I finished the books. If you happen to have others.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

Bad mood?

Not especially, really.

You don't have to drop by here every break.

I know.

Are you still irritated with my father?

Some, yes. He's so brilliant and he just - doesn't channel it right, I could brush it off more easily if I thought he just didn't have the raw ability...

Shrug. Turned out I didn't need my mother to love me. That doesn't mean it wouldn't have been nice or that it's not a fucking tragedy she couldn't pull it off.

I'm sorry.

I'm not bringing this up because I'm fishing for pity, I'm pointing out what it sounds like when you say it. To other people you are another person.

My father loves me. He just needs a lot from me for us to have a relationship where we enjoy being in each others' presence.

Yes, our situations are not identical, I'm aware.

And even though it's irrational right now I'm mostly annoyed with him because the current situation means I'm stuck here for ten years. That's not an unreasonable sacrifice and not really his fault.

Nod.

Himring was mine and it was built so I could be sane there and I guess I got used to it.

Anything I can solve by redecorating in here?

No, Menegroth's sufficiently pretty. Thanks, though.

You're welcome.

There were a lot of doors that only I knew about so if I needed to have a solid wall between me and people I could do it in an instant. There weren't any things that had unpleasant associations attached. It was a bit obsessive. Obviously I need to cope in places that I didn't personally build to be tolerable.

I didn't realize.

That was rather the point.