"I ran into Yamada the other day," says Subaru, failing to sound casual. Tōkan hasn't said anything about it so Subaru assumes that Yamada must not have told him for one reason or another.
"A bit. Guess I got to understand him better. But it's not like I don't do the same thing to you. I did figure out that him having a fight with you would be the best way to get you two to know each other."
"From someone whose default opinion of alphas is 'kill them all', yeah. The first time we kissed—after that little incident in the sports storeroom—was because he called me acceptable."
"Look, it's complicated. Words are an imperfect medium to translate information between people, and the ideal is understanding what the person means regardless of the words they used to try to communicate it. When Inori-kun said I was acceptable, what he meant was that it seemed like I had my priorities straight and I actually cared about other human beings for real and not just as a political maneuver or in a sort of abstract way that goes away as soon as it becomes inconvenient, and that I was willing to back that up."
"Sure, a lot of it was subverbal, but is that an unfair description of what you did mean? Or at least, what you in retrospect think you meant?"
"That you have a kind of rough exterior and probably some unexamined instincts influenced by the society you grew up in but despite that you're managing alright in terms of trying to shake them off and work past them, and you do have some good qualities hiding under the surface that you seem to sometimes actively try to hide."
"You were not, but do you disagree that this is a good summary of your position and that 'not that bad' is the overall colour of it?"
"By which you mean you don't really understand why this from Inori in particular is doing it but it is making you feel very warm and fuzzy inside and there's a part of you that is a little bit embarrassed by it, like, how silly is it to feel proud of something so small, but on the other hand you are kind of proud of, if not the actual place you're at right now, the long-term trajectory of the life you're aiming for, and this is a sign you're succeeding at least right now."