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"So - this was close to pointless apart from getting our stories straight, then - speaking of which, what is the explanation for why Lord Vorkosigan is here if someone asks?"

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"Lord Vorkosigan inquired after genetic solutions to his troubles, which I of course proved unable to supply—" Her comconsole chimes. She glances at it. "—And then, apparently, I asked the two of you to wait outside my office while I took a call relating to Star Creche business." She makes a slight shooing motion.

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Linyabel shoos. If she does have a balance disorder, it is not apparent when she's just gliding across the floor.

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Miles follows her, with his characteristic uneven stride, a product of one leg being slightly longer than the other.

He is not at all sure what to say. Talk to her, talk to her! —but about what?
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"If the consequences of pointing out the wrong one weren't so potentially disastrous this would be much easier," sighs Linyabel.

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"Yes," says Miles. "If only. It is worthwhile to have Slyke ruled out, though. Just two to go..." Oh, the hell with it. "Milady, may I ask why you don't want to be married off to a ghem-lord? I'm—sorry if the question is too personal. I find all this haut-business even more bewildering than I'd anticipated."

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"I don't mind the question. Though I am a little skeptical that you are interested to hear me complain."

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"Fascinated, milady," he promises quite sincerely.

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"Well. There's two things - there's the reason why most of us don't want it, which has principally to do with loss of face and losing touch with friends and the general acknowledgement by the other haut that this one was a failure and is being demoted. And there's the reason why I don't want it, which is that from the perspective of my extremely unusual goals it would, impressively enough, be a step down. I want to do constructive work. I do not want to play status games and write poetry - though I have nothing against poetry, I do have something against status games - and while I live here and have the privilege of my bubble, my only problems are having a low supply of friends and serious obstacles sharing any of my ideas with people who would use them in broader contexts than miniscule art contests. I don't suffer from lack of materials or education or spare time.

"Assuming I don't find some way to evade the fate before I'm perhaps thirty - maybe younger, I am unusually blatantly an unsuccessful haut-project - then I will abruptly find myself short on all of those things and likely accompanied by co-wives with every reason to despise me. A haut-wife's principal tasks are to design children with dramatically fewer resources than she might have hoped to have for the task - because she can only work with her personal genome and her husband's - and to be ornamental. And these tasks are somewhat harder to dodge than any given use of my time on offer in the Celestial Garden, so even if I selected avenues of work that didn't require materials I didn't have, I'd have less time to do it in. To say nothing of the fact that I have not met any ghem-lords who seemed like pleasing company in their own rights."
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"...I find I understand your position more than I expected to," he says after a moment, thoughtfully.

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"Why, what were you imagining I'd say?"

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"I really didn't have any idea," he says. "But I'm reminded of a story from my childhood - up until age five, I had to spend all my time in a full-body brace, to make sure my bones grew as straight as possible and didn't break too often while they were still just developing. I have it on good authority from my mother - my own memories are somewhat vaguer - that as soon as I got out of the thing, I learned to run almost immediately and didn't slow down for months." He thinks of Ivan, and adds, "Some people might say I still haven't. So your complaints about haut society have... emotional resonance."

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"I think I was about five when I noticed I wasn't supposed to do the things that most interested me," muses Linyabel. "I don't even think I was the only one - but I declined to be sneaky about it and pretend to grow out of it. Sometimes I wonder if that was a good idea. I suppose I'll have a very clear picture when I'm old enough to see in more detail where it gets me."

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"It's rarely given to us to know where we could have ended up, if we'd made a different choice," says Miles. "We only have the one reality to play with."

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"Yes. But if I risk some particular drawback, and it befalls me, I think I may be legitimately wistful about the lost chance to pursue plans that did not have that specific problem. Who knows, perhaps if I am very clever I will wind up with a ghem-lord who will bring me on a diplomatic excursion to Beta Colony and leave the door unlocked."

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He forestalls a wild urge to ask if she wants to run away with him to Barrayar.

"My mother's Betan," he says instead. "I suppose you'd know that, if you read about me... I like the place fine to visit, but I wouldn't want to live there. Too restrictive - but I suppose for your needs, it would be just fine. I like a planet where I can stand out under the sun without protective gear, though. ...Is, er, 'leave the door unlocked' figurative, or is that really how ghem-lords treat their haut-wives?" he asks, mildly appalled.
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"I've actually never been out under the sun without my bubble unless you count that extremely rainy occasion or don't count the dome as interfering with the sunshine... And, we don't hear back from the wives very often. So perhaps it's vanishingly uncommon; I would like to think so. But if he did decide to lock her up - to do anything he liked to her, for that matter - what do you imagine she could do about it? These are extremely high-status ghem-lords, with powerful friends who owe them favors, and they're often half or more haut themselves genetically speaking, in the event it ever comes down to a physical contest."

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Miles shudders slightly. "What a horrifying thought."

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"But perhaps this never happens. Perhaps all the actual personal relationships are negotiated in their details to the mutual satisfaction of both principals - if not that of the ghem co-wives, I suppose - and the reason one does not hear about any runaways is that I am the only haut-lady who has ever considered living on Beta Colony - or somewhere - preferable."

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"Having a haut-wife is meant to be an honour... but... I suppose it doesn't necessarily follow that the wives in question are treated as cherished people as opposed to cherished ornaments," he says. "Ambulatory medals."

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"Why, what would you do with one if you had one?"

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Miles chokes slightly, coughs, and recovers well enough to answer the question.

"Um," he says. "Well, to be honest, the Vorkosigans haven't been a rich aristocratic family since the Time of Isolation; I wouldn't have all that much luxury to offer, certainly not in comparison to," he waves a vague encircling hand, "all this. But I like to think I'd offer her possibilities. I abhor the waste of a mind. You haut-folk are supposed to be perfect—superhuman—whatever, but I'm getting a strong impression that you aren't supposed to do anything with it except stand around being better than everyone. It's not my business if that's how some people want to occupy themselves, but no wife of mine is going to spend her life locked in a, a brain-brace against her will."

That came out rather more passionately than he meant it to. He subsides, dropping his gaze to the floor.
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Linyabel is now looking at him rather - intently.



"Warn me," she says, "if you decide to do anything very positively impressive in the environs of Cetaganda."
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...This time the sputtering goes on a full several seconds.

But Miles remains Miles—as soon as he regains the capacity for coherent speech, he rejoins with, "Such as for example rescue the Great Key of the Star Creche from a thieving planetary governor, milady?"
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"That might do it," she agrees. "I can't say for sure - you aren't a ghem-lord. But it is not impossible."

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