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Deskyl and DZ in Gunsmoke
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"So so" feeling about them being able to do that, with an attached feeling of tiredness/pain and then a feeling that there's stuff missing in that picture.

Which is to say, "Yeahhhh kinda, it's a bit costly but not prohibitively so and they can elaborate on that if she wants them to."

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She wants to know, but she's at the point where she's going to have trouble processing anything complicated, and she still needs to tell Daisy about their conversation before she sleeps so that she can get the important bits back from her later when she's forgotten, which she might not be able to do if she pushes herself. They can explain it to her after she's slept, that makes more sense than doing it now.

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Fair! Sleep well, new friend, they love you!

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They're very cute.

She updates Daisy on what she's learned, and has her sign poetry to her until she falls asleep. She wakes again after a few hours, less disoriented this time but still missing some memories.

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The plants don't immediately engage.

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Deskyl will take the time to get an update from DZ, then, and then do some gentle stretching and look to see what Nai is up to.

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Nai is doing something at the computer console in the middle of the huge room.

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All right. What else does she need to do. ...she should get a look at their surroundings outside the building. She expects the Force to have dropped her somewhere basically fine but she should still confirm it.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Well. Fuck.

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"Well fuck" is correct. The surface is mostly ruins and desert as far as the mind's eye can see, and the ways out are all hidden in secret passages or through underground tunnels stretching out into the distance. There might be nearby settlements but none that are immediately visible to her.

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There aren't even different bugs. What kind of ridiculous unterraformed nonsense...

Well. Nothing for it. She updates DZ, gets the further piece of bad news that the droid isn't designed to operate in desert temperatures, and gets to work on planning how to travel through the wastes.

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A few minutes after that Nai gets distracted again so the plants can say hi!!

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Hi! She's pretty distracted panicking about the fact that she's unexpectedly in the middle of an inhospitable desert right now. Did they know about that? Do they know if there are other humans/other nonbug nonplant creatures/places on the planet that aren't desert?

(She's still distractedly looking through the ruins outside, trying to find something that'll work as the basis of a vehicle that she can pull. Splitting her attention like she is, though, it's not clear that she'd notice it properly if she did find something workable.)

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Oh there are other humans! Here, they can get a rough map of civilization cobbled together: mostly on the southern hemisphere of this very desert planet which has no oceans. And they have a rough idea of where they are, which isn't too far from that very big walled city over there, with millions of inhabitants.

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Oh good. Oh good. That's... still going to suck to do on foot hauling Daisy, actually, but it's potentially survivable at least. Probably. If she can get enough water, which. Well. One problem at a time.

She takes a moment to sign this update to Daisy, and then turns her attention more fully to the plants - how are they doing?

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Doing okay! Even better now that Nai is helping one of them! Nai helps them most of the time most days so every day they are (collectively) better than the previous day!

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That's good.

What's the story with them being injured-or-whatever, anyway? She can see the problem in reasonable detail but it's not one she's familiar with, she doesn't have a guess of what might've caused it.

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So here's a mental image of—a place that doesn't exist. There's a sort of attachment to it of it being part of a whole, plus a wobbliness of inaccuracy. More of the concept of an inaccurate place than the place itself. Then a door or a window or an aperture of some kind from that place to a plant, here. And an image of a desk followed by the same desk with a metal cube on it, and the time relation between those two is mediated by a different kind of relation related but not identical to "motion" from the abstract place through the plant to the desk.

Attached to all of that is a feeling of tiredness, referring to the plant. A small feeling, not too much of it, but there anyway. And then a feeling of multiplication, of multitude, that same thing a hundred times, a thousand times—but different, not always the same cube, not always a cube, not always the same amount. And the feeling of tiredness mounts until it becomes pain, and from pain it becomes injury.

The plant in the image now glows red instead of blue.

Injury grows and mounts and complicates, the aperture itself gets damaged and pushed farther open than it was, and the plant starts losing hold of its own shape and body. Grows grows grows...

...and the plant turns to dust.

Then back to the red plant, being floated through tunnels by Nai, with a determined expression on his face. The plant gets here, and it's suddenly surrounded by other plants, and the other plants have their own apertures and the red plant can lean on them and rest.

