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recursive Sith apprenticeships, anyone? (or, timetravel ghost Vader acquires a teenage Palpatine)
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"You mean, why don't I blame you for the actions of Darth Sidious?"

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"I..."

"Yeah."

 

"I'd blame me."

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She shifts, and her image flickers – she's kneeling in front of them suddenly, the image of her hand coming to rest on Lily's cheek. "I was... Nervous," she admits quietly, almost ashamedly, "When I first realized you could see me. I... Didn't know, yet, what I wanted to do. I didn't know how far gone you already were." 

"And then... I got to know you."

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"I forgave her, apprentice, for everything she did to me. If I had the chance... I'd try to save her, too. I don't... I don't think she was ever beyond saving.You will never be beyond saving – there is nothing you can do that I cannot forgive. There is nothing in the grand arc of eternity that will ever make me give up on loving you."

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...Oh no, she's crying. 

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Vader kisses her forehead, softly. 

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Pet pet. Think she needed to hear this.

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Yeah. She did.

"What else?"

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"Darth Sidious became Senator of Naboo, then Chancellor of the Republic – the war I fought in was a civil war. One of her apprentices claimed to lead the resurgent Sith, however he was acting on her behalf."

"She organized the downfall of the Jedi Order, and then... The Senate voted to make her Emperor."

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"...Is it fucked up that I'm... Relieved?"

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"By what?"

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"That I – that she – was the Emperor, not Plagueis."

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"Ah."

"No, it isn't. Plagueis... He died around the same time Elesse rescued me from Gardulla. You... You're strong, apprentice. You wouldn't have been trapped with him forever."

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"But then she still... She still chose that path."

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"She did – as I eventually chose mine."

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Nod.

"...Is it also fucked up that... That I... That I'm relieved, knowing I would've been attracted to you anyway? Even if you weren't my teacher. Even if you didn't have power over me."

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Another soft forehead kiss. "You've had a lot of... Difficult relationships, haven't you?"

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"Is that what we're calling it, now?" Well, apparently she can't bring herself to say it either.

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"From the moment I started puberty, and for approximately the next century, the only way I could figure out how to process genuinely deep attraction was wanting to be someone's slave, wanting them to hurt me. I wanted to be her slave, too, and she made me feel... Okay and normal and like I wasn't a freak for having my sexuality screwed on backwards. My relationship with her... It wasn't harmful, not at first. The relationship itself honestly wasn't harmful – the manipulation and isolation were what harmed me."

"You aren't broken for liking older, stronger people. Any who've used that as an excuse to take advantage – they're the ones in the wrong."

"And... I don't think you're fucked up for being relieved your sexuality isn't just limited to that. And I'm not bothered that you're relieved." Softly: "I am, too, in... Both directions."

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"Guess we're just both fucked up," she mutters. 

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"Another way to look at it." Another forehead kiss?

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...What if she shifts her head for a kiss on the lips?

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She gets a soft, brief pressure – then Vader pulls away slightly. "Apprentice..."

"Would you feel better, if this waited until after you graduate?"

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...May...be?

How is she supposed to know the answer to that. 

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"I love you," she says, "But your relationship with Elesse is still new – as is your self-acceptance. And I'm still your teacher, before anything."

"I've waited eons already. I'm not bothered by waiting a few more years, while you enjoy your youth."

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