Gods don't cry.
Their emotions vary as much as their natures. They are immense, and often alien, but some of them understand human suffering: sadness, grief, pain, loss, fear. They can feel these, but they are not incapacitated by them as a human might be.
Those who were mortals lose their negative emotions in ascending, or discard them later. Most do not go as far as Iomedae, who discarded all Her human foibles to perfect Herself as an instrument of the war on Evil; but gods as different as Cayden and Irori do not feel acute, immobilizing grief. Why keep suffering if your decision algorithm no longer needs it?
Milani is different.
She never wanted to be a god. She only wanted not to die, to keep helping people. She accepted Aroden's offer of immortality so she could keep on acting in the world, but she never really though of herself as one of Them.
She doesn't have a carefully crafted and curated mind, or values separate from actions. Just a shell of godstuff without any will or personality, running sped-up simulations of a half-elf with cunning and wisdom and splendor all boosted far beyond mortal limits, feeding her knowledge and plans as she tries desperately to do her best for Good in a Chaotic world.
She betrayed Aroden, later, when she rose to true godhood. She expected to be called Chaotic Neutral for it, for all that she didn't do it for her own benefit. But Pharasma's judgement never came, and she doesn't know if it's because Her idea of Good is too alien to her own or because She really was blinded by the breaking of prophecy, and of course she doesn't dare ask, but - she judges herself, and she doesn't think she deserves to be called Good anymore, for what she's done, even though she hopes it was for the best.
But still she lives, and still she wants to help others, and it is easier to do that if others think you're Good. So she accepts the moniker, and lives in Elysium, and plants roses.
She expected better of Them. The real Good gods, the ones not simulating all the imperfections of meat and bone. Even Desna is arguing about cost and benefit, about hoping to be proven right. And maybe that's what's needed, maybe it's the only way to convince everyone else, but she's horrified by the idea that Desna might really believe it. As if freedom, and allies, and fighting Evil outside your safe little bubble, are things you can just - trade away, if you can get enough Good in return. As if there's no other way to be or to reason, if you prune yourself to perfection.
Milani finds herself crying. It's not an argument that will persuade Anyone here. Most of them wouldn't even know to care. She knows she isn't doing her best. She should terminate this simulation and try again. Try to find a clever stratagem, some better way forward. But what can she possibly offer Them that They have not priced in already, in Their alien calculations?