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<...I am not sure what context would be helpful. I suspect I do not fully understand Cayaldwin's feelings and motives here, since his actions do not make sense to me.> 

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<I can try to explain it to Mhalir, I guess. When Cayaldwin is very upset he chooses his actions mostly by which will do the most harm to the people who he blames, and he is tracking whether people are blameworthy and what he can do to hurt them instead of tracking other features of the situation.>

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The reason Cayaldwin's actions don't make sense to him is probably that that decision process is stupid, Leareth is thinking, but this seems unhelpful to say to Matirin. Also it makes him feel rather uneasy about his previous attempts to convince Cayaldwin that he was as blameworthy as Alloran, though Cayaldwin doesn't seem to have updated on that. 

<I would appreciate if you could try to explain to Mhalir> he says. <Maybe once he is more caught up on the rest of the context here. He has a great deal of reading material.> 

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<I can do that.> He paces, a little. Reads the transcript of their conversation so far.

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Mhalir reads reasonably fast, even in this awkward format, and transfers condensed summaries of the content to his notes, but it's still going to take him a couple of hours to get through all of it; it shouldn't take Matirin anywhere near that long to read the transcript. 

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Leareth paces as well, not speaking. 

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Eventually he goes back out to do the morning ritual with the herd and graze and review his schedule for the day and inconspicuously check on Cayaldwin (practicing magic). <Let me know when Mhalir is done.>

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Leareth has been staying close by, only pacing in tight circles, because every once in a while Mhalir has questions, and he does his best to answer them immediately.

<...He says he has read everything now> he confirms finally to Matirin. 

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Then Matirin will head over. 

[Did you have more questions?]

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[Is Cayaldwin still planning to murder Alloran?]

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[I am not sure. He does not immediately possess the means to do so and I was hoping you could talk him out of it.]

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[I do not understand why he wants to. He successfully brought me back. I told him I am not angry with Alloran and would prefer he not be murdered. We have the opportunity to work together on critical morph research and I assume that if he murders Alloran he will be tried for it by your legal system and, whatever punishment is chosen, he will not be available to do research anymore.]

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[The situation is mostly my fault. He was angry and upset to have you teleported out of his hands and murdered. I asked him to accompany Leareth to inform your people of your death because I thought it would be useful that he was angry and upset. They wanted Alloran extradited, which is not going to happen. Leareth said something Cayaldwin interpreted as meaning that it would improve the situation if Cayaldwin were committed to killing Alloran if the justice system didn't, so he committed to that. Now he is committed to that. I do not know that he particularly wants to but I think he certainly wants to be a person whose commitments are meaningful.]

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Mhalir thinks for a minute before answering. 

[I understand why it matters, to be a person who keeps their commitments.]

Pause.

[If I had known there were Andalites who cared so deeply about it, who I could cooperate with, I would have tried much harder for peace talks.]

Another pause. 

[Nonetheless I do not want him to do it. I want to research how to connect a morph tether so I can control a Yeerk construct-body and do math in his head again. I did not know that could ever happen but it is] another long hesitation [what I always wanted, what Yeerks and Andalites could be together. I want us to have that. I want us to discover a way for people to stop dying. I will be very angry with him if he makes that impossible by doing something stupid.]

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[I think it is worth trying to discuss it with him but it having bad outcomes will not especially dissuade him because sometimes it is useful to commit to things that if you have to do them will just make everything worse. When he is upset he mostly does not trust arguments about what he should do instead of hurting people who are responsible for the thing he is upset about. But he might listen to you because it was a promise to your people in the first place.]

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[Also I am not even dead! Surely he should be less upset given that the backup worked.] 

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[It is very good that the backup worked but I would guess that at this exact moment it is - making the loss more salient, rather than making him feel better about it.]

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That makes so little sense. Mhalir chews on it for a minute. 

[Is he actually upset about someone else who died and did not have a backup made]

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[He is also upset about our father being dead but he was - coping, when he had you.]

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[Oh]

 

 

 

 

[Your father is the one he thought could fix morph. He thinks he is less capable of doing it without him. Is that even true, in your opinion? It sounded as though we were making substantial progress]

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[You two were definitely going to do it. If you didn't get executed first, and I had secured some delays. You weren't even very far away. A couple of months at most.]

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[I see why he was especially upset about Alloran's timing. It will delay us considerably, this setup loses a great deal in efficiency compared to sharing a brain.]

[Still, I think we can still do it. And if we invest first in the morph tether research for me, we can regain some efficiency. I read Leareth's notes on the nothlit reversal, he can work very flexibly with the morph components because of his planar manipulation abilities]. It still feels very odd to call it magic. [And mine does not need to remain stable through hyperspace transport. I assume I am not going anywhere.]

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[I think it is very possible. And once you are in his head you will probably be able to find a way to talk him out of it if there is one.]

 

[I do not expect you to stop him. That would be - very bad for his trust in you.]

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[I will not try to stop him by force. That seems unlikely to work. I assume you are at least attempting precautions so that he cannot easily find Alloran let alone reach and kill him?]

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[Yes. They are on different planets and there is no known mapping through the twelve known planes that cuts the distance between them to one that a person can do themselves unassisted, and also as far as I know he can't do interplanar Gates at all, and also one on the Andalite homeworld would be noticed and responded to.]

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