should save herself for and even though she knows a lot of that is silly it's really hard to shake free. She really needs to go think about this for a while. This was so much easier when it was fun to be enthusiastic about a cute boy and not other complicated things that she really doesn't want to have to think through.

Jenna sighs. "Watching you think about that helps a lot. I can't quite put my finger on what makes me uncomfortable about it but I agree it would be a silly thing to lose at least some of this over. I think I need to think about it a lot. I don't want to stop seeing you, for sure," because he's cute and hot and really really likes her and also there's magic and also there's making sure he doesn't do bad things which is pretty important "but I do think I need some time to think all of this over, I kindof learned a lot about things today and I feel like I can probably put my worries into more detail if I have some time to think about it, and also it's getting pretty late. We can talk about this more next time? And maybe not do too much more in the way of, um, other fun things" she's blushing again isn't she drat "at least until I have a better handle on it." Even if she really really regrets giving things up it's the right thing to do and at the very least they should be able to do more kissing still, right? Probably. Yes. Very yes. 

Awwwww. She is so cute and he likes her so much. And yeah, that's valid—

—although—

...she isn't going to have the chance to think about all this outside his car, because he can't let her leave his car knowing about magic, because once she leaves his car knowing about magic he can't take those memories away again until he owns her, and given that the only thing he knows about magic besides his own is terrifying, he wants to keep as close control as he possibly can over the knowledge that he has any. —and now that he's thinking about what happened to Dani again, he's reminded of how much he wants to own Jenna so he can protect her—but—not until he's sure he can protect her from himself.

Well that's really annoying. 

Jenna fully understands where he's coming from here but it seems so very annoying and unfair. What happened to Dani is in fact honestly pretty terrifying and horrifying and seventeen different kinds of bad and she never wants that to happen to her but it seems unlikely that it would since no one at school has disappeared or they would probably have told everyone unless it's a really deep conspiracy of some kind or used other magic to make everyone forget the lost student but there's still electronic records and maybe there's magic to get rid of those and also the paper records but at this point it's pretty silly to think that she hasn't seen any magic like that at all and there would be so much to cover and in any case Sean would remember and probably do something. She's tempted by the protection but doesn't think it's necessary yet even though she probably wants to know what that entails. Later. Though apparently she isn't going to have any time to think about it later at least not until she's back in his car because anyone knowing about magic outside the car could lead to him being found out by the same forces that made Dani like that or something else terrible and that would be pretty horrible. 

But it's really really annoying and Jenna wishes there were some other way around it. Any other way. Becoming his like that just so she can have full information is sorely tempting. When she forgets everything outside of the car she's not even going to remember that he has other people he's dating or whatever he wants to call it and honestly she's not sure what to call it either under the circumstances it is really really strange. And that means she's not even going to realize... Jenna considers having him tell her about it when she's outside the car but he wouldn't be able to properly explain and that isn't really fair to him. Ugh. 

Her face falls. "I understand but that's really really annoying," she tells him. She sighs. "What about this am I going to remember? It really is getting rather late, I should go home soon and we should do this again sometime soon so that I can have enough time to think all this through. Or something." She smiles gently at him. "Plus it'll be good to see you more. As harrowing as this was I really did have a good time." She really did, even if there was so much insanity going on. Especially earlier. Wow that was really hot and wow it's such a good thing he's not reading her mind because that thing that they did together was really really hot and it's making her blush just thinking about it again. 

"I think I'll just... go back to right before I made you the dessert, and snuggle you a little more, and then you can go home. And—next time you're in here, if you just wanna sit and think for a while, I can leave you alone to do that if you want."

He hesitates a moment, and then leans over and hugs her. He wants to come up with some sort of... way to say in words what he's feeling... but he doesn't have to, does he, he can just feel it. He likes her a lot and he's so glad he gets to hug her and kiss her and hang out with her and make her happy. She's so cute and pretty when she blushes and he wants to keep dating her for a very long time and go slow and be responsible and eventually give her plenty more to blush about.

