"Think of God, and think of the things you might say to him. Picture clearly that you are addressing him with your thoughts, such that your soul shall radiate them, and speak your mind within your mind. Angels had found that their prayers are answered more often than mortals, and those in Heaven more often than those within worlds, but such answers do not always come in words or even revelations as the heaven-born angels are wont to receive. Small signs at times, or greater signs in rarer cases, rather than words, are God's preferred method."

She doesn't have a very clear impression of God but finds that her current mental image of him is a glowing sunshiney circle with extremely vague edges to represent how INCREDIBLY VAGUE he apparently is. She imagines beaming telepathy at this circle.

Can you explain things more clearly please?

Nothing seems to happen.

"It didn't work. Is it likely your instructions were incomplete or just that he didn't decide to answer?"

"You had not prayed for long, so perhaps God did not answer yet."

"Does one keep saying the same main thing over and over or does one have to go on at greater length?"

"I had seen some use it as a meditation focus, and some as a conversation where you imagine God's responses and continue on, and some repeat the same prayers, and some rephrase their concern in many ways."

"Is imagining God's response not... confuseable for him replying?"

"It is, sometimes, for mortals."

"Do I still count as a mortal?"

"At the moment, you do. I shall also pray for signs about whether any signs you observe are true."

"Thanks."

Hey God, why are you so vague all the time?

Great question, Bella! It's because I am having a really hard time keeping all these balls in the air and sometimes drop some and have an easier time juggling vague warm feelings for who knows how many millions of people than I would with putting out a newsletter in a few major languages once a year, or possibly because I am only loosely a kind of person at all and merely happen to manifest in ways that align with normal human morality a surprising amount of the time. Or it's for some other reason. Either way, you can rest assured that I don't care very much about you knowing what's going on more clearly than this angel is able to tell you, since you are in my seat of power and if I wanted something it would probably happen. How's the fruit?

The fruit is great, but I'm trying to decide here how to go about being an angel with a side of not being totally sure I want to work for you. How am I supposed to know if I want to work for you? Picking me to be an angel is a good start but then there's all these vows and stuff and it's weird. I come from a cultural context where it's normal to think of you as omnipotent.

Well, I'm not.

Right, but, like, what CAN you do. What do you WANT.

-It's not really mistakable for her own imagination at this intensity. There's a warmth to it, like the light from the Gates but moreso.

-Confusion and wonder. It's like there's something intricate and complex and invisible in front of you, but you can't see it, only see the shadows, the depression it makes in the dust and how air eddies around it and a faint smell of flowers, circuit boards and marble runs and fractals, self-modifying and intricate and beautiful, something one could watch forever-

-A view of fire and brimstone panning out forever into the distance and a sickening pit of dread and regret-

-The universe's largest corkboard with billions upon billions of papers and pins and strings linking it together, and a pin called Bella, a sharp one, a sturdy one, it would help so much in so many places, but where-

-A sense of defiance and independence, of wanting to do things, to accomplish things, not just have the world handed to you on a silver platter, but wanting a choice-

I appreciate that but I don't understand!

...Building with LEGOs, near-infinite numbers of possible block arrangements, and some are good and some are bad?

...Flap of a butterfly wing creating a typhoon somewhere far away?

It's honestly very cool to get a glimpse of how you perceive things but this doesn't tell me whether I agree with you about which lego structures are good and why, or help me figure out how Hell came to be a thing and what kind of leverage is most efficient at solving it.

Weird particle physics-looking concepts. (And an apology. And-)

"God had given me a revelation to share with you, in my own words. He says that He understands only that you wish to understand, and making an effort to win your faith is good and right. That Hell had existed for some time when He first learned of it, and Heaven and all the hosts were much dismayed, and that the long campaign to understand and push back Hell had occurred ever since then. That Hell is in many ways the opposite of Heaven as... Antimatter is to matter. That Hell is much weakened by the slaying of its Demons, as Heaven is by the deaths of Angels. And that Demons can be permanently destroyed by dragging them, chained in Law and magic and light, into Heaven."

"...well I don't know what it means to chain somebody in Law or light, but that's helpful, yeah..."

How did you start? she asks God.

"God had emerged from the primordial mingling of Heavenly energies. Heaven existed before God, and God crafted the undifferentiated light into good forms, and had crafted the first world, and found more that he had not crafted himself, ever since."

"Who's making the other ones??"

"We don't know. All we can do is reach as far as possible, to save as much as possible."

"Do the unreached worlds still send dead souls here?"

"They do not, but God had been able to slowly recover them from all worlds which we had since reached. Though again, some resist the Heavenly call and fall instead to Hell... In all cases, those recovered do not experience anything between dying and Heaven. So there is no need to rush for new worlds on account of souls being lost forever- Merely on the chances to intervene and improve the lot of said worlds."

"Okay. I think I'm... basically on board. I'm confused about why the angel powers work the way they do but I assume you don't know."