There's a total lunar eclipse two weeks later, the first one since January 2001. That semiquarter and most of the next pass without much more noise. Jackson is occasionally sad because of his dom's electric toy, and he's occasionally more stripey than he wishes to be, but there's not a whole lot Sadde can do about that. Against his hopes, Mason doesn't dump Jackson, and nothing gives.
Sadde continues socializing with people, but no one new. And as the semiquarter approaches its end and summer break gets closer, Sadde receives an email from Tobias, saying that he fully expects his daughter to come home and tell everyone all about her first half year at magic school.
The email tells Sadde to behave.
Sadde is not in a good place.
But not getting carried away because he wanted to talk about things.
"And if I knew there'd be much less point in telling me. What - happened?"
"I... arrived home. And he greeted me, and he's... Tobias is really nice, if you fit his model of reality, I think I told you this. He's... kinda similar to me? In some ways."
"Yeah. Y'know, the... like... I don't wanna sound cocky here but I'm very charming," he grins. "And there's some of that in him. For instance. It feels... wrong, somehow, complimenting him, but... He really does make you like him."
"I suppose I don't actually know how I would've reacted to him if I hadn't been biased and he hadn't pretended to think I was a sub..."
"Yeah. He was... nice to me, for the first time in my life. He let me interact with my half-siblings—well, Sarah, Jonathan has unfortunately inherited his tendency to think subs aren't quite human. Sarah's nice, she wants to be a doctor when she grows up and she has a crush on this dom at her school named, funnily enough, Dominic. I tried to give her some tips on flirting, I hope they help."
"That was at the start. But it... wore on. Tobias made the occasional remark about girl doms and boy subs, hiding them in ways you don't really notice until you think about it for a second. And I couldn't say anything, I kept remembering what you said, I had to come back to you."
"Stuff like, like he'd be talking about a famous person and then say something bad about them and subtly imply it was because of their misaligned role, I don't even know anymore, I stopped paying attention by the end, it was just noise. But I can deal with that, that's pretty normal, it's just, every time he did I felt like I was betraying myself a little, for not speaking up."
"But then there was the thing I said, about how he kinda makes you like him, he's so agreeable when he's not—that. So there's that thing I said, how I—liked it. When he praised me. And I focused more and more on the thing I promised you I'd do, because without that, and without my resistance, he'd—subsume me."
She's actually cradling him in her arms, now, her lap is not doing much of the work.
"I didn't leave the house, didn't talk much, for all he said he wanted me to tell him all about magic school he didn't actually ask much, but he petted me and I acted submissive and that's how you found me today."
"Two weeks without a personality will do that to—well, to me, at least. I wonder how Sarah does it. Beth seemed to actually lack a personality, but Sarah was mostly okay."
"Yeah, but maybe it's a kind that, I dunno, reacts badly to not—existing. Or something."
"Yeah. All yours. Not his, no matter what this stupid part in my brain says."