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Uuuuuuugh. Bleh.

Luzai takes careful notes on all this, and also on the dispositions of various forces and so on.

”Thanks,” she says once the ball has worn down.

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"It's not a problem. Frankly I have enough slots these days for greater scrying that I don't get that much use out of it anyway."

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“Can I borrow it, then?”

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"I don't see why not. Someone will probably try and steal it if you let on you have it, though."

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"I have no plans to let that on publicly. --I have noticed a problem where I want to ask you for lots and lots of favors for the purposes of fighting demons and closing the Worldwound, but I really, emphatically, do not want to accidentally imply that our relationship is--transactional, that I will love you less or display less affection if you say no." 

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“I’m glad. If that was the only way I could have you back, even slightly… I think I would do it, but that wouldn’t make it hurt less.”

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"That's--understandable but also a very horrible scenario. So: I love you, and I would love you even if you stuck me in a very secure demiplane and didn't let me out. I would be mad at you if you did that, unless you did it because I had just done something extremely stupid, but even if I was mad at you I would still love you. I would probably be annoyed with you if you cut me off from any kind of help fighting demons, unless it was, like, because you had just done something really useful and were laying low so Deskari wouldn't figure out it was you, but if I was annoyed with you I would want to, like, talk about it, not try to emotionally blackmail you into doing things I like again." 

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She'll hug Luzai again, because it's been over a century since she's last had this chance and earlier really wasn't enough.

"And for my part, you're not going to run down my love by asking for things, but I'd much rather do things for you than because a paladin asked for it."

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Hug. Luzai does not have the subjective experience of a century of missing her mother, because Seshka wasn't conscious for most of that period, but she is still: overwhelmingly in favor of hug. It's sort of inconvenient how she only has two arms and cannot, like, hug people, and do things, at the same time, for most values of thing. 

"Well, one, that's really fair and makes lots of sense. Two, way less important but still true: Anevia was the one who did the asking and also the one who isn't a paladin. I have no idea if that matters at all but if it does I'd rather have said it. Three, I'm less worried about running down your love than your patience, or your security in my love, albeit that latter concern is much less after being openly addressed. I would much rather ask for one thing you can give me than three things you can't, and I...don't know how hard it is to avoid Deskari noticing you're doing favors for crusaders." 

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"That largely depends on what I'm doing. He can't check in on me directly through a mind blank, so as long as it's something any powerful caster could do like summon a few outsiders or make magic items it should be fine, but if I had told you Deskari was coming there was only a very small list of people who knew he would show up in person."

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"And I'm guessing he has no idea what's up with the magic crossbow bolt to connect it to you." 

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She laughs.

"No, that one is based on Nocticula's abilities. If he goes searching for it, the trail won't lead him back to me."

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"Nocticula? I wasn't aware she was involved with the Worldwound at all."

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"As I understand it she would rather not be, but when the Worldwound expanded a number of the rifts opened to the midnight isles. The one under Drezen, for instance, links to a hill overlooking Alushinyrra."

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"Wow, okay. Oh! Something that is one hundred percent me and not paladins: if you happen to come across any corpses of celestials, would you hold onto them for me? I don't expect to be able to do anything with them now, but if I can eventually replicate what you did with me, or better yet manage my old ambition of someday cracking open Geb's insubstantial skull and peeling out his secrets, it might someday be the case that someone whose body I have is someone I can save and someone whose body was devoured by a swarm of quasits is someone I can't." 

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Areelu smiles at the familiar ambition on display, though the target is slightly new. 

"There aren't very many of those in the worldwound, but there's no shortage of demons looking for my favor, so if I put word out that I'd like them for my experiments that might turn some up. Come to think of it, I might still have one in my old lab as well."

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Luzai makes a face. She knows Mom did a lot of horrible things to save her, but...individual horrible things are still horrible. 

"I do have to worry that if you say you want celestial corpses then demons will be moved to create them." 

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"Probably. It's not like they need a lot of encouragement to try."

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"Tch. Point. Alright then." She shivers. "You know, I don't have any episodic memory of being an Abyssal larva, but I have some very strong negative affect around it."

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Oh no. Now she's crying, even as she refuses to let Luzai go.

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OH NO WHAT A PREDICTABLE CONSEQUENCE FOR HER ACTIONS TO HAVE. 

"I'm okay," she says fiercely, clinging back. "I'm here, I'm okay, everything's going to be alright." 

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"It'll never happen again. Never ever ever. I promise."

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"It won't. I know it won't. Everything I'm afraid of involves things happening to other people. And because I am scared of things happening to other people, I can still get stronger, even though I'm safe." 

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That's right, she's safe. And if anyone tries to stop her from being safe, Areelu will just have to destroy them.

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Well Luzai would really like for no more people to be destroyed on her behalf than already have been, but, you know, she hasn't been kicked out of the crusaders, so probably anyone who does try would be a demon, and Luzai doesn't like demons being destroyed (there but for my mother's love go I...), but under the circumstances she can hardly object. 

Cling. If Mom wants to just hug-cry until Luzai needs to head back, Luzai is okay with this. 

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