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Taliar in Evil Arda
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I'm not sure I'm used to the idea yet but I'm not the one who'll have to explain it to everyone who looks me in the eye over the next two days...

Although despite this, he's organizing explanations in the back of his head - it seems like they should lie and say they did it on purpose, that they wanted to see if being soulbearers made them able to get married and this turned out to be the case and they're waiting on Taliar's soul to provide a power for completing the marriage since he is not an Elf and can't do it naturally - that last part is at least true...

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Yeah, I think that's probably better than saying it was an accident - especially if the latter can cause people to wonder if they can get married by accident and then maybe they can -

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Yeah. So. We tried, it worked, isn't that convenient for Elf soulbearers.

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It'll be a scandal, but a manageable one. Kiss. And worth it.

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Kiss. So worth it. Love you forever.

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I know you will!!

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Taliar giggles and hugs his beautiful brilliant husband. (He thinks the words this time, and it's - weird, unfamiliar - well, they have forever to get used to it. And it's a nice kind of weird.)

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At least in your world it was conceptually possible, he says, nibbling on his ear.

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Awwwww ear-nibbles are so nice. Maitimo is so nice. Taliar is so happy.

When have I ever let a little thing like conceptual impossibility stop me?

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True. Hugs. Oh, Taliar, my miracle -

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Hugs!

I like being your miracle. I like it a lot.

He just, he feels so successful, so happy and fulfilled and satisfied and accomplished, every time he is reminded of how much unexpected joy he has brought into Maitimo's life.

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Then he can have so, so many reminders.

 

 

He refines the story. He tells the appropriate people.

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And a couple of days go by and, right on schedule, Taliar's soul turns up a marriage erasure power (branched from oath erasure) and a marriage completion power (branched from osanwe).

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How good of it. Then they can have a lovely evening and get properly married at the end of it.

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Experiments!

Is Maitimo really going to control his expectations with oaths—?

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Sure, why not. Time-limited, safe enough.

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In that case, they can confirm pretty conclusively that it's the expectations that do it.

And then -

It's harder than he thought it would be, to tell his healing aura to erase the name. When Maitimo first did it, it was having it written that Taliar enjoyed, much more than the thought of keeping it; but he's gotten used to it since then, it feels right to have it there. He has to try twice before he convinces the healing aura that he means business and the scars fade from his back with a faint blue flare.

"All yours, my love," he says with a soft smile.

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He's going to put it back. But not right away. Taliar isn't his, right now, and that means Taliar is no one's, and here's what that feels like, strangers and strangers and strangers without a trace of Maitimo among them -

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It somehow manages to be made just that little bit worse by the fact that he had no idea it was coming.

He is utterly, helplessly, hopelessly lost in pain and terror.

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He holds him and kisses him and steps it up - up - up - and then takes hold of his soul and lets them all go -

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The brief moment of overlap feels like his first breath of air after the rockslide, a timeless instant of euphoric agony, and then—

Profound relief. Profound love. Profound trust.

Maitimo hurts him so well, with such skill and artistry, and Taliar loves him for it; and sometimes Maitimo doesn't hurt him, sometimes Maitimo brings him to dizzying heights of joy and rapture, and Taliar loves him for that too. The whole landscape of pain and pleasure is their playground, and Taliar wouldn't have it any other way. He loves Maitimo, he will always love Maitimo, and he is deeply, intensely glad to give himself to Maitimo like this, to put himself completely in Maitimo's hands, to offer up every part of himself and trust that they'll be well taken care of.

He's crying and he has no idea he's doing it, would be astonished to find out - he's so happy, so overcome with perfect trust and blissful adoration, so delightedly wrapped up in the overwhelming sense of Maitimo's presence. Maitimo is the best thing that's ever happened to him. Maitimo is beautiful and brilliant and terrifying and adorable and wonderful and glorious. Taliar is going to love him forever, and they are going to keep doing this forever, Taliar making a gift of himself and Maitimo taking him apart and Taliar putting himself back together and both of them loving each other so much for the experience and the closeness and the things they learn along the way. It's amazing. They're amazing. They are individually and collectively miraculous.

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He lets go of his soul and whispers perfectly still, understand?

 

He carves his name into Taliar's back. He is very careful; it has to be stunningly beautiful, it has to be flawless. 

 

I'm going to marry you now, he says to him.

 

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He is perfectly, perfectly still. He closes his eyes and lets out his healing aura and feels the beautiful curves and lines of the tengwar taking shape one cut at a time and it's exquisite and he does not move at all.

The knife traces letter after letter, and each stroke stays untouched by his healing aura for just a moment, just long enough to flush crimson with blood so it shows up beautifully against his skin, not long enough for so much as a single drop to spill, and then heals to a perfect scar in a flare of golden light that fades to a faint but brilliant blue. The blue stays, a subtle starry shimmer along the thin graceful lines of the scars. They were already going to be beautiful, but with this light in them, they're breathtaking.

When Maitimo speaks again, Taliar smiles, and it's the first movement he's made since he was told to be still. He feels... there isn't a word for it. This is the most beautiful experience he has ever had, and he loves Maitimo so much. His soul is shining like the sun.

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His too, though obviously not quite as much. He kisses Taliar. He marries him. He intends it to be forever and irrevocable by any magic, in case that helps.

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This time, the marriage is complete, both halves of the bond settling in at once.

Taliar's soul shines brighter and brighter - it's almost like the moment when it first acknowledged Maitimo, but the only part of Taliar that's glowing is the name on his back, perfect and beautiful and blue. The sunny light of his soul mingles with the Silmaril-glow of Maitimo's, and together they make everything in the room almost painfully beautiful. Taliar looks at Maitimo's face and feels like he might start crying again. Nothing has ever been this lovely. He is impossibly happy, so happy it hurts. He can't stop grinning and there are tears in his eyes and this is the most intense emotion he's ever felt without Maitimo's hand on his soul.

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