He's comfortable moment to moment. Doesn't currently want to die, even conditioning on it actually killing him in real life, even though there's a substantial chance that it would start him over again. He acts like he does because he doesn't see a need to self-censor the first things that pop into his head.

There isn't a need. I just - why would anyone be so pointlessly aggressively senselessly evil?

I don't know. Ours didn't explain himself satisfactorily. The fact that Cam's was willing to stop to get the Valar killed is suggestive but I'm not sure of what.

Sigh.

Squeeze.

You really think he'll eventually be okay?

It'll take a while, especially by his own standards, but yes.

Okay.

You really don't have to worry about sitting with him if it's hard for you; being alone is unusually difficult for you and he's not like that.

I should learn as many horrifying things as I can now so they don't shock me when they matter.

That's an option too.

If he'd rather be alone that's one thing.

He really doesn't have a preference. Cam and Miranda and I are checking on him now and then and he's roughly indifferent past that.

Time differences make that hard.

He has a computer. You can send him messages if you want.

I have no idea what I want and don't really think it's a useful way to be deciding what to do right now.

All right.

There're so many worlds -

Nod.

Singing.

Yes, that.

He's going to be at it awhile.

She hugs him again and leaves eventually.

His boyfriend is - pensive. 

It's a little worrying. It is not as relaxing as it should be, this little bubble outside of time, both because of the serious excess of Maitimos and because the situation seems designed for instability. Anyone could walk in at any time. 

"Sauron could walk in," he says to Midnight.

"Yes. Are you afraid of that?"