Oh no actually he is - not going to start crying again, because people who are unconsciously holding their breath aren't crying.  Right?  Right.  ...He should say something, but to do that he would need to breathe, and now if he breathes it'll be in that obvious gaspy breath-hitchy way, and then Haru will know he's crying again, even though really he isn't quite -

"- Julien?"

Breath-hitch gasp.  "I'm - sorry -"

"It - I mean, uh - I'm fine, but -"

It's REALLY ANNOYING how the people here are jerking him back and forth about this and making him feel guilty and scared about it even though it's clearly what they want.  He has been TRYING TO COOPERATE and now they are MAKING HIM PRETEND to NAVIGATE CONSENT LOGISTICS which is NOT FAIR.  "...Oh.  Can I," sniffle, "do it again, then?  Maybe, uh, combined with the backlashing so maybe I'll, maybe feel better for longer than three seconds, this time?"

"Uh."

"................Or - you can hover?"  Sniff.

This is hard to think about when Haru's sleepy and it will only be harder to think about when he's backlashed but he did offer, before, to hover. "I can hover. When you're ready."

Something about that seems wrong but Julien can't place it.  Unsnuggle.  "When you are."

Haru's a half an inch away from the mattress now. "- what was the nightmare about?"

Snuuuuuggle.  "I was a vampire or a zombie or something, and my body was falling apart, and before that I was running, away from something, and not towards, and it was - there was a really big like, animal face, with crazy eyebrows..."

"Eyebrows, huh. Most animals don't even have those," Haru mumbles.

"It was some sort of dragon, I think.  It had four dinosaur legs, like, bronto style, and - also a hand.  I think.  ...Yeah.  It picked me up in it."

"Just one hand asymmetrically? - I can't safely fall asleep hovering so say when."

"Okay.  It was so big I couldn't see most of it."

"No," yawn, "dream knowledge of such things?"

"No..."

"What... color was it."

"Brown.  But the eyebrows were kind of orange."

"Did they like. Cartoonishly extend past its head."

"Yeah.  And the whole face was maybe kinda furry."

"Kinda... nose did it have. - I'm gonna land."

"Okay."

Haru settles onto the bed. "Kinda nose."

"...Kinda snouty, but like, rounded."