<...Yeah. That gets a bit... Complicated.>
<This isn't the first life I've lived, and it wasn't by my decision that I came to have a second, though I had more influence than most might on the specifics of where and how, despite some... Imposed constraints.> The crown weighs heavily upon her. <...The works of Tolkien were from that first life, not the second - and there was (Or, so I thought to the best of our ability to determine, small coincidences aside -) no magic there, no true foretellings. But across a wide enough multiverse, everything is true. And clearly, I am here, now, so something either gave me some very detailed ~false memories, when it plucked my soul out of the timestream or whatever it did, or there was a bit more than I was aware of, or this is - some even grander coincidence, reified from an idle musing. Perhaps all of those are equally true.>
<As for the life I hoped to live...>
<I like solving puzzles, I suppose. Magical research is a lot like that. I like helping people, which... You know, the Ring tried to tempt me with that? But it wasn't capable of comprehending how much I know I am not fit to be a god, and that was its plans' undoing. Not that I'm stupid enough to ever touch the thing, I know what it does, but it could have tried to be a lot cleverer than it was - attempted to tempt me with knowledge, more than power, perhaps. ...I'm still not sure if it's a mind-reader, though, because there were things it offered that it could not otherwise have conceived - but the question is whether, then, it spun something that would let my mind fill in the blanks....>
<But to return to your actual question - for reasons that are long and complicated and I don't want to get into them, a quiet life doing research - has never been a second life I could afford to expect. There are some very scary things, in that general vicinity, and while I broke the wheel of Fate in my choosing, one was still rather entangled with my starting point.>