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Jan 27, 2022 7:29 PM
marian is sad and xue yang tries to help
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The freshman girl didn't make it. 

 

 

 

 

This isn't surprising, it was pretty obvious what direction things were headed in hours ago. Marian's seen enough people die. She knows what dying looks like. It...probably wasn't even a close thing; it was probably already too late by the time they brought Sophie in. 

If she had a full ICU worth of resources and backup... But she didn't, and doesn't, and Marian keeps trying over and over to remind herself that it's not her fault she can't replace all of that singlehandedly and with void-scrounged supplies and it's - not her fault, she keeps chewing on it and she still can't think of anything she could have done differently... 

It doesn't feel that way. It feels like she failed. 

 

 

Marian formally pronounces Sophie Hara dead at 8:29 pm according to her watch, about five minutes after the last sign of efforts to breathe. It's a ritual that lets her hold herself together, while she listens for two minutes and confirms the absence of any heartbeat. Sophie's skin is still warm to the touch, but her color is already the yellowish-grey of the recently dead, mauve around the lips and eyes.

Marian says - something, the words are gone from her head ten seconds later - to New York, and she kicks everyone out. 

...It doesn't feel like anything, at first. The tears will come, but not yet. 

She takes out the IV and nasogastric tube. She's very gentle with the tape, and apologizes under her breath, even though Sophie isn't there, anymore, to feel pain. She undresses her, and hacks off a corner of blanket to dampen with water poured from her jug and wash the body. 

She starts crying, then. Keeps going, for a minute or so, until she can't see anymore and her chest feels too tight to breathe, and then she hunches over the gurney and sobs, pointlessly, and she's crying for Sophie but not just her. She knows the survival statistics, for this school. 

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When he comes in to get more drugs, he discovers the doctor is crying. 

That's stupid. You can't cry. If you cry, people will think you're weak and then they'll beat you up and take your stuff. 

Maybe Xue Yang should beat her up and take her stuff.

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But he doesn't want to beat her up and take her stuff. She gave him drugs and that delicious drink and she didn't ask for anything in return. She's weak and pathetic and he should want to beat her up or at least take advantage of her but he... doesn't?

He feels sad that she's crying?

That's stupid. Maybe the patheticness is contagious. 

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Marian hears someone come in. She can't see who it is because she's too busy sobbing over a dead body. 

 

...A mostly-naked dead body, which is very aaaaaaah, Sophie wouldn't have wanted that at all! Marian hastily fumbles for the balled-up flannel hospital blanket - which is kind of gross, and so are Sophie's clothes, she doesn't have anything else to dress her in - but at least it covers her up for slightly more dignity. 

"I'm sorry," she says, thickly, "I - is it an emergency - s'not a good time, I'm - cleaning up in here..."

She actually hasn't even started the cleanup proper, and the room is a mess. Not as much of a mess as a normal ICU room after a patient death, she had way less stuff to work with and thus less packaging to toss on the floor, but it's still pretty obvious that some events took place in here. 

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The doctor said some words and is... covering up the dead body?

Maybe she murdered the girl and is trying to hide the body. 

Xue Yang has no way to convey that he's not a snitch but maybe he can put his blanket over Sophie's face. 

This is not a very good body-hiding strategy, doctor.

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That's helpful– oh no crap it's him!!! ...He probably didn't murder Sophie? Marian was not maximally tracking the criminal investigation side of things, she was kind of occupied this afternoon, but she's pretty sure she remembers the New York contingent discussing how their suspect had been interrogated and was apparently - well, not innocent, but at least hadn't murdered anyone at the school? 

 

...Why is he here, though, it's kind of suspicious, was he - maybe he didn't intend to kill her but he did hurt her? And he's now wanting to hide the evidence? Not that that makes a lot of sense, and also Marian really super cannot worry right now about whether Drugs And Crimes Kid is going to kill her because she's a witness. 

If he tries to sexually harass her today she's probably going to punch him in the face, so she really hopes he doesn't. 