Jenna smiles softly even though he can't see it, and hugs him back, squeezing him tightly as he feels everything he feels at her. She's still feeling a bit conflicted about everything that's going on and the fact that he's going to keep seeing other people and she isn't sure what she's going to do about that, but his care and enjoyment and sweetness and how much he likes her is so wonderful to feel and read and understand and she blushes very brightly listening to all of his thoughts and and hugs him a little more tightly so he can't see her blushing yet again. Jenna's so glad he likes her, and even though everything is so much more complicated and they're going to have to figure it out together and only be able to do it from inside the car at least for now which continues to be really annoying, she expects that they can work things out. She hopes so. Sometime soon she's going to learn more about magic! Right now though some part of her is honestly relieved that she gets to forget about all of this soon and go back to her normal life and not have to worry about anything related to this because it would be pretty hard to hold in and pretty hard to not just keep thinking about all the time.

Eventually, as nice as it feels to hug him and listen to his thoughts about how he feels about her, she pats him on the back to get him to release and pulls away. "I think we'll have a lot to think about and discuss, next time," she tells him. "And there better be a next time soon! Though I'm sure I'll be more than happy to get in your car again with you soon enough." She grins at him softly and blushes, remembering everything about the earlier experience with the two of them together which was incredible and amazing and unforgettable and even if he was cheating a little it's not something she's ever going to forget. Unless he takes it away, which it looks like he isn't. "I'm sure I'll have plenty more to talk about later, but I think for now this is probably enough for tonight; I should really be getting back soon. But as weird as this has been, it was also wonderful. Thank you for sharing with me. Everything. Even if it hurt. You really are a better person than you think you are." She smiles at him a little more, then closes her eyes and waits for well she's not entirely sure what but waits to forget everything even though that doesn't make any sense.

He kisses her forehead, and rewinds (again).

This time he arranges things as though she just dozed off a little in his arms, and lets her wake up with him snuggling her like they've got all the time in the world.

Jenna blinks a couple of times, confused about where she's waking up and who's holding her and why and some part of her wants to be panicked but only just for a moment when she realizes and remembers that she's in the arms of Sean, this hot boy who did such amazing things to her that she probably shouldn't be thinking about in more detail at the moment because wow that was so good and though even though she might be a little confused waking up like this his arms feel so warm and comfortable and strong and safe and resting in them like this feels so wonderful and relaxing and no wonder she fell asleep like that and wow that was incredible. She's a little worried about about what her parents would say and there's no way she's ever telling them especially her mother or any of her siblings well maybe Jeremy if she really needs advice but there's no way she'd ask anyone else and she really wonders what Carol is going to say and did they really do all of that wow that was simply incredible and Sean is amazing and spectacular and it was so hot and she wants to do it again and she wants to lay in his arms like this and she feels so well rested like this and she just feels happy and ecstatic and incredible. She feels way better rested than she should actually. How long as she been resting here?

Jenna stretches a little, nuzzling into his strong naked chest and wow does that bring back some fun memories and manages to open her eyes and take a glance at the dashboard clock in the car. And then sits up a bit surprised with a start in shock. How did it get to be so late she should go home and go to sleep she has things to write tomorrow and work to do and this was very very nice but it's later than she wanted to stay and she had a very nice time (alright an incredible, spectacular, impossible time) but she should get going soon sadly. She turns around to look at Sean and his cute face and pretty smile and she can't help but smile back at him and blush a little seeing him shirtless like this again he is so hot she really wants to kiss his chest again and touch him and have him to all of that to her again but she barely managed to not do more than she intended to do and even as hot as the thought of getting carried away from kissing and touching and things again and doing all sorts of things with him are she really shouldn't. She shouldn't. She shouldn't. 

She does give him a very quick kiss on the cheek though and smiles at him brightly. "That was. Amazing." She tells him, putting as much enthusiasm as she can behind every word. "That was wonderful and I really want to do it again" really really really want to do it again "but I think I dozed off for a while there and I should probably get back to my dorm soon. But we should do this again. Soon. Probably not right now but definitely soon." And probably not at his apartment even though she keeps thinking about it which she should really stop doing because it's making her blush. Definitely not at his apartment. No matter what it is she's thinking.

