"I had children. Luke and Leia. That's - my connection to them never should have come out, but now that it has... I sent them away when they were born, and twisted my mind until I convinced myself they were stillborn. I'd already fallen to use the dark side of the Force, then, but... I hadn't fallen all the way, until shortly after that."
"The dark side is useful, it's fundamentally change and something had to give in me or the galaxy, and it's also a monster than eats its children. I - stopped feeling anything more than numb rage, for a very, very long time."
"And then I saw the woman my daughter had become. That... Wasn't enough, to break me out of my shell."
"And then my son set himself against the Emperor, and refused all gifts I offered him, and... I betrayed the Emperor, to protect my son, and was mortally wounded in the process."
"Luke refused to leave me as I died, even though it was risky to him."
"It was impossible, to continue my numbness. I loved my children. I died for that love. I - realized the path I had set myself on only accomplished destroying everything and everyone I ever cared for. I wanted to do better."
"Luke could see me, for a while after my death. He helped me start healing. But... Eventually I faded from his eyes. I spent the next while wandering the galaxy - mostly old battle sites - and feeling sorry for myself. Stumbled on Rey. She could see me, so... I decided to take her as my student. Help her. And maybe not screw up this time."
"Now - I mostly want to keep the galaxy from punching my loved ones in the face."