okay good, normally I can tell but you're on like a baby dose - wait are you an actual little kid

No, I'm an adult with reservations about mind-affecting drugs.

o . . . kay
uh, no tea no shade no pink lemonade but then why
are you here

I want to learn more about the world, and this is part of it.

I guess

Do you have an idea from here about how a lot of stars working together can do things like implement crystal healing? Or is that not obvious at this stage?

yeah no I'm just me right now
I guess I could ask somebody bigger
you could also ask somebody bigger
sorry
I'm normally more polite and put together and stuff, only I just died a few days ago
really throwing a wrench in my groove to be honest

Please don't worry about it. I plan to ask somebody bigger at some point but thought I'd talk to singlets for a baseline. I'm sorry for your loss.

it's fiiiiiiiiiiine
I just hate weird intermediate stages
anticipation is worse than participation and all that
I kinda want to just get a move on and join up with somebody already but I'm kind of hoping one of my exes will make a showing

Your exes in particular, really?

just one of 'em
he was a bastard but I'm kind of hoping he's the sort of bastard who'll be all like oh no you're dead and then I can be like well you should have appreciated me when I was alive, bitch
I would find that very satisfying
I know it's petty
but I am allowing myself some pettiness on account of how I just died and stuff
once in a lifetime chance
or like
zero times in a lifetime
you know what I mean

I do! Do you already feel some pull to join up with a cloud? I'm wondering what that's like.

it's not really a pull
more like
hm
if you're kinda thirsty and you have a glass of water in your hand
and if you were thirstier and not paying attention you might just take a sip automatically without really noticing
and right now it's not hard at all to not drink it
but I have been getting a little thirstier over time

Can you tell which cloud you'd go to, if you did?

oh uh
right now in this metaphor I don't have a cup because I'm just talking to you and you're not a star
it would be like
whoever I was talking to
and I guess by conventional wisdom different people would be different drinks?
and they'd seem more or less tempting depending on how like compatible we were
but I haven't noticed a difference yet
I mean obviously I can tell in all the ways you can when you're alive
but like
yeah
they don't really feel different in like a mystical sense
because I haven't been looking too closely

Makes sense. That's a really useful analogy, thanks.

sure
so uh why are you trying to learn more about the world as an adult or whatever
in this particular way

I'd never tried omnilol before, believe it or not, and I hit a point where it seemed like tripping was the best way to figure out more of how everything fits together, you know?

that's wack
seriously never?

Seriously never!

was that like your parents being kinda weird
or just you

As far as I know my parents have never had omnilol either!

whaaaaat
were they like in a cult or something
do you need resources for how to not be in a cult anymore
wait
I don't think I can actually get any of those for you from here
uh
hm

I'm fine; as you can see I can now just drive to a drugstore and get it whenever I want.

do you have a support system?
I think people who were in cults need a support system or whatever even if they're like, out