He smiles at her. "Yeah, sounds good."

His smile is so cute and so good and his face is so pretty and she really really really wants to kiss him more. He did such incredible things to here. Amazing things. Spectacular things. And his kisses feel so good and wonderful and feel so nice and it wouldn't hurt to have just one more, would it? And it's totally a reasonable thing to kiss goodbye, that's a thing people do in the movies and books and everything, and she really wants to kiss him again and feel their bodies press together and oh wait she should fix her clothing she's been half-naked with this boy for the past while and now she's blushing again she should probably do something about that or resign herself to a life of being a tomato or some kind of hot chili pepper the way her ears are burning. Right. Yes. Clothing first. Goodbye kisses afterwards. Or kiss. Only one kiss. Or two. But probably one. 

Jenna shifts herself, pulling her clothing back into shape, looking down to make sure everything is in its proper place. Then she turns to face him, leans over, wraps her arms around him, delighting at the feel of his body through her top and the memory of how it felt without the top and she should really leave her top where it is because she has to get going back to her dorm room to bounce up and down a bunch of times and tell everyone about it and she can't do that if she's still here making out with him. Again. Like she might be already doing. Only a little. It only counts as one kiss if you don't stop kissing, right? Jenna idly wonders how long she can hold her breath. Or how long Sean can hold his. Which is a very silly thing to be thinking about when kissing such a delightful boy and the feeling of him on her lips once more and the memory of everything from before and she should really just enjoy it. Since it's her last one. Or maybe second to last. 

He giggles when she blushes, and wraps his arms around her when she hugs him, and hums happily when she kisses him, and kisses back, petting her hair and hugging her.

It turns out he can hold his breath for a while.

But eventually he pulls back a little, smiles, and kisses her forehead. "You should probably be going home, huh."

Jenna probably can't hold her breath for nearly that long and she pouts just the tiniest bit when he breaks the kiss but then he kisses her forehead and she grins at him and blushes when she hears what he says. He's right and he's being responsible and caring about her and his smile is so pretty when he's happy and his chest looks so good and she doesn't want to go she wants to stay right here. But she should go back to her dorm. "You're right," she says, grinning shyly, looking away slightly embarrassed. She should let go of him she really should let go of him she doesn't want to let go of him he feels so good to touch but she should let go of him. She lets go of him, still grinning gleefully at him, doing her best to hold back her excitement until he's well out of earshot and eyesight feeling around for the door handle which she eventually finds and then opens because it's easier to open the door than leave but if she opens the door she'll have to leave and she should really leave.

"I'll, I'll text you later," she tells him. "We should find another time to do something like this." Tomorrow, maybe, she doesn't say, because she should maybe write an essay tomorrow. Or something. She should probably not write an essay about how cute Sean is that would not work not at all even if it's funny and makes her grin and blush and would be pretty easy given that it's probably what she's going to be spending a lot of tomorrow thinking about and telling her friends about and definitely not telling her parents about and the door is open and it's awkward that it's open and she should probably go through it given that's why she opened it in the first place. She wants to lean over for another kiss but she already had her goodbye kiss and she shouldn't take another and she should go somewhere else where she can jump up and down with glee again where he won't see before it boils out of her. She gathers her will and pushes herself out of the car a little bit awkwardly and grins at him sheepishly and waves. And then closes the door behind her, and turns to walk off, doing her very best not to skip. More than once. Or twice. He'll pull away soon and then she can skip to her heart's content she doesn't need to be doing it now where he can see. 

He sits where he is for a moment, puts his shirt back on, smiles, relaxes. Starts the car. He can keep thinking while he drives.

And—

It occurs to him, as he's preparing to take down the outer layer, that he could just... leave it up. There's some scary magic out there and he doesn't know how it all works, and it might be useful to have two of him, one better hidden and possibly better protected than the other.

...he wonders if he's already done that, and his previous inner layer just made him forget about it. He wonders how many times he has done that.

Probably none. There really wouldn't have been an opportunity before now. But then again, he'd think that, wouldn't he?

