I can ask Matt to look up the hospitals with the big wings for babies with heart problems or whatever.

Okay. I'd appreciate it. It's a good suggestion.

She continues blasting zombies.

Feel kinda dumb about - I think when I make mistakes I figure it means I'm not a real adult yet and it'll have to be a long time before I'm responsible enough to get married. Which I'm aware is a really shallow thing to be thinking about right now. But I keep thinking it anyway.

I don't think it's dumb. You don't feel like I'm really entirely yours until we can get married and I'm happy that's important to you.

Yeah, I guess so. Just - I'm not, like, a person who's suffering unfair amounts for my mistakes.

I guess not. 

Misfortune is stupid and I hate it.

It's pretty dumb. Never really - felt scared, it's not that hard to follow the rules.

Maybe if you're a fairy.

You don't mess up at it.

I guess not. Neither does Cecelia.

Yeah. 

It's all really very unfair to them.

Anyway I keep, like, wishing I had parents I could talk to and go to for reasonable advice, and I don't, so I won't, but I guess part of me feels like if you still want to all the time then you're not really a grownup. Maybe this is dumb given the metaphorical - and literal, I guess - challenge rating of the problems I'm facing, though.

I don't think it's unreasonable to wish you had parents even when you're a grownup. Fairies don't move out when they're grownups and they're still grownups.

I guess so. Do fairies figure you're a grownup, though?

Yeah. Not, like, old enough you'd let me talk to people outside my court but old enough to pay my debts and make plans.

I think humans mostly don't think you're old enough to get married until you're old enough to have kids. Even though people don't have to have kids right away anymore.

Aren't people old enough to have kids once they're, like, twelve, or fourteen or something.

- okay, old enough to responsibly take care of and provide for kids. Which we technically are but mostly because we have the ability to create arbitrary material objects.

I kind of think it'd be a bad idea to have kids right now but of course if you want to we can.

I did say that we wouldn't have any until we had space but I was kind of figuring that would take longer.

I don't think we should have kids right now. Too many other things to work on, for one thing. But - I don't wanna wait until I've fixed the multiverse to marry you.

That does seem like a very long time to wait!

If like two more years pass at home I will not feel very ridiculous about it. I just also kind of don't want to wait two more years, I guess. Especially since - I dunno, it just seems kind of bad to have to try to fix the multiverse and do more-than-adult-level stuff without the supports that adults are supposed to be allowed to have. While also not having normal teenager supports. Or something.

If you go by all the hospitals in the country you'll probably get noticed and then you can tell your parents you're dropping out of school and getting married and stuff and they'll at least understand sort of that it's a good idea for you to be zooming around fixing babies with heart defects.

I guess if this is a documented large-scale effect it'll be kind of hard for them to posit that I have been possessed. Maybe I can try coming off as a superhero instead of a spell caster. I think I'm kind of hesitant to go public in our world because I'm worried about there being lots of politics stuff? But maybe if we put the world on fairy time after we get married and then I don't have to deal with any of that until I've dealt with some other more important stuff.

That makes sense to me. And if you just show the healing they can't - make it very complicated, right.