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I predict this will be a self-indulgent shippy meditation on power and responsibility but it's honestly hard to predict these threads
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"Yeah, that seems like a pretty good reason.  I think you should go for it."

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"Gosh."

She kind of instinctively looks at Cecelia for the sake of completeness.

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"Someone who rules a realm should be married, and nineteen is a perfectly reasonable age to do it. You already trust him more than anyone else. Go marry him."

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"Huh. Well. Thanks everybody!"

She flies off towards her house.

She kind of figures that anything that Korva and Hagan and Cecelia all agree on is probably a pretty good idea, but just in case she thinks at Alex anyway.

Hey Alex? I have, uh, a question. If you're not busy talking right this second. Or it can wait until you're not.

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What's up?

 

He's absolutely talking right now but Elves can carry a couple conversations at once.

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I really wanna marry Connor, and normally I would say this is dumb and I'm too young and stuff, but also we have been running a household for at least two years, and now I'm trying to be a goddess, and it's not super clear to me what I'd be waiting for other than looking less stupid to everybody else. And I talked to Korva and Hagan and Cecelia and they all thought we should go for it. And I know you're an elf and like thousands of years old and you probably think we're both basically infants, but - I guess I also think you have a reasonable sense of the broader situation and I wanted to ask you, too. And I would ask Asmodia except I already know what Asmodia's going to say.

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Does this have to do with Rana leaving?

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No. - maybe indirectly. It's been bugging me for the last couple weeks and I was mad today about being incompetent and making mistakes and feeling like whenever I make mistakes it means I'm a dumbass who doesn't know what I'm doing and can't make big decisions, like getting married, so I'd have to wait a long time still, and then Connor said that wasn't true and came up with a plan to tell my parents without them irreparably freaking out about it, and then I thought that we should probably do the plan while Rana's sped up because the plan requires time to be passing in my world anyway. Also because I don't actually want to wait years and years.

It's not about wanting to make sure he won't leave. He's not gonna leave either way.

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Okay. My dad got married when he was barely a grownup and I don't think he ever regretted it.

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That makes sense. I don't think I'm going to regret marrying Connor.

I might regret doing it under circumstances where if I have an actual wedding everybody might think I'm a dumbass, but 'I don't know how wedding logistics are going to work' seems like a weird and dumb reason to hold off for years.

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Elves do weddings privately and have a celebration beforehand where people wish you luck and so on. I don't actually know much of anything about human wedding customs except that Catholics do it in churches.

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Obviously it varies by culture and stuff. Where I come from you invite everyone from both of your families and there's a ceremony where the bride wears a fancy white dress and the person officiating asks you to make promises - I should probably rework the wording even though Connor won't actually explode or anything if he breaks a promise as long as he's still entangled with me, for the sake of not being pointlessly careless - and sometimes you have a little girl throw flowers and sometimes you have a little boy bring the rings up, and you exchange matching rings. And I guess at some weddings people give speeches or whatever but I think that's probably optional. And then you have a reception where you give everybody cake.

Maybe I'll have a really small one and not invite anybody awkward. I feel kind of guilty about not inviting my parents but I'd have to explain so many things to them that I super don't want to explain at all.

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That makes sense.

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Anyway. I just - I didn't a hundred percent mean to make my demiplane a hub of interdimensional rescue operations, and I'm fine with focusing on really important stuff and trying to fix everybody's previously nigh unfixable problems, but I kind of don't want to do things that make everyone think I'm an idiot if they're all going to be counting on me to help them. And I don't really know how much this is something I should or shouldn't be concerned about. Maybe it's a dumb thing to be concerned about at all. Or maybe it matters and I should be thinking about it a lot more than I am.

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I think most people can't both do important things and look important at the same time.

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Huh.

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I guess if I were gonna try to anyway I'd go for a really fancy outfit and flying instead of walking. But I dunno that it's really an important thing to aim for.

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Okay. Thank you. That helps.

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"Of course."

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She flies up to her room to hug Connor.

"Well. I asked several people and all of them thought that it would not be ridiculously stupid to get married soon."

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" - cool."

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"Sorry. It's like - it would probably be better if I could not care about what other people thought but I feel like if you start styling yourself a queen you maybe stop getting to do that."

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"I don't see what the point is of power that makes you have to care more what people think of you."

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"Hmm. I think it's like - we told these people we would help them? And then if we go around acting like we're irresponsible, it'll make a lot of people scared and worried, and I don't really want that. But it sounded like people mostly didn't think marrying you was the sort of thing that would worry people."

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"It might make them jealous. Since you married me first and you'll always have married me first no matter how many people you marry."

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