Okay, whatever. If there's another layer of him under this one and the other Sean is staying hidden at this point, he's bound to have a really good reason, so he might as well stop worrying about it.

Now... if he leaves the outer layer believing false things about Jenna all the time, that's going to be convenient in some senses (it sure made it a lot easier to have the right feelings about the outer two layers of Jenna), but inconvenient in the fact that the outer Sean is definitely going to notice that the way he remembers that playing out doesn't actually make any sense. But if he just brings the outer layer up to speed on everything, the outer layer will know he exists, and that seems inconvenient in case of other mindreaders.

So. He thinks it through.

What could he have done, other than creating a second Sean, to hide his true thoughts from Jenna? He could have temporarily edited his own memories with no backup, but that sounds terrifying, he'd never have actually tried it. He could have... done magic to Jenna, to make her forget those thoughts every time he thought them, and otherwise just done a really good job of consciously immersing himself in the lie? That sounds like a thing he'd do. Uncomfortable, but this whole situation is uncomfortable.

Okay.

He makes the change. The outer Sean remembers deceiving middle-Jenna the other way. A slightly clumsier way, maybe, but in outer-Sean's memory it worked.

And then he finds somewhere to park for a few minutes so he can curl up in the back of the car and cry.

Fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck. He nearly lost her—he knew going in that he might, of course, but he wasn't prepared for it, not at all. She could have just told him to fuck off and walked away from it all. Maybe she should have, even. Maybe it would be better for her if she did. Probably most people in the world never run into any sort of magical hazard at all. Probably she'd be fine if he never owned her, if he just broke up with her and let her go on with her happy innocent life. But she decided to stay with him instead, and—can he even make that worth her while? Is it possible? Even if it is, is he capable of it? She's upset about Valerie, that can't bode well for the future of their relationship—it's entirely possible that he is just not good for her and that she would be better off dating a good person who has never raped her and understands monogamy, there have to be lots of those around—

He's not going to make that decision for her, though. He's just going to... do his best, and hope it all works out.

Okay, enough moping. He sits up and checks on Valerie.

Speaking of moping, that's not what Valerie is doing. Valerie would never be caught dead moping, she's far too good for that. 

In some senses she understands now how all of her old toys felt like this and why they sent her dozens and dozens of texts (and how much of a thrill it was, seeing them come in and knowing how much she owned their weak little hearts). But also she's hot and sexy and it's getting late and she's not sure where Sean is. And he never used her yesterday. Valerie is a little worried that he found someone else to play with who might be better than her, but she realizes after a moment that's foolish. No one is better than her, except for Sean, of course. Not even that bitch nerd girl with the giant tits. If he found someone else to play with, that's fine, she's still be devoted to him, his strength and power and control, ready to serve him when he comes home to the best. Ready to be used by him any way he wants, because he controls her and fuck is it hot to be so controlled, to see him unfazed and in control over everything she does. Giving him the pleasure he so richly deserves. Just thinking about it makes her wet, makes her press her thighs together and moan softly. He's probably out controlling some other weak-willed slut as is his right and power. And which she so very much wishes she can watch instead of imagining. (Oh, but she can imagine, and fuck it would be so hot if she could watch, instead of sitting at home alone touching herself thinking about it.) But he'll come back for more of the best, she's sure of it. 

She certainly doesn't miss the way he holds her close, and that feeling she can't figure out how to describe, that would be weak and soft and she's neither of those. Even if she's his (nnf, so hot, fuck, where is he), she's still just as strong and powerful as ever, and soon she'll have that whole sorority to play around in. Or give to Sean. Or both. Clearly that means she's strong and powerful and the best, the hottest and prettiest, just like she should be, compared to everyone else who's weak and soft. And she wouldn't be so weak and soft to bother Sean by texting him like all her other weak toys did for her. She's stronger than that. Better than that. She is. 

...aww.

Damn, he needs to take better care of his toys.

He's not going to apologize to her or anything, but he's definitely going to head over to her apartment now, and along the way he's going to—hmm, he doesn't want to get sidetracked into another conversation with Dani—maybe just set up a read on her that only tells him whether she's conscious, whether she's scared, and whether she wants his attention? Is that a thing he can do?

