The fancy restaurant date was sort of downstream of other stuff

Though it was being used metonymously a lot

About the issues I have with wanting things and asking for them

I assume if you had homework to tell me about any of this you'd go into more detail and I should mind my own business?

She actually suggested I tell you about my feelings too

If I thought it would help

It's just that they're a bit embarrassing to summarise and the less embarrassing less summarised version is thirty pages long

But if you're in the mood for reading through your boyfriend's unedited stream of consciousness I can send you it

You just have to promise you won't hold it against me, especially the parts where the evil Haru that lives inside my head tries to pretend to speak for you

as long as he is also less witty and maybe has a goatee. to go with being evil

He is nondescript so you may headcanon him that way

Heeeeee'll scan through his notes quickly. "Restaurant" does find most of it, and "teenage" "date" "fantasy" manage to catch the rest. Alright send go.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa he's fine

A delay ensues.

Well they are lots of pages! 

...but he's, like. Actually fine? Probably in large part because he thinks he comes off as cool and smart and self-improving. Also in part because laying his soul bare for Haru to see actually feels really nice? He's glad he's at least not a hypocrite re. mental privacy.

Anyway it's alright, he'll occupy himself with catching up on some of the studying statistics he kind of let fall by the wayside.

is it kosher to come hug you about it or are you still using the text format as a buffer

I would greatly welcome hugs

Honestly the texting wasn't even really necessary

That last bout of notebooking prior to messaging you made me kind of not need it anymore

Haru pops into the room and deposits himself in Jaeha's lap. "The me with a goatee is a jerk and you shouldn't rewrite your brain for him at all. Only me, I'm very responsible with this power."

Eeeeee he has a lap Haru~

"Yes he is. He keeps popping up. It's—honestly part of why it was so reassuring, that time you let me feel your feelings. He doesn't feel like that."

"He has an entire emotional sensorium? What's in it?"

"—no, that was sloppy phrasing. I mean that he—doesn't like me the way you do. On account of being mean. And ready to leave me at the drop of a hat. And super judgmental of everything I do."

"Well why would you even want him to stick around?"

"I don't! I want him gone! He just keeps coming back. I keep—remembering that you like me, and then he goes away, and then I spend long enough not thinking about that or not having—sufficiently available evidence or thoughts or context—and then he's back."

"If you wanna make a regular thing of Direct Psychic Evidence I Like you then - well, maybe not too regular, I might need to have it be totally unremarkable if I wiggle the scheduling around capriciously so as to have room to hide in if ever I am feeling hidey, but a frequent thing, I'm up for that."

"If it wouldn't—" No. Bad Jaeha. Ask for things. "I would like that, yes."

"Now is good if you want."

Eeeeeeeeeee "Yeah."

Haru is happy and proud and smug and cozy about his Jaeha.

Eheheheheheheheh Jaeha has the best Haru, take no substitutes.

"...you know, I had kind of assumed that you wouldn't want it due to, well, all of the you, but being able to feel what you're feeling while having sex, especially when you climax, is really nice. And—I never really did that with any of my other partners, but it would definitely be straightforward to reciprocate."

"Oh that sounds really fun actually, I don't feel nearly as private about my senses - I mean, if you weren't literally the person I was having sex with, then spying on me having sex would be a problem, but you are, so."

"We should do that then."