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"...less long ago than that." That's vague and manipulative. "This week." Also lying. "...I do it all the time. I do it almost instinctively, whenever I'm talking to anyone—other than you—I'm always trying to present them with my best, making them feel well-disposed towards me, fudging memories and retrying things until they work, letting them figure out what I should say that would make sense and work well."

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"Would you stop, if I asked you to?"

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"I would take a spaceship to the Sun if you asked me to, Tae-gun. Yes, I'd stop. I'll stop being an esper, I'll become a housewife for you."

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"...that's ridiculous."

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He covers his face again. "I'm such a fucking cliché when it comes to you. Of course it's ridiculous."

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"And if you backlash again..."

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"I don't know, Tae-gun. I—I want to say I'll never do it again, but I don't know if it's true. I don't really—care? When I'm backlashed, I do it because it makes my life easier, but I just don't care about things then. It won't hurt me to stop. And right now I, I'll try it. I'll do anything, I'll—" He's being manipulative but not saying this would also be because it's true, because he will do anything Tae-gun asks him to do—

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"Hyung."

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"I love you too."

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"Oh don't say that, Tae-gun-ah, I don't think I can—"

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"I wanted to wait. To be away from you and know what I was really feeling, but... it was all real, wasn't it? You didn't—you said it's been a month. I looked over our texts. You were still—the you I think you are. I spent all day thinking and, and trying to figure it out.

"I don't want to lose you. I don't want to leave you."

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"...it wasn't all real. At first, I—you remember when I told you you could call me by my name? That wasn't the first thing I said then. I said you could call me 'hyung' and you—didn't like it. You felt uncomfortable. So I got rid of that."

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"...does that matter? That's so, so small."

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"It's all small. Small this, small that. A lot of small things add up."

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"But the last month was real."

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"Please stop giving me chances, Tae-gun-ah, I don't—I can't refuse you. I'm not strong enough to stay away from you if you don't push me away."

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"Well then don't. We can, we can figure it out. We can make it work. We can deal with your backlash, and find ways for you to not slide into this again, and—it's not that bad. You know. Being bad at—people. At knowing what to say. People can still like you. I don't know how or why but they can.

"You like me."

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"That's different."

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"It's not. If you can stop using your power around me you can do it around other people, too. And you can still be you. And, and you can still be mine."

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"Can you come over? If we're not breaking up, then, then—then I need a hug."

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"...yeah."

He hangs up, and then Jaeha gets a request for a visitor to teleport to his door.

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He accepts the request and rushes over to open his door for Tae-gun and—

"Tae-gun-ah."

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"...hi. Shut the door if you're not gonna put clothes on."

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He pulls Tae-gun inside, shuts the door, then wraps both arms around Tae-gun and rests his forehead on Tae-gun's neck. "Is it stupid that I missed you?"

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