This is in fact a thing he can do!

Dani is conscious, is not scared, and does not want his attention. 

Works for him.

He parks at Valerie's building and heads upstairs. This time he actually makes noise coming in the door, because he wants to read her mind when she realizes who it is.

For a moment Valerie isn't sure what the sound is, and then she realizes and grins and presses her legs together for just a moment, glad to be proven the best. As though there was ever any doubt. She manages a quick glance in the mirror to make sure she's as hot as ever, smirking at her earlier thought, and takes a moment to adjust her hair and wish she was wearing something else before closing the laptop and pushing it safely off the bed and spreading herself out enticingly for Sean to do whatever he wants to her. Anything he wants. Because she's his. Fuck that's hot to think about, to know that he controls her so completely. She resists the urge to press her legs together at the thought, even though she wants to. She's going to be hot and pretty for Sean and prove to him that she's better than whatever hussy he was dallying with before. Not that she minds, of course, he deserves to take whatever he wants, he's just so strong and powerful. But Valerie is the best, and she's going to put all those other weak and ugly whores to shame. 

Oh Valerie. She's always so... Valerie.

He leaves his clothes scattered across the floor, grabs her, rips her clothes off, and starts fucking her against the nearest wall.

Valerie licks her lips at him seductively as he enters, pulling off the last of his clothing, towering above her like the powerful man he is. That she belongs to (nnf). And there's no word of greeting, no nothing as he simply takes what he wants from her, which only makes it hotter. She shrieks a little in surprise as he grabs her, shivering happily at his show of force, and then shrieks louder as he tears her clothing off. It doesn't matter how expensive it might have been (not that that matters to someone like her) or anything silly like that. That doesn't matter to him. He wants her, and he takes what he wants. He's so strong and powerful and he controls her and it's so hot to watch him just take her how he wants.

She moans in delight at the thought, and moans even louder as he picks her up (so fucking strong, fuck) and shoves her against the wall to start fucking her. Fuck, he's so powerful. She's his. She thrusts back at him as he fucks her, moving to let him get a better grip on her ass, leaning closer to him to press the rest of her body into him, doing her best to show how much she loves this, how turned on she is by him fucking her. Using her. Fuck she's so controlled. He's so strong and powerful and it's so fucking good having him use her like this. She's his. 

Yeah that's better.

There's something very stress-relieving about reading Valerie's mind and watching it melt as he fucks her. And the power and violence of taking her like this are pretty damn hot to him too.

When he finishes, he stands there for a few moments longer, holding her against the wall with his cock still inside her, pressing his face into the side of her neck and breathing deeply. His. His his his. Whatever else happens, whatever else goes wrong in his life, this is something no one can take away. He owns her and she likes it and she doesn't care about any of the awful shit he's done. No matter what, she still belongs to him.

Okay.

Feeling much better now, he pulls her away from the wall and carries her to bed and holds her close like a favourite teddy bear and goes to sleep.

It feels so fucking good when he fucks her, uses her, cums inside her, takes what he wants from her and keeps holding her up, she belongs to him. Fuck she belongs to him, and she loves it. Craves it. It feels so fucking good to see him exercise his power over her like that. 

And then he carries her back to the bed and wraps himself around her and it feels so good to be held again and she's not going to cry this time she didn't miss it she's strong and powerful. But being held like this feels so warm and safe, being held and possessed so comfortingly like this. She still doesn't understand it but she enjoys it and she missed him yesterday and it feels so sweet to be in his arms again like this. She shifts, making herself more comfortable and relaxed but being sure to not to disturb Sean's rest, and lets herself drift off to sleep, enjoying these strange feelings. 

He wakes up in the morning, and cuddles his Valerie, and wonders exactly how bad an idea it would be to take the day off from the rest of his life and just lie here and cuddle her for the next twelve hours.

Well, for one thing he'll fail a Calculus quiz. And piss off Zoe. And set a bad precedent for how to handle future shitty weekends.

He sighs, kisses Valerie's forehead, and pulls her head down for his morning blowjob.