"Do you need something?" she asks him, very slowly and loudly, in case he has a teensy bit of English. In case she doesn't she tries to add a questioning gesture and expression. 

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Okay well they really have to hide the body better than this. She has a void wall right over there, that's probably a good place to put the body in.

He picks it up and starts carrying it to the wall.

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What the heck, what is he doing

Marian steps in his way and makes a vigorous arms-crossing 'no' gesture. Points at the gurney again. "Please? I'm not - I'm not done." 

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Is she going to want to do something creepy to the body first?

He heard that doctors like cutting up bodies. That's why you shouldn't go to doctors, they'll kill you and sell your organs to rich white people. There are lots of rich white people here, so it makes sense that she would want to do this.

He returns the body to the gurney and awaits cool gruesomeness.

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Nope! She's cleaning it! Very gently, with care more appropriate to a living person than a dead one. She's still sniffling a bit and blinking away tears, but not sobbing outright anymore. 

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Xue Yang knows nothing about how cutting up bodies works. Cleaning could be involved.

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Marian isn't sure whether New York wants her to do, like, an autopsy? She should probably ask; she's pretty sure someone will come bother her at some point, though, so she's not going to bother going and searching. (Not to mention she super does not want to leave Sophie's body in here alone, and she definitely doesn't want to task Crimes Kid with watching it.) 

She covers Sophie up with the blanket, again, and then sighs and starts picking up trash from the floor. She...should probably actually salvage everything she can? Reusing IV tubing between patients isn't the most sanitary, but the void isn't reliable about giving her supplies. Maybe she can get someone to make her an autoclave...? 

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No... dissection???

Maybe she's keeping it for later. 

He looks around the ground optimistically for a bunch of pills.

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Marian eventually puts together why he's probably still hanging around. Maybe if she gives him drugs he'll go away? ...And then possibly get eaten by a mal, so she probably should get him to stay put if he's willing to? Maybe he'll at least leave her alone? 

She goes to her supply shelf and finds the little packet of maybe-ketamine (it could be the MDMA but the effects the other day seemed very MDMA-ish?) and offers it to him. 

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"Thank you!" he says and puts the ketamine away in his pocket.

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Marian has no idea what he just said, but she bobs her head and smiles at him. And then, cleanup mostly-sort-of done, she goes to sit with her back against the void wall. 

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He sits near her in case she is going to give free things to other people, which she should not do. Free things are only for Xue Yang.

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....Why is he still here? She's so confused. 

- maybe he's hoping she'll give him more stuff? She has most of a bottle of Pedialyte, from when she asked the void for more but it shortly became clear Sophie wasn't going to make it anyway. It's already opened, it won't stay good without refrigeration, which this school does not appear to have. Xue Yang can have it if he wants? 

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Wow! If he stays here he gets all kinds of good free stuff!

He drinks up the Pedialyte.

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If he's here, at least he's not doing crimes, so that's something? Marian isn't about to kick him out. If he's not going to leave, though, then he's stuck being witness to the rest of her crying session, because it's getting increasingly hard to put that off. 

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Yep he's going to stay here with his blanket and Guard the Infirmary.

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This kid is so weird and mystifying! 

It is, however, kind of nice just to have someone nearby? It's hard to be scared of Xue Yang when she's watched him get high and pet a blanket. (He still has the blanket and looks so pleased with it!) 

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He is pretty sure some words for "candy" are the same in English and Shanghainese. 

"Snickers?" he says hopefully.

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Marian has no idea what that presumably-Mandarin word means! She wipes her eyes on her sleeve, and then shakes her head and gives him an apologetic look. 

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Hey.

The doctor is sad. 

Xue Yang should... do... something? About the nice doctor being sad?

No one should make the nice doctor sad, because she gave him candy!

But she doesn't speak any normal languages, just weird white people languages.

He attempts to mime stabbing. 

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Huh? What does he want - oh fuck. No stabbing! Marian shakes her head vigorously. 

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