Is your current situation safe? Granted I am not sure how much we can do if it is not -- contact with the forum dramatically improved mine, but it does not sound as though we are from the same world -- but it is possible we can offer advice.
And -- the forum has been very welcoming to artificial persons so far, as you have probably seen, you should be fine if you need someone to talk to about normal things, but if you -- if you need someone to talk to about this my siblings and I have -- experience with that problem. (Hermes' is from the outside, granted, but he has been with us through it.)