I don't think we do, sadly. Thanks anyway.

She nods.

I think for now I'm going to go with the herb that makes me skip a year, and see if we can get things set up to the point where if I need to avoid you all summer it won't cause problems. And if we can't I'll do the other one. Okay?

That sounds like a really important decision that should not be made for my sake. 

Yup, that's why I'm not just going with the permanent one to start with. The temporary one is less of a big deal; I've used it before when I didn't want to be distracted, this isn't that different.

Okay.

...you realize I'm not supposed to be around other kobolds ever again, right? It shouldn't actually matter whether I'm fertile or not.

They made that decision based on wrong information, right?

They're not going to change their minds, though.

Even if they know it was the wrong decision?

She sighs. There's no way they could even find out. If I showed up at their campsite they'd try to kill me; that's what 'exiled' means.

...okay. But it might be arrangeable anyway?

Doesn't seem even slightly likely, but if you have an idea I can listen to it.

I thought you said it was a possibility? Finding a - other kobold?

When Findekáno and I were getting the magic forms we talked to one of the other Speakers for a little while, and they want to come and see me next summer and I bet at least a couple of the others will too. But if they're gone often it's likely someone'll notice and get curious, and if someone notices them teleporting out or one of the mages notices whatever enspelled object I make to let them come see me that's not going to be good at all.

And then they might be in danger?

I'm not sure what would happen. Whoever was caught teleporting getting exiled would be a fairly good outcome, if that was the only thing that happened - more likely the whole group would panic.

So you can be careful - how often do you need - company - 

Did he actually just ask that. Wow she does not want to be having this conversation any more.

The herbs really are the best option. It's fine.

He looks extremely skeptical but can at least interpret that as 'I am not willing to discuss this'. So then he'll just tremble violently.

She waits a couple seconds to see if he's going to calm down on his own.

I'm sorry.

Not your fault. Angband.

Yeah.

This is my decision and I'm not going to hold you in any way responsible for it. I'm making it partly because of you but I'm the one choosing to do that, it's not your fault or your responsibility.

That wasn't the problem - you don't even want me involved in it, those aren't circumstances under which I can feel guilty about choices people make on my behalf - just - wasn't something I thought I'd need to work through right away -

Nothing's going to happen to you because of it, either - I won't tell anyone, I wouldn't tell anyone anyway. I'm sorry I brought it up.

Didn't have a way to know. It's fine. 

He is not trembling less violently.