I guess that is the important part isn't it. If I wanted things in my life to have well defined probabilities while living my life with the Spirit's Power I would probably need Realism or something else that makes the narrative weaker.

Yes. With Providential Parenthood, I think you can think of it as... if you're using birth control, it's because you don't feel that you're ready to have a child, which isn't a full answer to the question of whether you're ready, so Providential Parenthood can still override that, but there are times when it might have given you a child if you hadn't chosen to use birth control, and won't because you did. (If your partner is choosing to use birth control, and you care about their readiness, Providential Parenthood won't override it for them because it would be inappropriate to do that when they haven't chosen to take a power specifically for sometimes having children unexpectedly.)

That makes sense. Thanks for explaining with all that detail. 

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And shortly after that she's finished reading the powers that have shields against hidden dangers and onto the drawbacks.

The line saying she may not find peace in Signature Style is a little ominous but she's mostly okay with it. A question does occur to her though. And then she thinks a bit more and decides that it's not really worth asking. It Gets Better doesn't promise she eventually has no problems or complaints it just promises she'll be okay. Wearing clothes that aren't a fit for what she wants is hardly the end of the world.

Thinking a little more there is another question that comes up though:

Just to confirm a dress that fits my style that is keeping me as warm as a winter coat would because of Cosmetic Equipment still counts as fitting my style right?

Yes.

The next drawback she hasn't spent as much time reading about is Makes The Dream Work

So it says that if my powers would make me the central star they'll hold back from doing that. Does that mean that my powers in general become less effective if they would help me with the project or just that powers specifically oriented to move me into the center of things hold back?

Hmm, that's kind of a complicated question...

The short answer is no, it's not making you less effective, it's disrupting any power effect that would make you outshine or overpower your colleagues socially.

The long answer is that there are a lot of ways to outshine or overpower people socially by being more effective and successful than them, but you probably won't be trying to do those things? If you are approaching teamwork with the attitude that you want to be working with people and helping them and teaching them so that you're all more effective together, you won't have a problem. The only way your effectiveness might end up getting dampened by Makes The Dream Work is if you're using your effectiveness as a way of keeping other people down.

That sounds like another promise I'm comfortable making on behalf of my future self.

Thanks for clarifying and also for making a drawback that fits me so well.

I try! ♡

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Okay so next question does Nullified replace Incomplete? I feel like it's a little implied that it does but I don't think it's outright stated. I feel like Incomplete would also prevent some effects people are okay with like You Can Teach Better.

Yes, Nullified replaces Incomplete.

Great!

Okay so... A Single Perfect Flaw. I think I'm leaning toward the option about being unable to kill people. I think I like being unable to injure people better aesthetically but it's closing off a lot of options I hope I won't actually need.

I think that makes sense.

What I'm wondering now is what it'll be like to have this operating on my life. Because... I can see a version or being unable to kill that's more like a power where I can do anything and somehow magically nobody will die. That doesn't really fit as a flaw though.

So that makes me expect it'll be more like being unable to bring myself to do certain things or freezing up if I try. Does that sound right to you?

More like freezing up than like having people mysteriously not die when you do things that should otherwise kill them, yes. I think the details of how exactly you're prevented will depend on your narrative sense and what feels appropriate to you.

She nods.

Okay, do you have a sense of where it might draw the line? Or is that a choice I need to make now?

Sorry I guess I'm not explaining myself very well.

She pauses and takes a breath.

I don't want to find myself in a position like this but I can imagine a situation where people die whatever choice I make and I'm wondering if this would mean I just can't make any choices at all I that sort of situation.

Being unable to kill would mean being unable to kill a person directly, through your own actions. Making decisions that indirectly cause deaths would still be possible. I'm having trouble imagining a scenario where your choices are between directly acting to kill some people and directly acting to kill others, but yes, in that situation you wouldn't be able to do either of those things and would just not be able to act. You also wouldn't be able to kill a person in order to save someone they were about to kill.

I think the solution to most of these dilemmas is going to be to focus on making the world better in ways that don't involve killing people.

I think I'm okay with that. And yeah you're right about it probably not coming up. It means nobody should put me in charge of a bunch of people who are fighting but I don't really want to be in that position anyway.

Yes.

I guess I do need to choose what I should forget about with Selective Memory.

I remember my original plan was to forget Down To Earth but that I thought that might not be the right choice given Seen With The Heart.

I don't want to put myself in a position where the reasoning I went though doesn't make sense given the things I'm hiding from myself.

That has me contemplating a few ideas. One thought I have is to try to balance the powers and drawbacks I'm forgetting so that I remember the amount of spare points I have correctly. I'm also leaning towards letting myself remember that there are powers and drawbacks I'm hiding.

My first thought based on all that would be to forget:

Disney Princess, Personal Space and Popular for powers and Dramatic Damsel and Down To Earth for drawbacks. I'm not sure if that would work though.

Forgetting Popular without forgetting Approachable sounds like it might turn out strangely.

Yeah... it might. I was planning on being a public figure way before I got to Popular though so I can imagine taking this power without knowing about Popular. If they weren't directly connected I'm pretty sure I would have considered taking just Approachable and not Popular.

I guess I don't have a good model for what forgetting things and having all the evidence erased will be like. Another thought I had was to forget powers that I would be bound to notice immediately but I wasn't sure how that would work.