A second ago she was at work in the temple of Erastil in Sothis, which was actually going pretty okay, all things considered. Now she's in a grassy field with a couple fruit trees and a table and chairs and some notebooks and pens.
This is unexpected and requires a ton of power and is therefore sort of inherently terrifying. And she's alone, and defenseless, and she doesn't know where Verita is.
She mills around in steadily increasing amounts of distress until Hagan appears, just as suddenly.
"If I wanted us to be hanging out at my court some more then we'd be hanging out at my court some more."
- she has to think about how to respond to that, because she is not actually entirely sure that under all circumstances she would definitely have stayed with him in a place that was going to effectively require him to risk blinding her.
"I - suppose it seemed possible to want something that made someone else feel safe, and still be resentful of their desires making your available options worse."
Nod.
"I'm sorry for bringing up unpleasant topics. I just - I suppose I hate the thought of hurting you. And I don't want to ignore it, if I have, and don't want to go on needlessly thinking I have, if I haven't."
"I never mind you bringing things up. I just - I'm not going to make a decision and then be quietly mad at you about it. That'd be unfair."
"Honestly I'm expecting this place to be destroyed too. So it's probably good enough."
He spends the afternoon talking with Fazil and Mahdi about topics other than Korva.
She mostly spends the afternoon stabbing her notebook, sometimes with words. She watches other people, too - Starferer, Valentine, Hagan, Cecelia's sister. (Cecelia's sister is talking to Asmodia. They seem to be talking about a lot of things. Sometimes they look tense, and sometimes they look happy. She's glad her sister is making friends with people besides her.)
She feels really weird about trying to have a conversation with Hagan while his friends are there, so she sort of keeps hoping for him or them to go do something else. Or for him to come over and talk to her, that would also work.
She keeps stabbing at her notebook long enough to not look like she has obviously been waiting for Fazil and Mahdi to leave, even though she absolutely has been. And then eventually she heads over to Hagan.
"Hey."
- okay maybe he isn't mad at her? She's so tired of trying to keep track.
"Um - this is maybe kind of stupid, so, excuse the stupidity if it is, but - I was, uh, worried that I might be doing something to upset you. Because it seems like it keeps happening, and I am kind of unclear on why, and - if you don't want to talk about it that's also fine, just, if there was a specific thing then maybe if I knew what it was I could stop doing it."
" - oh. Uh, that was what I was talking with Matt about earlier, that I kept offending you and didn't know how to stop and he said I should just - be clearer we were friends - you haven't done anything to upset me, I just get upset easily when I feel like I did something wrong and don't know what. Because we're friends. And I don't like upsetting my friends."
" - oh. Well. Same, I guess. Except I don't know if the friends thing generalizes because I haven't had any others since I was a kid. So I might be bad at it, see."
"Normal people proooobably have fewer fights in the process of making friends, but - thanks."
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