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Salmons and Carmines in Azurite
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"It doesn't sound like a now-problem, though, there's nothing you can do about it."

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He nods. "Which is why I wasn't saying anything about it."

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"Yeah but you were fretting about it."

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"Uh-huh…? And I'm not going to stop just because I can't do anything about it right now – being able to do something about it right now would mean I do things about it, instead of just fretting."

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"Why would you fret if it doesn't help?"

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"… I'm not intentionally fretting, I just have nothing else major to focus on to try to distract me, and even if I did I would still be fretting."

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"Sounds unpleasant."

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"Yyyeah…?"

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"I mean, I won't say that I don't fret at all ever, but I usually try not to, when there's nothing I can do. ...when there is though I fret a lot."

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He shrugs, frowning a bit. "I don't know that there's all that much I can do not to fret?"

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"Well, I kinda just... argue myself into not."

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"I could argue myself into focusing on something else more than the fretting, at least when I was human, and then possibly forget about it while I'm doing stuff, but not actually argue it gone."

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"And I try to focus on things I can actually change and if I can't they can stay out of my attention until they reach a point I can change them."

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"That's more or less what I do," he agrees with Matt. "I tell myself that if there is something I can do about it then I'll worry—at most I make, like, contingency plans for each possible outcome, if that's relevant—but then I'm done. It does have the disadvantage that when there is even a little bit I can do about it I start worrying about all the details, but."

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"If there's a little bit I can do, and I in fact want to do that, then I will do that thing." Shrug. "Otherwise, yeah, I just don't."

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Theo looks at them both, a little bit confused. "It's, you know, still not a thing that I consciously choose."

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"Well... have you tried?"

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"Tried consciously choosing not to fret? I have tried consciously not focusing on it, but it's not really a thing I can just switch off, like I can't just switch off being angry, but I could try not focusing on it until it went away? Hopefully?"

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"I mean, tried consciously arguing yourself out of fretting, yeah."

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"Consciously arguing that it's not useful and expecting that to stop it…? Or consciously arguing that I shouldn't be doing it for– I don't know, some other reason, and expecting that to do it…?"

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"Former."

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He pauses for a moment. "I am inclined to say that it would not work because it feels like emotions and I don't think I can do it for them, but I am not certain as to whether this is in fact the case."

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"So, you have not in fact tried."

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"At least not while being a vampire, no, and I'm not sure about when I was human."

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"Well then try it!"

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