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I predict this will be a self-indulgent shippy meditation on power and responsibility but it's honestly hard to predict these threads
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" - how would that help."

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" - well I don't want to kick Cecelia out, she's been through enough, but it's reasonable of you not to want me living here with her?"

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She looks really confused and then shakes her head and hugs him.

"I don't know what you're talking about. For the sake of avoiding more miscommunication problems I am going to try being annoyingly explicit about my feelings even though this is kind of ridiculous and embarrassing. 

"I don't - know how much to conclude about people from what their alts do. But I'm kind of a disappointing person, and it seems likely that we're going to end up in more bizarre life-threatening situations at some point, and - I don't want you to leave."

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"I won't leave. If you wanna die with me you've more than earned that."

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"Okay." 

(She's not gonna stop hugging him, though.)

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"What do you mean a disappointing person -"

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"Just - I dunno, a person lots of people are likely to be disappointed by. I might not be very fun to spend forever with."

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"I'm not - expecting -" He runs out of words and kicks at the ground and leans against her. "You're very good, and you're very important to me, and I don't think one ought to take a wife thinking she'll always be nice and happy and fun and never inconvenient, that's not how people work and the only way to have the experience of someone being like that is if you're really not all that close and they can make sure to only show you nice bits. And I don't want - the kind of marriage where I call on you and have a nice time and then leave for you to be disappointing where I can't see it, I really really don't want that, not that I think anything about you is disappointing but -"

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Hug " - that helps. The framing. I think. And I'm sorry for being so - pessimistic, about stuff, just - "

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"I'm asking you for - everything. For your whole life. Course you're gonna be nervous."

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"I guess that's fair.

"Kind of worried that all of this - seeing how alternate versions of ourselves are is bad for people's natural progressions as people, or whatever."

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"How's that?"

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"Just - I dunno. Maybe Rana and Cecelia would have made a mess of everything by themselves. Maybe they would have been fine. And - I don't want to blame Elizabeth too much for meddling, if she's going to kill Asmodeus, but I also sometimes worry that - maybe all of this stuff is gonna get in people's way and make things more of a mess than they would have been. I dunno. I don't have specific mechanisms I'm worried about, really, just - general sense of unease."

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Nod. 

"Well I wasn't gonna ever say anything. Since I couldn't've - kept the kids well away -"

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"Yeah. I guess it's probably better this way, then. We'll just have to - weather all of the weirdness by being very mature adults, or something."

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"Yeah. Or, I dunno, maybe it teaches something useful."

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"Maybe. Maybe someday we'll be very confident in our ability to work through problems on account of having had so many."

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"I more meant - the mistakes that the fairy made feel like - I can see how I would've made them. And then I can just not."

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Nodnod. Hug.

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"I'm not - I didn't nearly throw a tantrum and leave you, to be clear."

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"Kind of assumed we were talking about hypothetical future events, here. I guess."

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"Yeah."

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"I'm sorry for being - I don't wanna add extra stress right now."

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"I have been on lots of more stressful adventures and came out of none of them with a wife."

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Hug. "Okay. Lemme know if you need anything."

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