Edie was perusing the latest correspondence from her fork. She still should have been paying enough attention to realize that the door didn't go where it ought before it swung shut and she couldn't sense anyone else anymore, but she wasn't.
After opening and closing the door a couple times to make sure she hadn't just been abducted somehow, she looks around.
"Same as before works fine. Are you sure the hair's not distracting you? It distracts me, I look in the mirror and think 'what an ugly human'."
"I'm a dreamshaper. And I got my life back in dreams. If I wanted to I could live in a replica Formenos and have subconsciously puppeted replicas of everyone walking around. This is a slippery enough slope I have on more than one occasion fought off the temptation to do something that would be a first step on that path. And this would be one of those."
"...I can pull a personality off television? Or be a Tyelcormo, do you have any other sisters around I can constantly be distracted by -"
She snorts. "No. Just no.
You don't need to worry about who you are or are not being, I just--need to not forget."
"Then perhaps I won't ask a demon to fix my long-suffering hair. If it helps."
"You aren't okay and I want you to be okay and you're not going to be okay and your hair isn't going to help."
"Ah, I thought we were brainstorming solutions to the problem 'you don't want to act like everything's okay', not the problem 'I murdered hundreds of thousands of people'. Latter's trckier."
"There are eleven of dad upstairs, if there's a solution I think we can bet it'll be found, and not over brunch - Bar, can we have brunch -"
She sighs.
"On an actionable level I think the problem is 'I don't want to act like everything's okay.' It's just that you doing whatever you li--you doing whatever with your hair isn't going to meaningfully affect that."
"You could ask around but most people act like everything's okay and it works out strictly better than acting like everything's horrible."
"Everything isn't horrible. Lots of things are great, especially compared to before Milliways happened to us. I just.
If it comes down to it--if we find a way to make you stop existing--I'll help. If you need it. I love you and that means caring about what you want and if you literally don't want anything else then obviously it's the right thing to do--but--I'm...not looking forward to it."
"I'm not expecting to find a way, and definitely not a way that requires help. But thank you."
"We have forever. I'm sure something will come up eventually."
"If it's possible to kill a Vala, it's probably possible to destroy an Elf."
"I was under the impression they hadn't yet figured out how to kill a Vala?"
"So meanwhile--I'm not going to try to be around you all the time, that would be a bad idea for me, but--if there's only a finite amount of time to create new memories of you in--I had better use it."
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