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Pradnakt nods against her shoulder. "Come in, Love."

 

"It's good that you're... more than just the one thing," she adds, to Kalbetis.

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"If I - had tried to entirely be my work, I'm quite sure it would have broken me by now.  Carving out time to put it aside for a moment is, ironically, mission-critical."

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"Yeah. Same for me, more or less."

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"...Mmm?"  She's a bit surprised by the idea.

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"I think - trying to be just a Sith, losing track of the idea of being more than that, something like those - is what's wrong with most of us. And I don't want to go down that road. Not actually sure I could, honestly, it seems like one of those things where once you've seen it you just aren't going to do that to yourself."

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"...Mmm.  I've certainly always looked at the title rather instrumentally, myself."

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"I can tell."

 

"Oh, uh - so this is - the emotions don't all come back at once? So I'm a little giddy right now. Won't last long."

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She nods, and continues the ensnuggling.  "I'm glad you're getting a pleasant sort of emotion."

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Pradnakt has no complaints whatsoever about the snuggling. "It's a little weird having just this - or, not quite just, wanting comes back first, but even both together isn't much. But it's pretty good."

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"Mmmmm."

She doesn't really have much further to add.

"...Is there - an order to it, then?"

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"Roughly. The details are different every time but it's this, then fear, then anger. And it's not just emotions for no reason, it's my emotions, so whatever's been happening recently affects it a lot - the fear part will be pretty rough but the anger one should be better, I don't think the Jedi did anything that pissed me off."

    "Older events tend to come up, too, if they're important enough, you'll want to be prepared for that."

"Yeah. You don't have to stay, if it's too much."

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There is a moment where the thought is considered, but it shatters in the face of her resolve.  "...No, I'll stay.  For my friend."

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"Good. I'm glad you're here. -maybe don't trust what I'm saying right now, but we talked about this ahead of time and I liked the idea then, too."

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She nods.  "You're not in your full right mind, yes, I do know.  ...I'm glad, though.  That I am...  That trustworthy."

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"You've proven it pretty thoroughly. It's still - some of the other parts get - messy - it's hard to think about, like this. But I know it'll be fine, you're not going to hurt us. And I want you here if you want to be here."

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"If you want me here...  I want to be here."

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"If it gets to be too much, though, I don't want... oh, that's the fear coming in." She clings. "But I mean it, I want you to go if you want to go."

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"I know.  I want to stay.  I can't yet think of a way this could get worse than feeling just how badly suppressing everything was treating you and knowing that I had to let it."

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"It's still - I don't want - you're - Daisy help -"

    "The-"

"Yeah -"

    "I don't think she's going to be surprised."

"That's worse." There's a franticness to her clinging, now.

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"It's going to be okay.  You're terrified, I know, but the fear will pass and you will remain.  There's no danger here, and if there was I'd stab it myself."

Instinct and training and perhaps the Will of the Force guide her, as she starts a quiet litany of grounding, of cueing Lord Pradnakt's mind to the present where it might otherwise get quite stuck in the all-too-painful past.

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That... helps. Not enough to solve the problem - any time Pradnakt loses focus at all she starts to panic again, and she's not exactly good at staying focused right now. But it works, again and again and again, to drag her away from the edge.

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And she'll keep doing it, as long as it's needed.

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It takes a while.

Eventually, the terror subsides a little, and Pradnakt curls up against Kalbetis' chest and cries.

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She can also dab gently at the tears.


 

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Many minutes earlier...

Fynn'che Ries is...really, not the sort of leadership figure this mission should want, but nonetheless the one it has, Master Karmin notwithstanding.

It falls to them to take point on keeping everyone up to date and listened to, by dint of their being no-one else stepping up.

"Knight Jayn, you noticed something."

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