Arazni’s first priority, upon plane shifting to Axis with the contents of her emergency stash, was to sell some Gates and then purchase an extremely expensive protection contract. (All visitors to Aktun are covered while they’re there, but not necessarily, by the standards of someone who just used magic in an antimagic field, seriously enough.)
Her second priority was to have a good meal - not at one of Axis’s best restaurants, but at a small shop she knew was very good a thousand years ago partway into Deep Axis (which shop had in her absence, she discovered, expanded enormously, fortunately without any decline in quality), and her third priority was a hot bath. Hopefully, this would help with reminding her that the world had things in it other than misery, so she could start sorting her own mind out.
So far, she had deliberately followed a policy of acting directly based on her mortal instincts, keeping her divine capabilities deliberately to pick a metaphor, wrapped up in themselves, curled into the tiniest ball being careful not to touch anything. It is the nature of gods to sustain and protect their identity, to be what they endorse being and endorse what they are - and Arazni is not at all sure she wants the person she is now to be ascended. Much simpler to choose no clerics, keep her senses anchored in the mortal world, stay an easy-to-change mortal while she wishes to change and wait to expand her intelligence and power until she has any idea what she’d be expanding them into. Not doing that is how you wind up as goddess of despair.
So. What does she need to sort out, before she can end this waiting and reascend to demigodhood?