Nai comes back, and he also has an aperture, and his is bigger and stronger, it can grow or shrink on command, it can make lots of different things come through from the abstract place without Nai getting tired at all. And Nai joins the plant again and this time he shares his aperture with the plant and he controls exactly what comes through and how. He zooms into the injuries, and he selectively brings things over from the abstract place to heal those injuries individually, until they get better.

After a long time, over many such sessions, the plant is healthy again, and glows blue.

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(She could heal them. She wants to. It's increasingly annoying that it's a bad idea. She lets the thought pass without entertaining it, though the annoyance remains.)

She sympathizes with their power having a cost like that. Some of hers do too - not in the same way, the damage is to her psychological wellbeing and personality rather than to her body, but the logistical issues sound pretty similar. It's good that they have Nai. (And there's a slight undertone, there, of absence; she doesn't have anything similar, and would never expect to.)

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The "it's a bad idea" thought gets grabbed again and this time the question about it is in two pieces: the first piece is the feeling of "not here" attached to it, and then the feeling of upset, fear, danger; the second piece is the feeling of "here" attached to it and then a feeling of confusion.

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She's not sure she understands what they're asking, and the lingering annoyance directs itself at the fact of being asked: the fact that she doesn't want to do it should be enough, really. She brushes the emotion aside as soon as she notices it, though: yes, in some cases that's endorsed, and if they keep pushing it'll come down to that, but she prefers to be more patient with people who are most likely genuinely confused.

There are a few different things that go into her assessment that healing is by strong default a bad idea. She probably already mentioned, when she told them about it before - she doesn't remember the conversation very well but it's what she tends to first land on as an explanation - that it's dangerous among Sith as a cultural matter. That's significant even though she's not there anymore; she's in the habit of hiding it, and she functions best when she can function mostly by habit, especially now when she's significantly cognitively impaired. It'd also be stressful and scary, and therefore distracting, to work on dismantling the habit, since it's been important to her survival and she only mostly believes them that it's safe; if she had enough concrete evidence to work out for herself that it's safe, it would be easier, but she doesn't plan on sticking around long enough for it to make any sense to try to gather that evidence here. (She'll consider it once she's at the city, maybe, if she's not too busy and everything else looks favorable - it is an option for her to go and get settled and come back.) And healing is, also, more than just ordinary levels of risky, even if the situation is only ordinary levels of dangerous: the mental state she has to be in to do it interferes pretty severely with her ability to defend herself. Here in particular, if she gets into a conflict with Nai, her best chance of survival is to react quickly, to understand right away that she's under threat and to act on that without delay, and that mental state doesn't allow for it - it makes her slower, more inclined to assume people are friendlier, more desirous of that kind of interpersonal connection, less willing to cut off opportunities for it. It's a real weakness that she has to be very careful with, and the easiest way to do that by far is to just not mess with it.

Does that answer their question?

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There is some confusion about "habit" but not the kind where they're particularly... inclined to push. Their question has been answered but they feel sad about the answer because clearly it makes Deskyl sad and they don't want Deskyl to be sad.

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...of all the unpleasant things in her life, that one barely registers - which is probably not helpful, actually, in terms of them being sad about it. She's honestly fine, though; it's normal for life to include some suffering, and, sure, some of it has been bullshit, but overall she doesn't mind. (Well, okay, aside from the part where she's not going to get to kill Pritruth, that one still bugs her.) The future looks like it's going to be much better than the past, though, and that's the important thing.

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Oh good. They're not entirely sure they understand what she means by that last thing but it sounded hopeful so they're glad!

Anyway, does she want them to appear some food for her?

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Not right now, if it's going to hurt them - she'll probably be fine, she hasn't tried skipping meals since much earlier in her recovery and she's probably gotten the ability to do it without problems back by now. If she's wrong about that she'll let them know.

It sounds like it might be helpful for her to explain how humans work for them? She's not sure how much they're around humans, if they'd rather not bother that's fine too. Or she can get back to working on her travel plans.

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Oh they know about humans! Zash has explained humans to the plants!!

...though he doesn't think they really understand. Here are some memories of Zash's mind when trying to explain this and that...

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