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Taliar in Evil Arda
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If you want to have me again today I'd like it to be on trust songs, he says when he's mostly calm again, I don't think I could get through it and still feel safe afterward otherwise.

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I adore the way you phrase things for me. No refusals, no defiance, just needs and wants and trust - I'm inclined to wait until you're in the mood again, assuming that'll be a matter of days and not weeks.

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Taliar smiles and cuddles him. Okay. Love you. Probably closer to days; if it takes longer than that I'm sure we'll figure it out when we get there.

He's very happy that Maitimo likes the way he phrases things. It just seems like the most obvious way to think about it, to him. He has given away his ability to refuse, but he and Maitimo still love each other and he still trusts Maitimo and Maitimo still wants him to feel safe, so it doesn't make sense to say 'no' but it does make sense to say 'here's how to make this easier on me'.

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And Maitimo sends him the hour that he missed, a happy fascinated hour, Taliar so pliable in his hands when overwhelmed like that...

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Oh, wow, he says dazedly, wow - the way you think about me - I love you so much - sometime we should play with my healing aura some more, I had no idea it would be so much fun...

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Me neither! It was delightful! 

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Taliar giggles. Love you. Love you, love you, love you. Writing your name on me with a knife has got to be one of the cutest things you've ever done.

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Finding it endearing has got to be one of the cutest things you've ever done.

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It's just so you!

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Wonder if you can mediate what the healing aura does so you keep nice pretty scars but heal just as quickly.

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I bet I could. Let's experiment sometime. In a few days, maybe.

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Sounds good.

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If you wanted me to keep them indefinitely you might have to keep putting them back, though, my healing aura might get rid of them if I used it while I wasn't paying attention to that in particular. On the other hand, the fact that it can get rid of them means you get to draw scars all over me as many times as you want and not worry about running out of room...

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That does sound appealing. Squeeze.

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He feels a little flutter of residual fear but he hugs Maitimo anyway. Love you.

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Love you. So proud of you, so impressed with you...

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It makes me really happy that you're proud of me and impressed with me! I'm very impressive!

A playing-with-fire impulse in the back of his head says that it wasn't really that impressive and he could handle much worse and they should do this again sometime. He tells the impulse to shut up and go away and maybe come back in a few months if it's serious.

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You're adorable.

 

And he gets them dinner and then cuddles him while he falls asleep.

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Mmmm so cozy.

 

In the morning, the background levels of fear are mostly gone. He still flinches sometimes when Maitimo touches him, but it doesn't bother him much; he can just let it happen and then continue hugging Maitimo and having his hair petted or whatever else they are doing at the moment. It's easy to feel safe.

He is not in the mood at any point during that day, but on the subsequent evening, he sits in Maitimo's lap after dinner and kisses him and says, only a little nervously, I think I could, I think I'm okay enough.

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Kisses. You're so resilient. 

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Yes. Yes I am. And I am going to love you forever.

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I believe you. Kisses. Picking up his Taliar and whisking him off to bed.

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His Taliar loves him so very much.

The flinching is definitely still a thing, and it gets more frequent as matters progress, but Taliar just takes a second to calm himself down and then goes right back to what he was doing, every time. And it's fine, he's fine, he has a lovely time and he feels safe and happy.

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Love you, he murmurs happily.

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Love you too. I feel so vindicated in all of my Maitimo-related decisions right now. I'm glad I stayed with you, I'm glad I agreed to non-strategic mind control experiments, I'm glad I gave you a day to hurt me in...

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