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Asher invites him to a party on Saturday night.
He spends probably too much time picking out what he's going to wear — he's never met Asher's friends before, he doesn't want them to think he's some stupid high school kid — spends definitely too much time on hair and makeup, and then paces and waits for Asher to pick him up.
And his kisses Sasha and tugs his hair and listens to him gasp and the moment he finishes it feels almost like he's flying.
"Lev," and his fingers tighten in Lev's hair, "Lev," his hips twitch, he isn't done, "Lev —"
Lev kisses him and starts fucking him with his fingers.
"Sorry I'm not a dozen people."
He moans and pulls Lev closer and buries his face in Lev's shoulder again and says "Don't be — you're perfect —"
He yanks Sasha's hair with one hand the way he likes and fucks him with the other and loves him and is only a little bit irritated about the concept of refractory periods and the inconvenient way they only happen when he's with Sasha. (It's not like he wants Sasha less.)
And Sasha finishes on Lev's fingers and just for a moment it's that transcendent bliss and then —
And then the bliss fades, and he's warm and glowing and satisfied, there's nothing missing, nothing he needs except to stay right here in Lev's arms.
"It's true. You are the best."
Asher's an ice cube but Lev is so so warm and the contrast feels weird but nice.
"Cause I was anxious about it for no reason and you didn't push me because you're the best?" He nuzzles his Lev.
"I'm not sure that's what happened, I thought we were worried about babies."
"Yeah, but it was fine, I'm safe, I shouldn't have been worried about it at all."
They should be talking less and snuggling more.
"Sasha," he says, "hypothetically, if you needed it, what would you think about birth control?"
His face scrunches up.
"...I guess an IUD wouldn't be bad? The pill might be fine but I've heard people say it fucks with their dysphoria and I don't super want to deal with that."
Asher has no idea what an IUD is but he does not want his Sasha to have worse dysphoria or, for that matter, anything that is best described as "not bad". He hasn't really thought about having babies in centuries but he remembers that it is hard for humans to have babies, so probably it will be fine. And anyway they have abortion now, he's read about it, and if something happens he can just take Sasha to have an abortion and make him forget the experience and by the time he remembers he'll be a vampire and he won't care.
"It's lucky you're safe."
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