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boots after therapeutic ethics lands on leareth in angband
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Yeah. It's hard feeling like he's looking for something and I don't know what it is - he wanted to read my mind, it was one of the things he asked for earlier, one of the things Melkor had a hard time faking, and I want to let him have as much evidence on that front as he can use but also it feels like there are so many minefields, things I might think about that'll scare him or set him back - though he's doing really well -

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:A lot of things scare him but he doesn't stay scared for that long, usually - he's pretty matter-of-fact about it, sort of exasperated, I think it annoys him to be afraid of a lot of things that didn't even happen in reality in the first place: 

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That makes sense. 

 

I can do my work from here, is there anything I can bring you so you can do yours? We can leave, obviously, but - I got the sense it might help -

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:You hadn't interrupted me at anything very important. If I have some paper I can sketch out ideas for a newly-appearing-humans detection spell. Although I'll need to go to bed eventually, I don't know if he's going to sleep for a full 'night' now or just nap: 

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If you'd like I can arrange a room nearby?

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:I would like that: 

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So he arranges the room next door for Vanyel.

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That's very convenient. Vanyel sketches out magic notes for a few hours, and then yawns, excuses himself, and wanders off to bed. He puts some wards on his own room but much less thoroughly; he, unlike Leareth, can wake up and defend himself with powerful magic in the extremely unlikely event that orcs show up with no warning. 

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Leareth sleeps solidly for the next eight hours or so, the nightmare block is holding up well. As usual, though, he wakes up kind of disoriented - a lot more so than usual, actually, he doesn't recognize the room he's in. He holds very still, instinctively tries to reach out with Othersenses he doesn't have and then whimpers involuntarily, quietly enough that a human would probably miss it but audible to Quendi hearing. 

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He has retreated to the courtyard outside since it seems slightly less invasive but still close enough to - 

hey. You're back in Arda, in the palace. Vanyel made your room very safe.

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I remember. He's still scared. Can you...? He trails off because he doesn't know what. 

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Whatever you need. Should I come in?

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Please. He focuses for a moment on controlling his breathing, trying not to let himself get any more panicked than he already is.

Can you. Check if Bella is in range to do the calm thing. She might be in range for Leareth to try to think at her, but he's not sure, and trying to do that feels too hard anyway. 

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He heads into the room. Checks for Bella, tries to imitate the knocking-thing that Mindspeakers do.

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Hello. Mixing osanwë and Mindspeech protocols is a little confusing, I was expecting Quendi to do the former and humans to do the latter. What is it?

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Leareth was wondering if you can calm him from here.

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Not from where I am right now but I can come over.

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I think he'd appreciate it. Thank you.

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She turns up and knocks.

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"You can come in." 

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She steps in and calms him. "Do you have an idea how long you need me for?"

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Leareth shakes his head, helplessly. Speaking is nearly impossible again. I am not sure what is bad, he thinks at her. Just - scared... 

Less so now, the calm helps, but it doesn't get rid of the strange not-quite-dizziness, the feeling that he somehow can't orient to the reality around him - he knows it's real but it doesn't feel real, or something, none of those are really the right words but he sort of holds up the whole vague nebulous heap of it. You can read my mind. If you want.  

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She does. You might be dissociating, but I never saw a live example in school so I'm not positive, nor do I know for sure what to do about it.

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I dislike it! 

Maybe getting up and moving around will help, but also that requires getting up. Leareth makes it as far as sitting up, tries hard to focus on that, specific concrete movements – and then, to his own surprise, starts crying. 

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It may go away on its own but I don't know how long to expect that to take. Do you want me to ask Nayoki or Melody if they know what to do?

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